Bipolar Check-in #81

Sorry to those of you struggling. Big hugs!

My wound came back again! I'm just going to have my fried help with it and call the wound clinic for advice. Bc by the time I get an appointment, it's healed. My friend can't take me in the day bc she works.

Didn't hear from my son son for 3 days. I called him numerous times. Where he's at they can smoke weed and drink and sure enough he had smoked weed twice. I've got to let him make his own decisions. I told him I didn't think it's a good idea. But like I said he is an adult.

I went and saw my sister yesterday. She's really losing weight. I did speech therapy with her and we talked but she's still really struggling with her speech. My other sister made stir fry and rhubarb crisp. It all was very good.

I did get my twice baked potatos and fennel once the kids left. My stomach is kinda a mess and my rash has spread to my neck and I have some bumps on my face and head, but it stopped itching so much.

My moods and anxiety are better now thankfully.

Had a long day out with the family. Fun but exhausted.

My mood is OK especially considering my stupid period started early. We had a long drive home, and there was quite a long stretch, IDK 60 miles or so without a gas station in site, and that is NOT what you want when you just start your period!

@Blueberrybook

No. That's definitely not what you want at all! That sucks. I ended up having a fun family day too. Daughter and Husband made me go outside and play with squirt guns with them (after I was wailing at the kitchen table about being a land whale! And how I didn't want to do anything except for sleep. They pretty much dragged me outside with them. Lol!), and it was a lot of fun! Then we went and played volleyball at the park for a while, so they made me feel better since I got outside and spent some time with them.

@Mountaindewed

No. I've never heard of Seasonale birth control before. That sounds amazing! I've been on many different hormonal birth control pills, and they ALL caused me to PMS all month, regardless of how much of whatever hormone was in them, so I'm leary about trying any hormonal birth control. They also all killed my sex drive, and I enjoy some spice 🌶 in my life and would rather that not go away. I'll talk to my doctor though. I'm due for a pap and well checkup this month. Just have to schedule an appointment (I hate stupid paps). And I'm probably going to have to schedule an appointment to get my boobs squished. Yippie.

@LadyShadow

Sorry the storm is so slow moving. Do you live in an apartment? Are you in your bathroom? I just ask because our complex doesn't have a basement and we always seem to get severe weather and tornadoes when I'm home alone so I have to throw the cats in the bathroom with me and settle down in the bathtub on a blanket. Lol. Then I sit and text people on my phone and just kind of chill for a few hours (and then the power goes out, etc.).

I don't know. That's what I do. I hope you get sleep tonight! At least your power hasn't gone out!

@Scooter9

I hate anxiety so much. I'm happy your therapist showed you some new skills to help you cope. I hope they work!

Everyone else, love and hugs and all that! Hope everyone has a wonderful evening (or morning or afternoon, depending on wherever you are!).

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I just talked for an hour with my sister and then an hour and a half with my mom- all about Dad. Boy will I have a lot to say in therapy on Monday!

I started taking 6 mg. of Austedo on 08/08/24. It's for a form of tardive dyskinesia that involves restless toes and clicking my teeth together. These things keep me from falling asleep at night. About every 3 nights, I'm up all night because of this and can't sleep.

Does anyone else take Austedo? I don't know how to start a new post, and would like to have a discussion about Austedo. I need to know how long it takes before he helps.

Today was another good day at school. One class is definitely more spunky than the other two, but not necessarily in a bad way. They are just chattier/seem more comfortable with each other than the other classes. One of my students from last year made it a point to say high to me and chat a little bit in the hallway so that made my day. Tomorrow will be our first day with the normal schedule so the day might feel extra long. One of the activities I'm teaching tomorrow is a Olympic themed activity so I hope the students will like this.

I had some dream where I had hepatitis and issues with my malrotated intestines. I woke up in right side pain and itchy as hell. I took my meds with some water and ate a cookie and

Now I'm just listening to music and not feeling too good. I was hoping things were getting better and I could avoid Chicago. I see my GI on the 15th maybe he'll have some other suggestions. They keep putting off doing a CT scan because of the radiation.

Oh I feel for you! I'm on invega and haven't had a period over a year. Mine were so heavy that when I was in the heaviest part of my period when I would stand it would just gush out and make a huge mess. I started using puppy pee pads in the bed and on the couch I HATE my periods! My pdoc wants to try me on caplyta. He told me it has less eps symptoms. Bc I'm on 3 mgs of congentan and propranolol for my tremors and my lip curls up when I'm really anxious. But I think my periods would come back. Ugh!

I took a walk/jog this morning though I was pretty tired probably due to a long day out yesterday & the start of my period. My shower felt lovely since I didn't shower yesterday and then I was out in the heat & humidity this morning.

My mood is good, and I slept 8 hr. again. I'm pretty stable today Going to get gas & run by the pharmacy. Ugh, I get SOO tired of going to the pharmacy. It is a very busy pharmacy, but I go so often, even the head pharmacist knows my name. I have a lot of medications that are not on the same fill schedule for my pharmacy insurance. And of course, the insurance won't pay for anything ahead of their schedule of 30, 60, 90 days depending on how the pdoc puts in my prescriptions. Some he gives my 90 days, others only 30 days.

Later, I'm going to the library with my daughter. I'm not really wanting to go out, I tend to want to isolate a lot and not have to interact with other people even on a cursory level.

Hi, haven't been here for a while....survived Hurricane Debby down here...hope the northern guys are alright.

I was having trouble going back to work after taking a whole school program to retrain. My resilience was ****. To be blunt. I would work one or two days and then be literally beat. Long way around I didn't want it to be depression which was supposed to be gone btw. DENIAL likes to hang out with me alot..

Next Sat I am trying the first of 4 rounds of ketamine treatment. All monitored and valid. It' is what my NP recommended. That or Abilify. Which I have taken twice and it never worked..

Wish me luck! I'll report back

Good luck Sophia.

@Sophia23
Best of luck with the new treatment. I hope it helps you.

My car just broke. Dash flashes all lights and it makes noise when I try to start. It. :-(

@Moose72
I hate when cars break down. Will you be able to get it fixed?

I am so crabby today. I'm complaning about everything and I am so tired I can't keep my eyes open even though I slept ok last night. I'm just moody about everything and I feel like a zombie. I tried ordering some stuff and the store was out of everything. I think I might be crabby because I got sick right after taking my AM meds. But idk why I'm so tired. My stomach is ok right now and so is the itchness. I did call my doctor though about getting in for blood work.

Had a good amount of sleep last night - woke up a bit tired, but went about my day as normal. God all dressed up and went to chair my AA homegroup, that I do every Friday, (regular routines have proved to help so much in recovery), and brought the topic of appreciation to the group in the wake of Debby. Happy to report the storm has moved out of my area, all we have is a little bit of rain but so happy to be through all that! I was so scared!

Concerned for my boyfriend, because someone close to him is in the hospital - trying to be as supportive as I can without becoming too selfish of wanting to monopolize his time. Going to work this afternoon because I didn't make it to Raleigh yesterday due to the storm.

Hope the treatment works well for you @Sophia23 - glad to see you back!!

Oh my gosh, @Moose72 - I hope you and your car is okay! Please update us and let us know.

I hope everyone has a fantastic Friday - I got all dressed up today and I feel really good about myself for once, lol. Thought I would share a selfiie:

I got mad at my mom for no good reason and she said "back in my days we didn't have internet." And I said "back in your days Grandma made your clothes." Which is a kinda funny argument now. But its just been little stuff like that all day thats been going on.

I emailed my therapist. I'm not sure what she can do though. I just feel crappy and itchy and my joints are hurting now.

Oh, no! I too hate it when cars break, they are so expensive to fix. Hope this is an easy cheap fix despite the drama your car is making.

Oh boy am I sore from the fair. At least my back isn’t hurting, I’m just sore. I was going to go to Walmart but postponed it. Got invited to bingo but I need to not spend so much money right now. Bingo except for here is off limits for a while. So are art classes and getting my nails done. Gotta tighten the belt.

My anxiety level has dropped some. But I didn’t get the greatest sleep. Had anxiety dream and kept waking up. But otherwise it’s all good.

Ayyooo!!!!

Psychotic. Indeed I was (am?). Was dragged to the ER after being attacked by a zoo in my room and chucking shyt at a car that drove by twice. Kept me for a day in the ER, transferred me to a different hospital with a psych ward and AMAd ASAP because (and I realize this is delusional now) one of the dudes there was one of my exes spying on me. They look kinda similar, yeah, but I don't know man, other than that, totally different people.

Duuude I was soooo psychotic they dx'd me with schizophrenia instead of bipolar (not that they had much to go off of loll)

Still not on meds but I know the importance and power of meditation

Welcome back Muddy! You sound better. Do you have a pdoc appointment soon? I know you've been on most meds but after last week I think you should consider trying something you've not, like loxapine (I don't think that was on your list). It sounded like things got pretty bad even before the hospitalization.

Welcome back muddy boots. Was wondering how you were.

If you want to start a new thread go to the main bipolar page and hit the orange "Post New Thread" button (I have to scroll down a bit).

The TD sounds awful. I hope the Austedo helps. I think it's a new med so I've not seen much or anything on here about it yet.

There's also a psychiatric med forum you could try on the main forum page.

I'm so sorry! My car broke down 2 times when I was driving. It was smoking or so I thought. I put on my flashers and ppl , even police helped me push it into a gas station. My radiator had a whole in it. This really nice man got me some water to put in it. Luckily I wasn't too far from home. Had to have the radiator replaced. I don't remember what happened the second time.

I bought a 2003 Toyota rav 4. But I know one day there's going to be a day I can't save it.

I hope you're able to get it fixed and it doesn't cost an an arm and a leg! 😊