Bipolar Check-In #78

@Moose72 Facebook has a group for Caplyta users:. Here is the link to itLog into Facebook. Very educational before you start. My takeaway was "expect a very slow adjustment to it". I am yet to try it

Thanks! I’ll look that up.

I still don't have a t neither does V. I'm less mad about Victoria not meeting SAP and getting kicked out of school. I wasn't mad at her because she tried and struggled to the very end. Now we have to figure out how to pay school off. She's halfway through the program it'll take a year and a half to finish but she doesn't want to go back for a year. She wants to work on a personal projects. She's talked about making money but I think she is a long way to go for that. I just wish school hadn't costed so much.

So I'm not as angry, I have to go up on my latuda more and if that doesn't help we're back to the drawing board. I'm just not thrilled to do that. I'm still not doing anything or self care but that's whatever. I'm trying to save money but that's not happening. I want to spend that money on myself for an art program. I want to buy V Coursera for the year. I want to redo Christmas and move to a new apartment. Because they're looking at cons I have to buy a wheelchair plus a tub chair basically lots of expenses not enough money. Oh well it'll get done slowly. I was really concerned about V but she seems to be taking not going to school better than I expected. It helps that she didn't fail she just couldn't keep on pace. I just wanted us to be in a better situation.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your kitty, @Nammu.

You alleviated his suffering and he was blessed to have you as his caretaker.

The cognitive decline symptoms of my depression are showing up. I bought oil for my car without checking the label for what type I was getting. I know better and of course it was just a mistake but a costly one since I had to get an oil change to get the oil drained before it did whatever the wrong oil does.


Could have been worse, I might have not noticed but still frustrating. The small benefit was that I got someone else to put air in my tires, inside and without the wind blowing. I was really dreading that.

Now I just want to go to sleep. I am so cold. Again, could be so much worse. I have heat and a house and those are great blessings. And soon it will be warmer.

My mother fell in her bathtub today. This is a couple of months after another fall at her work.

She managed to get out of the tub and somehow got dressed and called me.

I went over right away and found her sitting in her favorite chair. She was shaking and nervous and I looked at her injuries, bruises and a cut on her hand. We talked for a while, I made her coffee and I helped to calm her down.

She only has muscular injuries and some bruises. Bones and connective tissues are ok, thank goodness.

She's very independent but was clearly shaken by this, which is completely understandable. I stayed with her for a number of hours and my son spoke to her over the phone after I left. I'll find out how she's doing tomorrow morning.

I feel much as BeyondTheRainbow, above. I feel lousy but it could be so much worse. It's the dead of Winter and i've been enjoying rereading old favorites for about a month now. I feel real cranky at the moment, but i know it will pass.

I'm grateful that i'm not in any physical pain and i've been free from anxiety for a good long time now. I even took my dog in for her nail trim yesterday and got thru the whole thing (booking, cab rides, the appointment itself) without any anxiety. Oh, such a relief to be able to get thru that without the pain of anxiety -- soooooooooo thankful!

I feel like the voices are my fault!

They are not your fault.

I know when mum’s legs went out from under her and she fell she was very shaken up. It was a blow to her. Could your mum get a shower chair so it doesn’t happen again?

Thanks @Nammu !

And grab bars! Preferably one on the side and one on the "front" of the tub.

Worst psychologist appointment ever. She says I’m manic af and threatened to call the CAT TEAM and inform my partner because she says she has a duty of care.

I’ve agreed to see my pdoc next week.

From what you’ve been posting here you do sound manic and maybe need to quit that AD.

I’m actually on 2x AD ….. because I was severely depressed….

I looked up the British blue shorthair. They are beautiful. I know what you mean about the looks changing as they age. I had a cat that lived to 21 (Sir was about that age wasn't he?) and she had such bad arthritis she walked like an old cowboy.

How are you doing tonight?

That sucks.

What's a CAT team?

What ADs are you on? Maybe one is enough. Maybe two is a bit overkill, yes?

Yes, he was 20. my sister and brother in law, dog people, were won over by his personality. When they came to pick us up after my car accident, was the first time they met him. They couldn’t get over how he sat on my lap like a dog and looked out the window. He was a great traveler. He never tried to leave hotel rooms, just waited for me. He was sooo awesome when I fell into a year long depression.

Oh yeah, he was smart too. Had a great vocabulary. He responded to birdy, squirrel and chipmunk, he’d run to the window and look for them if you said it to him. Just like a dog. My brother in law thought that was so funny. We were sitting in the family room where the sliding glass door were and a couple of blue jays were on the deck. I called birdy, birdy,…and Sir came running from the other room directly to the door to see the birds.

He sounds like a wonderful cat, Nammu. It's so sad when they have to leave us. 😞 We recently lost one of our cats as well. She was twenty years old too. Cranky old thing. Lol.

Cats are great at sensing our emotions. We got a new cat (she's two. Poor thing came from a hoarder home where there were 130 cats!) and I was upset one night and she was immediately on my lap purring and trying to make me feel better.

It's amazing how pets know we aren't well. My Abbycat is spending so much time on my lap right now (way more than usual) and if I wake up in the night I find her sleeping where she is touching me. My mom's dog generally will relax and sleep if I'm there when I don't feel good and he's a wild man. Abby can be a problem when I do virtual therapy sessions because if she picks up I'm sad or upset she comes and wants to be part of things. Thankfully my therapist laughs it off but I'm sure it's annoying.

@BeyondtheRainbow those are temporary. You know that. You will bounce back to your normal smart self.

CAT Team = crisis assess team. They’re linked to the hospital.

I think just Cymbalta will be fine. I’m on Brintellix too.

Do you have Zyprexa PRN? I find it is the best medication to nix mania in an instant.

The only AP I have is Abilify 15mg in the morning

I take Cymbalta too. 90mg. I think if I were on two ADs my head would explode. Lol. Definitely talk to your pdoc about just being on one. Take care.