[allme]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

Suddenly feel shaken and uneasy for no reason at all! Just came over me about 5mins ago :/

Oh no Have you eaten? Possibly sugar levels?

If not sugar levels, try taking a long hot bath and possibly put some soothing music on

I have eaten, I'm starting to calm down a bit now. I have no idea what that was all about!!

[allme]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

I have eaten, I'm starting to calm down a bit now. I have no idea what that was all about!!

Aw glad you feel better!

Just had a scare, my 2 pups escaped the back garden, went out there and couldn't see them until I went out the front and there they were bolting down the road. So in my pj's I went bolting down after them Caught them though as they were sniffing around a front yard of a dog owner we know down the way. My heart feels like it's about to jump out of my chest! Now my hubby is securing where we think they got over. We have a side alley leading to the drive and think they got behind the bush but anyway home safe and sound now

Thats such a horrible feeling!! When our dog was a puppy I was walking him at the park on my own (bearing in mind he was a little s**t and didn't respect me at all!) and he just bolted! Wouldn't come back so I tried walking away thinking he'd follow eventually. He didn't, he ran home across 2 roads too!! Needed a drink after that lol

[Maranara]

Hanging in there so far today hoping, so hoping the downward spiral doesn't start again. I'll be around off and on but I HAVE to reduce the amount I'm around here as a precaution.

Glad you're hanging in there today

[Maranara]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

Glad you're hanging in there today

We'll see how the day goes. I start work in 20 minutes.

[allme]

Originally Posted by Maranara

We'll see how the day goes. I start work in 20 minutes.

Wishing you a happy day and also glad you're hanging in there

[allme]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

Thats such a horrible feeling!! When our dog was a puppy I was walking him at the park on my own (bearing in mind he was a little s**t and didn't respect me at all!) and he just bolted! Wouldn't come back so I tried walking away thinking he'd follow eventually. He didn't, he ran home across 2 roads too!! Needed a drink after that lol

I bet you did! lol Little rascals puppies! Don't know what I'd do without them though

Originally Posted by allme

I bet you did! lol Little rascals puppies! Don't know what I'd do without them though

I agree with that now, but at the time I would have been happy enough without him lol He's a lot calmer and nice now though don't think I could ever have a puppy again, so much hard work lol

[allme]

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

I agree with that now, but at the time I would have been happy enough without him lol He's a lot calmer and nice now though don't think I could ever have a puppy again, so much hard work lol

Omg yes they are lol my two are 8 month old brothers. Had one from 8 weeks and got the other when he was 6 months! It does seem the older they get the easier they become Still little rascals though lol

[Maranara]

Made it through my shift. Tension has really built up....hopefully it'll go away overnight. If not, I might be in trouble.

[Mustkeepjob32]

Maranara you are doing so well. I know you are in a bad place but you keep working and working (something I haven't been able to do). I guess the only concern is that this long stretch of work for you could keep working you up until the point where you lose total control, but you may know how much you can handle before you say enough is enough.

[allme]

Bad nights sleep, anxiety and nightmares all night have left me feeling on the edge..

Randomly nervy again. And pretty down today

[Maranara]

I talked to one of my supervisors today. She said she didn't see how I could work this so much; that she can't work more than two or three days without going crazy. She urged me to take the time off and said I wouldn't get in trouble for it...so it's now up to me to take it. The only thing holding me back is my own guilt...I need to let it go and do what I need to do for my health and sanity.

[allme]

Originally Posted by Maranara

I talked to one of my supervisors today. She said she didn't see how I could work this so much; that she can't work more than two or three days without going crazy. She urged me to take the time off and said I wouldn't get in trouble for it...so it's now up to me to take it. The only thing holding me back is my own guilt...I need to let it go and do what I need to do for my health and sanity.

Oh then pls do! Otherwise you may get to the point where you aren't of any use to yourself or work....take her advice and slam that guilt

I'm pretty ****ing miserable.

[allme]

Originally Posted by nevergoodenough

I'm pretty ****ing miserable.

Big hugs

[allme]

Did this today:

Mackinac Bridge Walk - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

It was f***ing freezing up there. I live 4 hours south of the bridge and forgot that the weather up north is usually colder than down here. I'm very glad to be home.

All I want is someone to be here for me AND NO ONE WILL. They pretend they will but then they just drop off the face of the earth. And they all ask me why I hate myself. Well how about because no one can stand me.

Good weekend. Nice 4 days off... Always nice to get several days off to really get rested up before returning to the grind.

Got out a bit, nothing special really, took the boys to lunch, went to the grocery store. It was just nice to do all that and not be stranded without a car, relying on cabs to get anywhere

Now I have an itch to get out more. I don't have any place to go. Left for a bit without the kids just to get out. Ended up at Target to see if the cute girl I used to work with was still there but chickened out while there and left without really finding out o.O lol

Decided it was time to get a haircut and look normal again :/ My hair was in my face, long. got it cropped short and it feels good to actually feel like I look decent again.

Feeling strangely positive today!

[allme]

Mega busy with work! But all goooood!