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#951
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Won't go into details but I was under court order to be there because my SH is very severe. They were acting like it was papercuts or something. I had over 300 stitches for the episode that landed me there. So horrid and judgemental that BPD is the one mental illness that doesnt deserve help. I hate myself enough as it is. All he did was make me afraid to seek medical care when i need it. Duct taping cuts and at-home steri-stripping cuts of this depth seem to always lead to infection. I felt like saying, save your breath, I already despise myself. |
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#952
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Sat and Sunday was terribly ruined feeling depressed. Woke up this morning feeling bright and high, and now it just crash back to square one.
*Feels like crying a lot*
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#953
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i know that feel man
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#954
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Sorry you are feeling this way. I'm feeling pretty much the same way. It sucks. Hope you feel better.
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#955
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Still trying to come down from a stressful situation. Anxiety has me wound up like a ball of nerves. Things are resolved for the moment so just trying to relax.
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#956
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I'm on the edge of breaking social connections with my bpd support group and go and hide in a hole
I thought I was a strong person living a single life til my bpd partner came into my life. I am a weak person at heart, just to admit it.
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#957
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Was crying the other night. Feel like such a loser. Can't cope with what I'm feeling or doing. Why was I put on this earth? I'm lower than human. I'm scum. It's all just so meaningless. I have come to grips with the reality that I'm never going to be part of society. Yesterday just proved that perfectly.... It doesn't matter. Just want to feel numb.
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#958
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#959
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Another anxious day. Trying to cope with being on disability, and will probably be on disability for a long time. It's enough to pay the bills, but I still feel like I should have a job. I fear not being able to provide for my family. For most of my life I was the breadwinner. My husband could get a job but he's not going to unless we lose a good chunk of money. He has MS and overheats easily, plus he has a bad back like I do. I should just relax and be grateful for what I do have, at least for the time being.
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#960
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Trying my best to follow my therapist's instructions. I'm doing better today but boy has this past week been rough. Trying to stop hurting myself both verbally and physically
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#961
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Having a stressful day today. Yesterday was bad but today it's worse. Trying hard not blow up or hurt myself.
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#962
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Quiet day. Picked up one med and have two on order for next week. Had a rough patch of anxiety at midday but rested through that.
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#963
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I am still very new to everything here, but it is nice to have a place like this to check in. Today I have so much work but I just can't get myself to do it. I feel guilty about all my mistakes and angry for making them over and over again. I hate having these self destructive behaviours, hurting not only myself but also the people that care about me.
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#964
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Got through my husband's MRI. Four hours of waiting and then a crazy drive home in rush hour traffic. Glad we made it home in one piece.
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#965
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I managed to prevent myself from lashing out unnecessarily while frustrated earlier today. I kept my cool and let my irritability pass, and felt much better afterwards.
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#966
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Quiet day today. Did laundry and that's about it. Anxiety was down so that's good.
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#967
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Had a really good day today. Was able to do a few things with no pressure or anxiety.
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#968
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want to die
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#969
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I feel so helpless and useless deep down. I would fling myself down into a river if it were nearby.
That's a really bitter kind of thing to be experiencing right now.
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#970
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#971
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Feeling hopeful and determined to get better. I haven't felt suicidal in the past few days
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#972
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Fuzzy paws you don't need any freakin "mother" - never had one, never "needed" one
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#973
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Maybe I'd be dead by now if I hadn't made that STUPID mistake
![]() Wishing I hadn't been so "stupid" when I was (long time ago..) years old ![]() Stupid bear stupid to not keep it all inside, all the secrets, all the hurt. BAD paws ![]() Ps I know this is ******** abusers lies ![]() (This is not about anyone on PC)
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#975
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Another quiet day. It stopped raining and the sun is peeking out. Not much going on so anxiety is down.
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