[lizardlady]

I'm so frustrated. I did very little yesterday, played on the computer, read, made some jewelry. Woke up today exhausted and in pain. I know it takes more than one day to feel better. I just very discouraged today.....

[January]

I've had to go off my mobic to take advil for my mouth. I'm really feeling the pain and I'm so tired.

[~Christina]

Day 3 of this Flare , Pain is at a 8.75 !

I asked some close friends to give me 5 reasons to keep breathing, Thankfully they did and I am a bit more grounded.

I ran out of tears about 4am. Its good because I ran outta tissues yesterday.

Fibro sucks.. Just sucks so very much.

/endrant.

Gentle hugs to all

What are you doing that kind and a treat for yourself today?

[cakeladie]

I think I could sleep for a week IF I could get to sleep.

Dealing with a sick cat is no fun but he is looking a little better. I am going to eat and take meds and try and go to bed

Hugs every

Sorry Liz and Christina and Jan take care

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

I went to watch some bands at the pub on Saturday night and then went to the local footy (AFL) grand final yesterday with my dad. Both things were great and I really needed to get out of the house for my mental health, but standing for that long has killed me.
I can barely move today and I really need to clean up my place!

Christina - I'm so glad you have good friends that gave you the answers you needed to keep going!
I'm trying to think of something nice to do for myself today and I thought I'd have something to say but I'm kinda stuck! I guess I'll have to treat myself some how and let you know!

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Jan - what dose of Mobic do you take? I'm sorry coming off it is causing you pain! I've been taking it for a couple months now and really don't think it does anything for me, but maybe if I come off it I will realise otherwise!

Cake - You manage to get some good sleep yet?

I want to respond to all of you but for now that's all the mind power I've got. Take care everyone.

[cakeladie]

Bubbles you have had a hard few weeks take care of YOU. And when you need us we are here for you.

It's weird I am tired and think I can sleep but lay down and can't sleep it's so frustrating. So no, I get maybe 2 hours at once and if I get more then that the nightmares leave me drained. I am not sure how Christina does it.

[cakeladie]

Christina I can think of more then 5 things to keep you breathing so if I can't jump off the bridge (honestly I don't think I could get my leg over the railing ) you have to keep breathing. Take it day by day hour by hour or even minute by minute.

Remember you always have us

[~Christina]

((((((((((( Bubbles)))))))))))))

Yes treat yourself .... My favorites

A freaking fantastic cupcake or some indulgant yummyness
New nail polish
A new Journal to dump all the nonsense outa my head
New gels pens or colored pencils for my Mandala coloring
A walk ouside with my cellphone taking random pictures of thing, a close up on leaves is pretty cool, or blades of grass, just click click away .

I hope your feeling better soon

[January]

Bubbles, I take 15 mg of Mobic. Believe me, you will notice when you quit taking it.

Five things:
Reading on my tablet (so I can see the print)
French manicures
Old black and white murder mystery movies
My friends
Plastic plates and spoons that I can throw away

[Kiya]

a crisp fall day with bright blue sky
a soft cat curled up with me
a good book
calls from friends
a good cup of coffee

[lizardlady]

Folks I really, REALLY need to rant.

I'm in the middle of one of those periods when I just want to give up. I'm so damned sick and tired of hurting an being exhausted. This is no way to live. Hell, this isn't living. It's existing. My pain level is at about a steady 5 or 6 with spikes up to 8. On top of the fibro pain the arthritis in my hips and knees has me hobbling like some stove up old nag.

I have no patience. I have no empathy. Not a good state of mind given what kind of work I do. I'm restricting where and what I post here at PC. There are some posts that I'd just love to scream at the poster. Not particularly supportive.

Like I said, I just want to give up. I won't. I know this will pass, both the flare and my mood, but for now I feel like a gold plated "female dog."

[~Christina]

Awwww Liz

I am so so sorry your in the Land of ***** the world , stop the ride I want off, I need a break!

Might sound silly .. But do you have any old plates or dishes you can smash and get out some of the rage-y stuff.. I buy ugly cheap dishes and smash the holy snot out of them, Its Cathartic in a way. If you don't want to have to clean it up place one in a garbage bag and pretend your the Incredible Hulk and Smash away.

I hope that you find some peace and comfort very soon, You are far too kind and supportive to be getting sucked under this way

[cakeladie]

(((((Hugs))))) Liz you have been running a mile a minute for months. Sometimes when I just can't take it anymore and crying doesn't help since it gives me a migraine afterwards. I get a pillow and hit the couch. (Make sure the cats are not on it )

And believe it or not it's ok to have a pity party every once in a while we all need them and we all have them.

Can your doctor give you something for the pain? Or if you do not want to take a pill what about a pain patch? Also bengay does help. Hot rice packs help. If you do not have any I can make you some real quick and have them in the mail within a day. Or look into a relax wrap. They work wonders and I know a manager who works their and could get you a good deal.

But never ever think you are alone because you are not. Never feel that you have to hold back what you are feeling with us we have all been in your shoes. No one but us understands what you are going through and how you feel and how you hurt and how you just want it to stop.

Liz we have your back

Ps. I get how you would like to go off on some of the post here. I read a lot of them and just shake my head but I have been warned once to be nice or not post at all. So I watch which threads I post to. Sad

[January]

((((( Liz )))))

I don't have any answers but know that I am here. I like the idea of smashing a plate in a bag. You are right, this will pass. Hold on to that, if you can. Many hugs and a prayer going to you, my friend.

[lizardlady]

Thanks for all the good thoughts. Today is a little better. I've begun to believe myself when I say this too shall pass.

[lizardlady]

Ladies, just a heads up. I might not be around here for a little while. I find I'm spending way too much time at PC. Then I'm letting myself get upset by posts from certain people. I may need to use some self care and stay away for a bit. Wanted to give y'all a heads up so you don't worry.

[~Christina]

Liz.. Do what you need to do ... PC often upsets me and I have needed to back away.. Pm me anytime you need a ear

[cakeladie]

Pm me to I am here for you

[January]

Pm me, too. I'm here if you want me!

[LettinG0]

I'm not a constant face around here....but you can pm me too Liz....anytime.....actually any of you precious ladies can!

Gentle hugs for everyone.

[Kiya]

(((((((((((((((((Liz)))))))))))))))))))!

[~Christina]

I hope everyone had a good weekend. I actually was able to sleep !!!! Woo hoo

Be extra kind to yourself

[cakeladie]

Who hoo Christina way to go you got sleep.

This past week has been hell for me. With the lupus Fibro and everything else I have been going to bed early like 6:00 pm early but could just lay there. Then hubby worked a double on Thursday night. He got off and was home around 2:30 pm but left to go back at 10:30 so I slept on the couch for an hour or so. Then went to our bed but could not sleep until 3:00 am or so then he came home at 7 so I gave him back to the bedroom but he could not sleep so me came to the front room and told me to go back to the bedroom. I felt like a Mexican jumping bean then my uncle called and I had to run to the bank.

Lord help me

Hubby is hurt. He carried wire and now he has this rash that is getting worse and his back and neck is in pain. Now he NEVER goes to the doctor. It's 5:37am here and he just left for work but told me to make him am appointment. He said he was going to do a couple of things then come home and go to the doctor. He has not been to the doctor since a Bush was president maybe Reagan it's been years. I know it was way before 2008. Keep your fingers crosses. Men are babies when it comes to doctors

Hugs to all I will post more later

[January]

Yay for Christina for sleeping! Wooohoooooo!!!!!!!

Oh no, Cake! Do please let us know what the Dr. says about hubby. I hope you feel better, too.

The Ibuprofen is really helping me as far as mouth pain goes - that is until it wears off and then, oh boy! It's helping my back pain some. I think maybe I'm taking too much of it, but I don't know for sure. I just know I need this much of it for my mouth right now. Life is weird sometimes.

Has anyone heard from Bubbles lately?