Bipolar check in #73

Happy birthday 🎂🎊🎈🎉🎁

Happy birthday Brentus!

Happy Birthday, Brentus!

I spontaneously wrote up at about 530 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep so I just chatted with ChatGPT - it's really good!

I had my coffee, chatted with my wife and found myself asleep. I woke up at 10, so I guess I need more sleep. It's a holiday here today so just about everything is closed. It's sunny and above freezing temp so we'll probably go for a walk later.

I'll also try to exercise at home.

Last night my sister and brother in law dropped the kids off around 4. I was in ER type stomach pain and lying as still as possible to let some Advil work. The boys ran off to watch TV. My niece was just shreking so badly I wondered if she was sick enough to need an ambulance. I am totally clueless when it comes to kids. I guess she was just really hungry and tired because after she ate she fell asleep right away

I was trying to figure out how to sleep decently for the first night in awhile. I then remembered Pink Floyds Dark Side Of The Moon is better then any sleeping pill. Right as the first song started I fell asleep. Then I woke up at midnight and I stayed up until 1:30 and then I tried Dark Side again and I got to the clocks chiming in Time before falling asleep again until almost 5:30. Its totally weird what works and what doesn't.

Today I'm doing better. I'm kinda queasy but I don't have the intense pain or any other major issues. I'm still glad I cancelled therapy. I don't think even a remote session would have been productive. My sister picked up my niece last night but my nephews slept over. They are fine and my mom got Mcdonalds for them for lunch. I got a 6 piece nugget. My appetite has gone down since starting the vitamin D. I guess it causes weight loss for some people. Not that I can lose much weight before I get sent to an eating disorder unit. I'm glad I have my doctors appointment tommorow though.

Kinda ironic if Carter died today on Presidents Day

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear The ****ing meds have been approved. The whole world has not gone mad.

That is WONDERFUL, Fuzzy dear!

Brightest blessings @Brentus!

He’s okay my friend and thanks for asking

I’m okay but I’m really tired!

Happy birthday Brent!

Happy Birthday, Brentus!

Not much to report on my end. We went to our new house to see the progress. The kitchen was supposed to have been completed today, but they called and delayed to tomorrow. There were some unexpected changes to the cabinet layout which reduced some storage space. We have a backup plan which isn't ideal, but will work.

My back continues to hurt. I also had some intermittent upset stomachs today. Not sure why. I'm okay right now.

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Happy Birthday, Brentus!

Happy birthday brentus

I am so lightheaded right now. My blood pressure is 108 over 77. I have a pain in the upper left side of my stomach. I went to the bathroom and the room started spinning and I had to put my head in my hands so I didn't pass out. I just need to hang on for another night and then I have my doctors appointment. I'm fixing dinner now.

I have chest pains now but I'm still trying to hold off. I always down play a possible crisis. I don't feel very anxious. My chest pain is similar to the pain I had when I was recovering from my top surgery. Dull and achy.

Sorry you are feeling so unwell. Your blood pressure seems pretty ideal, though. I used to always run at those numbers in my youth. Unless you have some special exception, generally low blood pressure is more below 90/60. If you're lightheaded, I'd wonder if it is from something else. Could be as innocent as anxiety, though anxiety doesn't always feel innocent.

Happy birthday Brentus! The cake is beautiful, hope you enjoy your day

Sorry about the storm and having to cancel Aqua Fitness, I know you really enjoy the aqua fitness

That makes sense that your dreams reflect a lot of anxiety with everything you're going through, I hope you better more pleasant dreams tonight

Yeah going to the grocery storm before a storm is always chaotic with all the people, hope you get everything you need and are able to stay inside and stay warm after and enjoy a book or something

Hope you feel better Mountaindewed its good you have an appointment tomorrow

I've been getting on the treadmill a lot, doing yoga regularly, etc, it's helping my mental health a lot. Today I did 30 minutes on the treadmill and 15 minutes of stress relief yoga.

My anxiety has been pretty bad lately, so I'm doing everything I can to manage that. I started practicing ukulele again. My focus has been better the past 2 days. So I've been able to read quite a bit of a book series I started. For awhile I was struggling so hard to focus, I couldn't even watch a 20 minute show I enjoy without pausing it 8 times to stop and do something else or take a break because I just couldn't focus for that long. I wasn't getting any reading done. I was starting and stopping books, starting and stopping, reading too many at once, getting overwhelmed then just giving up on reading for awhile.

My mood has been mostly good. A little up and down some, and paranoid sometimes though but that is just what it is, a part of me, that's there frequently, I just try my best to challenge the thoughts and let it go, try to not let it affect me. Been isolated too much the past few days and sometimes it gets to me. There's no events going on in the building today because it's a holiday and obviously saturday and sunday nothing was going on because it was the weekend.

I'll be honest, I wasn't doing great on Saturday, I was walking home from the store and a large group of teenagers started laughing at me and making fun of me loudly. Which really hurt my feelings and self esteem. I was just walking home. I just tried my best to ignore them and walked home but when I got back inside my apartment I cried for awhile. It just made me feel like a freak or something and that I'm an outcast or something. I' m 28, I feel like it shouldn't have bothered me as much as it did but it really hurt my feelings and made me concerned about walking places again. I live in bad neighborhood, shootings, drug deals, etc. Making fun of me is on thing but one started to cross the street to approach me for some reason and i got a little concerned about my safety for a second, another of the teens told her to just leave me alone, so she walked back to the group and they left while I was walking home

Oh dear. That was very wrong of them. I’d feel concerned too and I’m almost 65. I’m sorry you had to experience that. You are doing great things. Yoga and exercise! Keep it up.

I'm so happy because I'm finally getting Sidney's blood glucose down into a better range than it was in for quite a long time. I can tell she's feeling better because she's out here in the living room, curled up on a chair instead of spending the entire day sound asleep on the bed. God, she's amazing! Getting poked with needles for 18 months and she has never once been anything but totally focused and cooperative.

A lovely, sunshiny day today. I'm enjoying it especially because the rest of the week is predicted to be unusually chilly, and probably a cold rain.

What happened to Marcus Welby, M.D.? It's not on tv anymore

You are an inspiration @Blue_Bird! You're just doing so many healthy, wonderful things!

I feel so bad for you, what happened with those kids. That kind of garbage can really sting. Here I am, 60 years old, and I can still come close to tears when I recall being 25, enormously pregnant, and I was in the grocery store. I had barely been able to get behind the steering wheel of the car with my big belly (I was a week from my due date, and Noah weighed just under 11lbs. at birth). There were 2 girls in the store, probably ten years younger than I was. Stupid girls were following me through a couple of aisles and teasing me, laughing. I feel embarrassed to say it, but I left my cart of groceries, left the store, drove home, and didn't go out again until Noah was born. I loved my pregnant body, but those girls made me feel ashamed. And here 34 years later it still hurts.

I hope those kids feel ashamed of their rotten behavior toward you when they look back on it, and learn never to do such a thing again.

You didn't deserve that, Beth, maybe by now they have both been pregnant and feel ashamed about that behaviour

I'm glad to hear Sidney is doing better, that's wonderful

Glad you have a sunny day to enjoy

Thank you, and I'm sorry you dealt with that, that's terrible that you felt you couldn't go out after that

I do hope they do learn from it someday

Thank you everyone for your birthday wishes. They were greatly appreciated. Sadly my night has already been ruined. I don't really have the energy to explain much more than that. I just thought maybe I'd have this one day stress-free. Oh well.