[lizardlady]

Originally Posted by Bubbles&Buttercup

January- what's biofreeze gel?

How could I have forgotten Biofreeze?

Bubbles&Buttercup, Biofreeze is a brand name for a liniment. It comes in both a roll on and a gel. I use the store brand from Wal-Mart because it's cheaper. It is wonderful! I carry the roll on in the book bag I carry so it's always handy. It's not messy and does not smell like regular liniment. There are days I swear I would dip my whole body in it if I could.

[January]

Christina, I'm sending you the gentlest of hugs. I agree that maybe you can go to the ER and get some help even if they just bring the pain down to a lower level.

Buttercup, BioFreeze is a gel that you rub into your skin that freezes the tissue and makes everything really cold. It helps with the pain. You can get it where you get linaments. Here you can get it at WalMart, but I don't know what the equivalent for it is over there.

[cakeladie]

Christina I know you don't want to go to the ER but it might be the best. Do you have anything at home for pain management? If not what about Motrin PM ? I have used that when my pain meds are just not cutting

Sending you healing vibes and gentle hug

[~Christina]

My husband has had control of my meds for almost a year now, I over served myself Xanax one day back then, I apparently kept forgetting I had already took many then took many more, Anyway I went IP over that deal , by choice. I take Lyrica, I dont think it helps anything , But I take it I have tried all the other meds that are "suppost" .. All useless.

There is no where for me to go and get any help. Go the ER here with Fibro pain and they "might" give you a shot of Ativan and send you on your way.. There is no help to be found .

It hurts so bad I don't feel like I can even breathe.. feeling like this ! It's a very dangerous place for me to be.. I just don't care what happens.

[LettinG0]

Christina.......I am SOOOOOOOOO sorry that it is so bad for you right now! Makes me want to cry.......but all I can offer is hugs.....

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Liz & January- Looking online for something available in Australia and not having much luck, but I'll check out the pharmacy and stuff soon and see what they've got!

Christina- I'm so sorry it's so bad and you can't get any help! Not that I would ever recommend this, but do you have any friends with strong pain meds? I'd rather you use someone else's meds and get some peace than to be stuck with the pain and not seeing a way out!!!

[~Christina]

Thanks ,

I say my Therapist today he is just pissed off that I cant find any help so he is contacting my GP and will nudge or shove him is need be to come up with some help for when this happens.. I do not want pain meds daily, I just need something for when my pain pushes me to the edge.

Today is my 10th wedding anniversary and I am in so much pain I can barely huge my husband..

I don't know anyone that had pain meds. So I just have to manage hour to hour or minute to minute ... I just do not want to get to the point that the only way I can be ... safe is if I go IP and I should not have to go IP because my Fibro pain can't be handle enough to get me from getting suicidal.

I am just fed up, disgusted, annoyed and sad. All I am trying to do is just use distraction.

Thanks for the support , I really appreciate it.

Gentle hugs

[cakeladie]

Christina how are u holding up

[~Christina]

I am the same , I am just hating life. I saw my T yesterday and he is worried of course. He again stressed that I made a deal with him 3 years ago that if I planned to off myself I have to wait until I talk to him.. I hope that I am able to do so , I have in the past so I hope that I would reach out to him..

I just cant handle this much longer.. Its a white hot blinding pain.

Sorry for my ranting and raving

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

My dad just confirmed that he's able to drive me to and from my rheumatologist appointment on Monday. I've been dreading that four hours of driving for over a month.
I got off the phone and burst into tears. So relieved.

On a less positive note, I got out of bed this morning and could barely walk, feels like someone's repeatedly kicked me in the back while I was sleeping. I wish I didn't have so many things to do today.

Christina- Hang in there! And don't apologise for having a rant.

[cakeladie]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I am the same , I am just hating life. I saw my T yesterday and he is worried of course. He again stressed that I made a deal with him 3 years ago that if I planned to off myself I have to wait until I talk to him.. I hope that I am able to do so , I have in the past so I hope that I would reach out to him..

I just cant handle this much longer.. Its a white hot blinding pain.

Sorry for my ranting and raving

Christina if you promised him them you need to keep that promise. I did something really stupid yesterday I went swimming and floated on my floatey toy. Very very very bad for people with lupus but I was starting to feel like I was in prison and the water felt real good. I am paying the price today but it was worth it.

Christina hang in there demand that your doctor give you something for the pain. Or have your husband demand. You can't keep going on like this.

Take care and keep us posted.

Sending you healing vibes and gentle hugs and praying that you get some relief and sleep.

[cakeladie]

Bubbles I am glad that your dad is going with you. I am sure the stress of driving and worrying will put you in a flare so be careful and take a pillow and a blanket with you. You might just be able to take a nap on the way there or back

[lizardlady]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Sorry for my ranting and raving

Christina, if I'm allowed to whine, you are allowed to rant.

[January]

We all care very much. You are very important to us. We are all one big family.

[Kiya]

I agree with Cake - a promise is a promise!!! (And we all care about you too!!!!) Hang on!

[Kiya]

((((((((Bubbles!! Jan, Cake, Liz... who am I forgetting.... uh EVERYONE)))))))))

[Kiya]

pt ended :/ i'd wanted the gal I liked to get me more sessions (knowing the gal I don't like as much wouldn't - and didn't) but they'd told the other it was too soon. So there's an end to it.
I can't care anymore. it does no good. i'll have to deal with my pain on my own.

[cakeladie]

It really sucks that there is not much in the way of help for people with fibro. Just remember you are not alone.

Everyone take care ((((((hugs))))))

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Kiya- That's so effing poop (I don't have a vocab without swear words) I'm currently alternating between not seeing a point to my rheumy app and being hopeful things will improve after it. Pretty sure I'm going to be disappointed in a few days!

Cake- the lack of help is ridiculous. My diagnosis is new so I've told a few close friends recently and they all ask how I fix it or make it better and look so confused when I explain that I can't!

Gotta go to my mums this arvo and let her wax my legs for her beauty course. It's going to suck but I get roast lamb after! Yay!

Hope everyone is having an okay day/night. Embrace the laziness!

[cakeladie]

Can't sleep Sunny and I are watching TV.

[~Christina]

Well I cant sleep and between my pain and lack of sleep my bipolar has come out to play . Im chatty one minute then rage-y .. I want to get in my car and just try to out run the pain and bipolar crap, i do know right now that Logically that makes no flipping sense.

The sun is slowly coming, maybe I will take a hike and scream my head off , wont bother anone.. except a few deer ,squirrels, bunnies and chipmonks.

Life is really stomping on my last nerve. it needs to back the hell off !

Gentle hugs and tasty drinks for all

[lizardlady]

Saw a weather report last night that explains why my fibro's been acing up. There's a high pressure area to the south of us and a cold front to the north. Our part of the state is squished between the two. Either one would be enough to trigger a flare, both at once explains why I feel like poo.

[cakeladie]

Ranting/venting

Hey Liz I have the same problem when the weather changes but mine usually ends in a migraine.

Anyway I could not sleep last night partly because I yelled at the cat and he was not coming to a me when I called him and told him I was sorry. He's my cuddle buddy when the pain is bad and I can't sleep.

Anyway I could not sleep so we watched TV together. I finely fall asleep and my husband wakes me up and I move to our bedroom. I fall into a nice deep sleep. Then my ahole brother in law (sorry Christina ) calls the house it's 7 am my husband is the shower so I get up to answer the phone and he hangs up. What's up with that he knows not to call the house like that but the boys had plans and I honestly don't know why he called but now I can't sleep and to top it off he my brother in law thinks it's funny. I told my husband don't bring him in the house when you get home and he's not going on vacation with us next year I am sooooooooooooo mad

[January]

((((( Everyone )))))

I'm afraid to write all the names out in case I leave someone off the list. I'm that spacey today. I hope each of you feel better. Hang in there everyone.

I have what's probably going to be a stupid question. Does the fibro make your teeth and gums hurt?

Cake, I would be sooo mad. I don't blame you one bit.

[cakeladie]

I changed my mood to reflected how I was feeling.

My gums and teeth do hurt but they also hurt when my sinuses are acting up like when it's really windy. I usually take a couple of Benadryl the blue ones and they help. There are time I swear my hair hurts and even a simple hug hurts.

I took my night time meds I am going to take a shower and hopefully I will be able to sleep. This is day 3 or 4 with hardly any sleeping. It sucks.

My brother in law needed a place to stay for a while so he lived with us for a few years and took advantage of us. He's my husband brother and is older but we are the ones that bought a house. My husband works just about 7 days a week and up till a few years ago I worked and worked hard. Plus had a side business making cakes and pastries. Now because I don't work and get SSDI I am just dirt beneath his feet according to my brother in law. According to my brother in law if it wasn't for my husband I would be homeless.

My husband does not feel this way but he does not like conflict so try's to stay out of it. I would just like him to stick up for me for once. He claims he did today but not in front of me.

Ok I am done complaining it takes to much energy and I hurt so bad and just want to go to sleep