Bipolar check-in #70

All at Aldi?

They often sell out pretty fast but they still had a few. I didn't get one last year and I didn't bother in 2020 but in 2019 I had to wait in a long line before the store opened to get one.

Yeah all at Aldi's. They used to have beer ones too

Cool, so another no call/no show from my ACT person (who said "see you next week" last week). I cut my walk short today to make it for the noon appointment but nope, didn't have to. Apparently you only get help if you're in a crisis or just coming out of one.

I was crabby this morning because I needed my shot. So I got it. I think I'm going to learn how to give them to myself in my thigh. I currently get it in my arm but my mom isn't very good at it anymore and I need to learn sooner or later anyways. I also haven't been eating the greatest. I was feeling better physically from covid so my mom and I decided to go out to eat since often I'm anxious because I need to eat. I ordered half a salad and half a grilled chicken sandwhich and I inhaled both of them and its like I can't remember the last time I had an actual healthy legit meal. I also seem to be back on track with my meds after an annoying couple of days trying to manage them with DSL.

On the Today Show this morning Hoda made some comment about chubbier people and being attractive and she sounded like she was kinda being fat phobic and then Jenna at one point asked Hoda "can you still wear that dress?" Regarding a dress Hoda wore a couple years ago. Both my mom and I were like "wtf is this crap."

I wonder if cake walks are still a thing at fairs. Kinda a gross concept when you think about it now.

This is for sure the best I've felt physically and mentally since getting Covid. I think its finally all out of my system..

My pdoc agreed to start gabapentin.

I also spoke with her about getting time off work since my stress is really high. She said she'll help with the paperwork to make it happen. I think it'll be short term disability. I really need the break.

I got my med filled-- so another crisis fixed this month, until next month rolls around. ugh.

Hope everyone is doing OK.

Yes cake walks are a thing. At least in rural Kentucky..

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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots Cool, so another no call/no show from my ACT person (who said "see you next week" last week). I cut my walk short today to make it for the noon appointment but nope, didn't have to. Apparently you only get help if you're in a crisis or just coming out of one.

Well, that really blows. I just love when I schedule my entire life around a psych or therapy appointment and they flake on me or call an hour prior to cancel.

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Originally Posted by Brentus I got my med filled-- so another crisis fixed this month, until next month rolls around. ugh.

Excellent.

I'm so glad you're feeling better @Mountaindewed. wth with the Today show?

Yeah, cake walks are a thing at school carnivals. I won a cake once when my kids were in elementary school. David and the kids were excited, which was fun, but I felt bad because I had to choose a cake and I knew some people's stuff wasn't getting chosen, which was sad.

That time off will be great @Scooter9. What are you going on Gabapentin for?

My dad always made us do them because he was the one who wanted the cakes. Not too many other kids seemed interested in them and my dad had all 3 of us doing them at one time, so we were always winning. It just doesn't seem very sanitary these days. Picking a homemade cake from someone you don't know.

We don't have Aldi's or Tim Horton's here. Seems weird. We have Trader Joe's. Costs a fortune. We have Nugget, where I shop. It's somewhat pricey but the place is incredible, what they have in stock and the staff are so sweet. They have tons of free samples for HABA (health and beauty aids) and a nice little cafe in the store. Their espresso is excellent, not crap. We have Raley's, Safeway, Bel Air (hate that place), Walmart. Walmart grocery stores are so filthy I won't shop there, but David does because he loves bargains. We have La Superior. David shops there because he speaks Spanish pretty well. That's all I can think of. Oh, in the city I come from there's a family owned grocery store called Corti Brothers. Old-fashioned, the original kind of upscale specialty grocery store. Sometimes I miss it. Mostly I don't, because the guy who owns it now, the grandson of the original owner, his wife Helen is racist. She disgusts me (she used to be my neighbor).

It's been raining, which is wonderful. I had a tech scheduled to come out today to try to fix my internet issues. Over the week-end the internet was working well, so I cancelled the tech visit. The rain started and I suppose the old lines here got wet. Internet down literally every 4 - 5 minutes all. effing. day. My nerves are shot and my stomach hurts. I have to do work online, which is impossible when the internet keeps going down. Unplug modem. Restart computer. Repeat. Repeat. All day since 6 a.m. I called half-hysterical so a tech is coming out tomorrow.

I have a phone appointment with med dude at 5 p.m. I have to do something because I am badly depressed and obsessing over everything. Either that or I'm losing my mind from my internet issues.

Yesterday I met an angel in the Nugget Market parking lot. I deeply regretted not bringing her back to my apartment, because I have clothes to give to her. And I could have given her some food.

Wow, the internet has stayed connected for a whole 5 minutes.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed My dad always made us do them because he was the one who wanted the cakes. Not too many other kids seemed interested in them and my dad had all 3 of us doing them at one time, so we were always winning. It just doesn't seem very sanitary these days. Picking a homemade cake from someone you don't know.

That's just wrong. I wish your dad wouldn't have done that. The cake walks I know about are elementary school Halloween carnivals (mine, then my kids'). Fortunately, everyone knew everyone else, at least as an acquaintance. It's possible that I chose cakes only from people I felt I could trust.

Brrr I couldn’t get warmed up after aqua fitness. So I didn’t go to the movies like I planed. Wasn’t thrilled with my choices anyway. In a couple weeks there will be better ones but the one I’m really wanting to see is the second Avatar movie.

Today Steve admitted he’s really struggling to breathe. I’ve noticed for the last couple months he’s not doing so good but he of course said he’s fine.

He has an appt with pulmonologist Thursday. Not sure they will be able to do much as he’s already on heavy hitters medications.

Chaise wants him to come to Florida for Christmas but last time he flew he struggled to breathe bad … also there’s no way to take his oxygen concentrator ( it’s huge) which he has to have for sleeping. I know Steve is going to be miserable to say the least this holiday season not being with his boys and Payton.

I know over time Steve will continue to get worse and one day he will need oxygen 24/7 but I hope and pray its not anytime soon !

I think I’m fully in a downward spiral into depression. I see Richard tomorrow… maybe that will help

Hope everyone is okay

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oh @~Christina,

am sorry that steve is not doing well. wonder if the insurance company that you have would provide for a portable condenser or if you could rent it?
much love and concern for you and your family.
bizi

This morning, I mentioned to Hubby that a mild depression is setting in. I've been trying to deny it. The place we're temporarily living in has a lot going for it, in terms of rural beauty, but I think it's the wrong environment right now. Even more isolating. And we're not taking advantage of it in the way we should.

There continues to be a delay in the transfer of the property we're buying. It's all bureaucratic crap that's more the seller's issue than ours, but we are still affected. The owner asked us to come on Thursday to talk about "something". It's unsure what it will be. What I'll say is that we don't want to contribute to offering any bribe to the administrative officer(s). This is still not a rare practice here. Leftover from the communist days. We also don't want to have to pay the seller additional rent, which we've been doing in order to work on the place this past month. We didn't count on having to do so beyond last week, when the transfer was supposed to have happened. I think the latter may be negotiable.

Regardless of above, it's looking like we may not get into our own house until later than originally projected. Or, we have to move there while it's still spartan. I just looked and then told Hubby that the place we're in is booked by someone else starting the end of February. I'm almost glad so that we go somewhere else. If our upcoming place can be lived in in a spartan way then, we could shower at SIL's, if necessary. And eat lunch/dinner at pubs or SIL's. We'd rather not stay with her for too long. Hubby fights with her sometimes, and I hate being a long-term guest. Perhaps she'd rather we not, too. An alternative could be staying in Prague in a friend's apartment. She mostly lives in Germany, so at least it would be us only much of the time.

Got my COVID booster on Monday, one that covered the latest strains. Had my usual flash in the pan symptoms, but they weren't too bad. Better late than never, I guess.

My dad finally went to the doc who confirmed what my mom and I were both thinking. An infection was causing all of the pain and swelling in that leg and he was prescribed the appropriate medications to deal with it. He certainly has a ways to go, but there's been noticeable improvement since!

My cousin seems very intent on getting the police involved to deal with his temper tantrum. Three days after blocking his phone calls, he shows up unannounced at my house banging down my door. Then knocking on my every window. He's become the living embodiment of Alex from Fatal Attraction ("I will not be IGNORED, Aurelius!). It quite sad that he's made himself into a caricature like that.

Now, unannounced visits while I'm home are one thing, but I have a strong suspicion he's making unannounced visits while I'm at work. In my spare time, I'm going to look at a camera to place overlooking the carport and driveway. If I'm going to involve the authorities, I want my case to be rock solid.

Work is going by quite well! Modest sales yesterday, but it was Tursday, so... My boss did say she was gonna come by and help me with some proper sales tables. either today or Friday. I'm actually excited for that!

Aurelius, that sounds scary, or at least disconcerting, at the least. I hope your cousin finally gets the message that he should stop the harassment.

Yeah I hope I can get the time off.

I'm on the gabapentin for anxiety. I'm on Klonopin now but I'm starting to become tolerant on my current dose and didn't want to increase it, so I asked for gabapentin instead.

It's my first day on it today. Feeling anxious but not as bad as before. I think my target is 3 pills, 3 times a day but I'm on just 1, 3 times a day for now.

Looking forward to some relief from the anxiety and stress from work.

Ohhhhhh guys the pool was sooooo great this morning. It was 90 degrees. Wonderful. They were worrying that it was too hot to work out but it was so nice! I loved it.

I heard though the grape vine that there was no red tide. That’s good news. But I haven’t yet tuned in to get the numbers. Still avoiding the news.

I ordered a charcuterie board for our neighbors that did so much yard work. It looks really good out there. I’m hoping they like it. I pick it up today after 2 pm. Mum has a service but he wasn’t on the ball. Our neighbors are retired and bored, so they were happy to do it. We live in a great neighborhood. A safe neighborhood.

I had a good therapy session. We talked about the election. I'm not sure poltics should be discussed in therapy but I was the one who brought it up and we both share the same poltical beliefs so it was fine. We got a lot talked about besides poltics including eating stuff and Thanksgiving stuff and then we talked about the new therapist and how my current one will still kinda be involved, like she'll get updates and stuff like that.

Anyways, this morning I had a fruitcake flavored Mountain Dew along with a bottle of peppermint mocha Starbucks coffee and then an hour or so later I ate a couple pieces of tilapia. I've been feeling queasy ever since. I wasn't paying attention to the combination. But my Covid symptoms still seem to be gone. I got my monthly blood test but I still haven't gotten the results of that yet.

While my mom was out while I was doing therapy she got me some pepto bismol tablets. The bottle says they help with nausea and upset stomach due to overindulgence of food and drink. I just took a couple, so we'll see if they get rid of my nausea from the coffee fish combo.

I know there is probably a better place to post this, but I don't really know where ( you can redirect me -- but my question isn't something I really feel the need to get a huge amount of responses from, so as long as it doesnt bug anyone I'll just post it here). I saw my Primary care doctor today and did some blood work and all that. She refilled some of my general prescriptions for me and wants me to try a new medicine for migraines calls Ubrelvy. I've never heard of it but she talked it up like it's a great drug. Just curious if anyone has tried it. She suggested it to me for two reasons -- 1) I prefer a drug for when a migraine hits rather than preventative measures because I already take so many daily meds AND lots of those drugs work on the same neurotransmitter receptors. 2) I do get migraines enough to warrant medicine but I wouldn't say I need something everyday to combat it. This drug in particular is special in that it can be taken up to four hours after a migraine starts and still be very effective (unlike other drugs like triptans [imitrex for example] that usually is much more effective at the first sign of a migraine. We'll see how it goes -- but here's to hoping I never have to use it! haha