Bipolar check in #73

Hello friends. I started a career readiness workshop. One of the first steps is to volunteer more so I can have more experience to put on my resume for when I start applying for part-time jobs, since I'm lacking work experience I really need a lot of volunteer experience to kind /somewhat make up for that. So far I have 8 hours logged with a shelter near here serving meals/kitchen prep. I have a shift next Wednesday and one on that Friday as well. They're each 2 hour shifts. I have one more after that towards the end of this month then in April I'm gonna try to sign up for and do 10 shifts so that will make my hours logged go up a lot.

Been painting my miniatures a lot lately, it's a fun relaxing hobby

Here's one I started, it's not finished yet, I'm hoping to finish it within the next week or so. This is the 3rd figure I've done. Hoping to improve my skills over time

Looking forward to St. Patrick's Day tomorrow. Having corned beef and cabbage

I made it today! I turned my depression around by using structured time and by the words I said to myself in all the different sections of my schedule.

I find especially the talk I use for bringing "drifting thoughts" back to the here and now very helpful.

This doesn't mean that I will be fine tomorrow as well, but it means that for my problems, proper schedules together with how I use my inner talk is my way into a better life.

I can fall and forget that, but I must practice, practice and practice again to remember how to use my psychological tools when I fall.

Hi five from me to me! (Tomorrows plan is already written).

Hope you can get some help with your hearing "things". It must be very tiring to have it that way!

You did the best you could. That is enough for now!

Wish you good luck with it all!

Congratulation for starting to prepare!

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird Hello friends. I started a career readiness workshop. One of the first steps is to volunteer more so I can have more experience to put on my resume for when I start applying for part-time jobs, since I'm lacking work experience I really need a lot of volunteer experience to kind /somewhat make up for that. So far I have 8 hours logged with a shelter near here serving meals/kitchen prep. I have a shift next Wednesday and one on that Friday as well. They're each 2 hour shifts. I have one more after that towards the end of this month then in April I'm gonna try to sign up for and do 10 shifts so that will make my hours logged go up a lot. Been painting my miniatures a lot lately, it's a fun relaxing hobby Here's one I started, it's not finished yet, I'm hoping to finish it within the next week or so. This is the 3rd figure I've done. Hoping to improve my skills over time Looking forward to St. Patrick's Day tomorrow. Having corned beef and cabbage

Hi Birdie! I'm so proud of you for the (very) hard work you're doing.

The miniature is really cool. I like the way you painted the fire

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Originally Posted by Rosi700 I made it today! I turned my depression around by using structured time and by the words I said to myself in all the different sections of my schedule. I find especially the talk I use for bringing "drifting thoughts" back to the here and now very helpful. This doesn't mean that I will be fine tomorrow as well, but it means that for my problems, proper schedules together with how I use my inner talk is my way into a better life. I can fall and forget that, but I must practice, practice and practice again to remember how to use my psychological tools when I fall. Hi five from me to me! (Tomorrows plan is already written).

Good on you, Rosi!

I joined the senior center today. There’s not a lot compared to the center in Texas but it’s something social. It gets lonely without mum here. Today I went to bingo. It’s only .50 cents per card. So a buck for me. I’m not one who can have 6 or more cards. 2 is plenty. Winning gets you $3. I sort of socialized with those near me. It was pleasant and low keyed. Depends on the weather but tomorrow I’ll go play rummy 500. That should be even easier as you sit at tables of 4. So reading lips will be easier. I’m not competitive I’m just out for fun and want to be around people.

My mom and I went out to a few towns over to do some shopping. At a Walgreens the guy checking out behind us was hacking real bad and the lady he was with didnt look much better. They didnt have masks on and neither did I or anyone else in the store. I used hand sanitizer when I got in the car though. I don't think it will be a big deal. Covid seems to have disapeared and that severe tripledemic never happened.

Anyways I'm just in general tired right now even though its early. I think I'll just try to go to sleep early

He upped my Lybalvi 15mg instead of my usual 10. And he’s
Sending 5mg of just plain olanzipine for me to take in am
While I’m taking prednisone for my upper respiratory infection. He said he’s positive that plus stress is why I’m having psychotic symptoms. So he thinks
Taking a little extra will help for now.

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Originally Posted by Nammu I joined the senior center today. There’s not a lot compared to the center in Texas but it’s something social. It gets lonely without mum here. Today I went to bingo. It’s only .50 cents per card. So a buck for me. I’m not one who can have 6 or more cards. 2 is plenty. Winning gets you $3. I sort of socialized with those near me. It was pleasant and low keyed. Depends on the weather but tomorrow I’ll go play rummy 500. That should be even easier as you sit at tables of 4. So reading lips will be easier. I’m not competitive I’m just out for fun and want to be around people.

Good for you!

I really screwed up yesterday. Got angry about some stuff, which included being angry about not being able to be hypomanic. So I took 60 mg of Prozac (instead of 40) and snorted a Valium. I got very high, didn't feel very well, and my nose burned like hell. I'm being really hard on myself for doing that stuff with the meds, which is not logical because I wouldn't be hard or judgmental to anyone else who did the same thing I did.

Kind-of funny, though...I had a mild cold, but a while after I snorted the Valium I had to keep blowing my nose to stop the burning. I blew my nose so much that this morning the cold was completely gone.

Thanks for listening to me. You all know so much more about me than my own husband will ever know.

I went down a rabbit hole today.

I'm trying different ways of combining red, green, and blue in such a way that the green isn't even visible even though it's the strongest color. I kind of got things working in one instance but it didn't translate into another instance.

So I left it as a learning experience. I can still combine the colors, just not in the way I had hoped. It's all good though.

I'm feeling low but that's ok. I'm going to the gym tomorrow, maybe I'll get a chance to work out my upper and lower body instead of just upper or lower. Depends how busy the machines are when I get there.

I officially pissed off h being in bed so long. He and m were going to a workshop tomorrow and I'm now to tag along. Which means taking the train I'm not ready for that. H says I'm withdrawn and becoming agoraphobic. What does he think he's going to get when you move a person that's scared of people to a city full of them. He doesn't know what to do because I've never been one to stay in bed. Now it's been 3ish months. I hate it here and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm still super depressed.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed My mom and I went out to a few towns over to do some shopping. At a Walgreens the guy checking out behind us was hacking real bad and the lady he was with didnt look much better. They didnt have masks on and neither did I or anyone else in the store. I used hand sanitizer when I got in the car though. I don't think it will be a big deal. Covid seems to have disapeared and that severe tripledemic never happened. Anyways I'm just in general tired right now even though its early. I think I'll just try to go to sleep early

When I had my eye exam everyone had to wear masks, but then the examining doctor pulled her mask down so her nose was exposed. She had a cold or something and kept wiping her nose with her hand and sniffling. It was gross! Then sure enough, I had a sore throat and cold for a few days. I wish I would have said, Maybe you need a Kleenex?

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Originally Posted by Scooter9 I went down a rabbit hole today. I'm trying different ways of combining red, green, and blue in such a way that the green isn't even visible even though it's the strongest color. I kind of got things working in one instance but it didn't translate into another instance. ...

I'm sorry, Scooter

What are the colors about?

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom I officially pissed off h being in bed so long. He and m were going to a workshop tomorrow and I'm now to tag along. Which means taking the train I'm not ready for that. H says I'm withdrawn and becoming agoraphobic. What does he think he's going to get when you move a person that's scared of people to a city full of them. He doesn't know what to do because I've never been one to stay in bed. Now it's been 3ish months. I hate it here and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm still super depressed.

Is there something nice you can do while they're in the workshop?

I took two prazosin instead of my usual
One so hopefully I’ll feel calmer tomorrow

Oh hun I’m so sorry your struggling so hard. Long haul Covid ?? So many people struggle after it. A friend has been struggling for almost a year after Covid.

Sorry damage from storm. That wind was vicious here.

I hope you and M can get together soon !

Much love and hopes you fully recover asap

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(((((( Beth ))))))

Yeah give yourself grace that you will give others.

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Nammu .. glad your getting Sir a check up. He could very well be mourning the loss of your Mum.

Muddy ? You okay ?

Wild ? How are you holding up ? Ect helping?

Soupe ! So glad your kitchen is coming together. Hope you can move in soon!

Blue! You do an amazing job painting them !

Sunflower.. feeling any better ?

Scooter .. sorry things are a bit of a struggle ?

Hallie. Med change will help. You have been dealing with enough hallucinations long enough

Miguel’s Mom .. maybe you could schedule something once a week so you can get back into leaving your home on a regular basis?

Jane glad your doing well and back to scrabble! How’s your fur baby ?

Rainbow … how’s things hun? Did you get your patches ? Much love

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Nothing new to report still struggling really hard with huge psoriasis flare and PsA is ridiculous.

Steve’s been sleeping more lately. Today he admitted he’s having a harder time breathing. So I dunno if something is brewing. We are getting one front after another come through and that can effect his breathing. It scares the hell out of me. If he’s not improved next week I’m going to insist he goes to the Doctor.

Talked to Amanda today she’s planning to come up next month! I can’t wait. Now that she does freelance work she can come up anytime and stay as long as she likes. Just stayed with her for Christmas but it seems like forever.

My Aunt is home from the hospital. They removed the top portion of a lung due to cancer. Not sure what will happen next. She wishes now she didn’t have surgery. I don’t think she realized it was such a big surgery and will take time to recover.

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@Sunflower123, I sure hope you and your doctor can finally put an end to your current illness. Pneumonia sounds scary. You need some TLC, my friend.

@HALLIEBETH87, I'm glad your mawmaw's funeral went well. I'm sorry you didn't get the one extra time with her you wanted, before her passing. You're lucky you had such a lovable grandmother that you will always remember.

@~Christina, how nice that Amanda will soon visit. It must be a relief to be seeing her without you and Steve needing to make the hike south, this time. Perhaps your psoriasis flare will ease by the time she comes. Hopefully Steve's breathing issue will, too.

Yesterday we went to both Hornbach (like a Home Depot) and IKEA for some additional things for our house. We finally found a few curtains, another thing I've been eager for. We want to wash them before sending them for shortening. We still need rods for most.

My sister texted me about our brother's status. I could be a little wrong, but I'm thinking that a good deal of his pain and misery is from depression. Not just his cancer, itself. He truly needs to take an antidepressant and get a therapist. I've pushed him on this before, but he resists. Macho stigmatization of mental illness, I'm sure. I told Sis that depression can exacerbate pain and illness. She knows this. It's just about getting him to acknowledge it. Also, Sis and I both want him to finally finalize a will. He's fighting cancer, for goodness sake, plus he has an estranged wife that lives across the country that is hanging out there. He's been married to her for at least 20 years, but hasn't lived near her for over 17. I met her only once. My sister, who is handling most everything for him, has never met the woman. To put it mildly, we don't have a positive view of her. If our brother loses his battle, it would unfair for my sister to have to deal with her much. She wouldn't be doing much beyond putting her palm out.

Thanks Christina, it's a fun hobby

I hope your psoriasis calms down soon

That's a good idea to go to the doctor for Steve if he doesn't improve soon, that sounds scary

I hope you both feel a lot better soon

Sorry about your aunt, does she have any family near by that can help her with her recovery? That does sound like a big surgery. (sorry if I missed this info in previous posts, there's been a lot to catch up on this thread)

Edit: also wanted to add glad you get to see Amanda! Hope you have a nice time

an interesting fun fact about St. Patrick's day is that it used to be associated with the color blue a long time ago

St. Patrick's Day: 5 Fun Facts | St. Patty's Day | Live Science

I hope you all have a good day

My family is Irish/Italian, St. Patrick's day was always great with my mom, she would always cook and we'd have fun. My building I live in now does a corned beef and cabbage meal in the community room every year so I'm going to that today