Bipolar Check-in #74

Rosi700 · Apr 06, 2023, 04:35 AM

@Blue_Bird It is good that you have got your sleep back! Wonderful that you are on the way with regard to your future plans!

Rosi700 · Apr 06, 2023, 04:39 AM

@~Christina You are not alone wishing that life could have been better!

But we have to manage!

PS. I did study and got the education I wanted, but other things happened that took years of my life. DS.

Rosi700 · Apr 06, 2023, 04:52 AM

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Yesterday I'd hoped to take it easy, at least physically, but predictably that didn't happen. Maybe today, at least a bit. I'm bruised and my back always hurts by the end of the day, but the urge to keep going with the unpacking is so strong, as the more we do, the closer to feeling at home we get.

I bought the Easter bread from a store that I usually make homemade. The only thing I'll actually make for the holiday are pickled eggs and beets. I may make deviled eggs out of the eggs. I haven't had these since my late mother made them, perhaps 20 years ago. I don't have her recipe, but found one online that I think is about the same. Easter dinners are not as big of deals in Czech Republic as they are in the US, or at least were in my family. They have cute traditions here that are practiced, though. My sister-in-law invited us for a nice lunch on Saturday. Hubby and I will be solo on Sunday, though I have a nice dinner planned. I may bake a beránek (a cake in the shape of a lamb) or maybe not. I'm still figuring out my new oven and have never baked one in its special ceramic form. First time things don't always work out perfectly. My sister-in-law gave me the form as a Christmas gift last year.

My brother's situation is dire. My sister and I are frightened and utterly sad. I'll leave this topic at that.

Sorry to hear about your brother!

I will have guests one of the Easter days. I will make something with beef and rice.

Rosi700 · Apr 06, 2023, 05:08 AM

I had some days with pain in a tooth. Got an appointment at the dentist's office at last Monday. He made a temporary fill in my tooth and I shall come back after Easter. If I am OK the tooth will be repaired the ordinary way. If I am still in pain, it has to be an opening of the root canal and a tooth crown on the top. My wallet bends in tact with me thinking about the possible price.

I think the tooth is OK, but am not sure. I have had some sort of a mini-flu with pain all over my body. Today is the first day I feel almost comfortable with little pain.

Nammu · Apr 06, 2023, 08:32 AM

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Yesterday I'd hoped to take it easy, at least physically, but predictably that didn't happen. Maybe today, at least a bit. I'm bruised and my back always hurts by the end of the day, but the urge to keep going with the unpacking is so strong, as the more we do, the closer to feeling at home we get.

I bought the Easter bread from a store that I usually make homemade. The only thing I'll actually make for the holiday are pickled eggs and beets. I may make deviled eggs out of the eggs. I haven't had these since my late mother made them, perhaps 20 years ago. I don't have her recipe, but found one online that I think is about the same. Easter dinners are not as big of deals in Czech Republic as they are in the US, or at least were in my family. They have cute traditions here that are practiced, though. My sister-in-law invited us for a nice lunch on Saturday. Hubby and I will be solo on Sunday, though I have a nice dinner planned. I may bake a beránek (a cake in the shape of a lamb) or maybe not. I'm still figuring out my new oven and have never baked one in its special ceramic form. First time things don't always work out perfectly. My sister-in-law gave me the form as a Christmas gift last year.

My brother's situation is dire. My sister and I are frightened and utterly sad. I'll leave this topic at that.

Oh! What a multitude of changes and tough situations you are dealing with on top of your fathers death too.

Aurelius710 · Apr 06, 2023, 08:49 AM

Well, my earlier surgery date has made some logistics awkward, particularly around spring cleaning. My biggest project involves rearranging and cleaning my living room, putting in some new (to me) furniture that has been sitting in my shed for nigh a year and replacing my TV with a larger and newer model (coworker is parting with a 50" SMART TV for $100). Perfect project to help alleviate the boredom of being laid up for six weeks. Help kill time for sure!

Mountaindewed · 01:43 PM

Last night I ate a burrito from Chipotles. Which made me feel better. Then I fell asleep right before 6. I woke up at 11 because I had been coughing on my spit from heartburn and it finally woke me up. I weighed myself then put the scale away and ate the rest of my burrito and I took a melatonin and I slept until 2:50 then I took my Geodon and drank some Pedialyte since I had been sweating in my sleep and I ate a couple Gogurts, and I fell back asleep from 4-7:30 and I woke up feeling much much better then these last 2 days

I think not fighting with the scale all night and eating normally really helped with my sleep last night and my moods today. Things may be more food and sleep related then I realize.

I took a shower for the first time in 3 days and then I went out and got a lot of speciality candy and soda and some Easter candy and some other stuff.

My uncles girlfriend is having a good day. Shes off the ventilator again and is resting comfortably.

I've been feeling kind of queasy since I posted this. I wonder if my gummy bear soaps and shampoos and deodarents are the culprit right now. All I can smell is a sugary sweet candy smell. Idk if I should even be smelling like this to be honest or if its a bit too perfumy.

Brentus · Apr 06, 2023, 01:17 PM

@BeyondtheRainbow and everyone else who has SSI/SSDI. Is this a good sign? God I hope so.

My reconsideration has progressed finally. The medical review is complete and has been sent back to my local office for a final non-medical review to determine I am still eligible.

That’s a good sign right? They wouldn’t bother doing that part if I was denied…right?

Said this step usually takes 2-4 weeks. I just need some answers!!!

BeyondtheRainbow · Apr 06, 2023, 01:22 PM

@Brentus I'm sorry but I don't know for sure. I was approved after I filed.

I do think it's always good when they request things when I go through reviews because I know those things support my need for disability.

I am sorry if you said this but did they give yanyou a timeline for when you'll hear? (I accidentally hit the box that doesn't let me read your post while I type).

I hope this is it for you!

Brentus · Apr 06, 2023, 01:29 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

@Brentus I'm sorry but I don't know for sure. I was approved after I filed.

I do think it's always good when they request things when I go through reviews because I know those things support my need for disability.

I am sorry if you said this but did they give yanyou a timeline for when you'll hear? (I accidentally hit the box that doesn't let me read your post while I type).

I hope this is it for you!

2-4 weeks is the timeline it said. It’s just to determine if I’m still eligible based on non-medical information. (Like no income etc). I can’t see why they’d go through that if I wasn’t approved through the medical review.

Rosi700 · Apr 06, 2023, 04:04 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Actually I really liked reading this. It was enlightening. I’ve often thought they must be projecting but not knowing good from evil makes sense.

To know good from evil was connected to the Christian faith from the beginning (or Jewish faith if you want to see it that way). Adam and Eve, if we believe the story, were created good and they where supposed to know good from evil, but they forgot it when they met the person who had taken the form of a snake.

I suppose everyone knows the Christian creation story, so I don't have to explain more ... I think that from a psychological view it is interesting that it was their fear that made them forget about what was good and evil.

I am not up to find out if people believe in this or that religion. I just wanted to point to the fact that fear can make people so upset that they lie to themselves and others.

I don't excuse people when they act out of fear to protect themselves and put others down, because every person is responsible for one's actions and uttering's ...

I think we all will live well if we try to live honest and after the golden rule (and for our own wellbeing turn our back against those who
"trolls" out there in the world).

Nammu · Apr 06, 2023, 04:07 PM

That’s interesting. In the eyes of the law ignorance is not an excuse either.

Rosi700 · Apr 06, 2023, 04:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

That’s interesting. In the eyes of the law ignorance is not an excuse either.

No it isn't!

Mountaindewed · Apr 06, 2023, 04:52 PM

Oh man does my stomach hurt. I mean downright pain. I called to get a gastro doctor appointment. The soonest he had was June 14th but I'm on a waiting list. I'm in soo much pain and no OTC or my zofran med is helping. Or valium or anything. I did ask the lady on the phone if the doctor could give me another refill of
dicyclomine. It worked so well and I think it would hold me until June. She said she'll ask. She said sometimes they will do that but other times its only an in office thing.

But **** am I just close to going to the ER at this point

HALLIEBETH87 · Apr 06, 2023, 05:19 PM

Life is overwhelming. I guess I need to get used to feeling bugs all
Over me.

HALLIEBETH87 · Apr 06, 2023, 07:32 PM

Im in a *****u mood.
Just so annoyed

Brentus · Apr 06, 2023, 08:47 PM

I was denied again. It's almost soul crushing.

HALLIEBETH87 · Apr 06, 2023, 09:26 PM

I was denied my private education loan. Its because I have a car loan I know. But I had no choice..my old car was breaking down ALL the time. (Its not a new car either, just new to me!)

Ive applied for another. I may have my SSDI and get federal loans. im scared to do that bc how expensive my stability is with med prices so high.

i feel so defeated. I am trying so hard to get somewhere

Victoria'smom · Apr 06, 2023, 09:37 PM

Thanks rainbow. I finally got my medicine in the mail so I restarted them tonight. I'm having trouble thinking I'm not just a waste of space. Hardly getting out of bed. my teeth are going to cost 20-60k that's not happening. So I'm basically doing nothing about my teeth until I absolutely have to. I'm not willing to have dentures under 40. There's no temp to permanent fix. So I'll just wait. We're drowning here and I still hate it. Yesterday was nice we said **** it and went to a matinee. Miguel is struggling hard. He has no friends here. And his meds are off. He likes the idea of here. Though he says he's never moving out again. Doesn't even want a duplex anymore. Wants a generational house. We'll see he's 20 things may change. I'm not really talking so I don't know where me and h sit. I feel like I am loosing him but can't bother not being boring. I'm mainly staring into space zoning out.

BeyondtheRainbow · Apr 06, 2023, 10:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Brentus

I was denied again. It's almost soul crushing.

@Brentus

I'm so sorry. I don't know what else there is to say. Such a huge percentage of people have to go through the whole process including court but then the percentage of approval after court is pretty high.. Do you have an attorney? At this point I definitely would check into that if you haven't already.

One thing to remember is anything you fill out for them make sure it reflects your actual abilities. For example I can go to Walmart but I usually let my mom do my shopping because it is too overstimulating. So can I grocery shop? Yes but only with great effort. Do I do laundry? Yes but only after wearing the same things for several days because I get worn out and usually forget and leaves things to get smelly in the washer rather than drying it. Etc.

I'm just sad for you. I hate that they gave you hope and took it away.

BeyondtheRainbow · Apr 06, 2023, 10:19 PM

@Miguel'smom

I'm sorry you still aren't feeling good. Hopefully the meds you got help and quickly.

Are you getting near your pdoc appointment? Or do you have one and I'm confused?

How is your husband's health? Is he stabilizing?

The dental costs are horrible. Nobody should have to pay years of salary for dental care. That's a mess.

I hope you start feeling better soon.

~Christina · Apr 06, 2023, 11:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Brentus

I was denied again. It's almost soul crushing.

I am so sorry

I had a attorney and case went to a hearing. Took me 3.5 years. Attorneys don’t cost anything unless your awarded and then it’s only a % of you back pay. Are you able to speak to one to find out if that ups your chances.

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~Christina · Apr 06, 2023, 11:36 PM

Miguel’s Mom I hope things are looking up for you and family soon. I hear you on dental. I’m still paying on a crown almost a year ago.

Soupe I wish comfort for you and family during such a hard time.

Rainbow. How are you feeling ? Increase helping ? Here’s hoping as Spring really arrives things will ease.

Hallie .. girl I hate hate hate that there’s an issue with getting this loan you need.

Wild hope your vacation works out well. Enjoy the warm sunny weather

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Nothing really new.. I’m still in this vicious hell of Fibro/PsA/psoriasis skin flare

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Rosi700 · Apr 07, 2023, 12:58 AM

@Mountaindewed I am sorry about your pain.

@Brentus I am sorry!

@HALLIEBETH87 I am sorry!

@~Christina I admire you for being able to live with your plagues.

JaneOnceMore · Apr 07, 2023, 02:19 AM

Well, my insomnia has shifted-shape tonight. I couldn't get to sleep at all. I much prefer this typical insomnia to the frequent waking up. Hopefully i will be able to sleep in late.

@Brentus:

So sorry to hear your case was denied. I know you're discouraged. I'm on private benefits and Canadian, so it's not the same thing, of course, but i had to hire a lawyer thru legal aid. He was just magic! The whole thing had been languishing for three years and he got me a settlement in eight months. Really can't say enough good about lawyers!

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