Van attitude

I had an email yesterday when I got home with a ton of attitude about the van picking me up for my partial program, because I missed it yesterday by sleeping in.

They think it was here on Wednedsay but it was not. I was ready to go at 7:15. I slept in yesterday because it was a no-show two days in a row. Not to mention the full week before of no shows waiting to be picked up to be evaluated. I think someone there got yelled at and now they are taking it out on me.

The van comes at 8:00 or later. So this email says it comes between 7:30 and 8:00 and I have to be ready. I spoke to the van driver yesterday, there are no pickups before 8. In any case, I was ready to go at 7:10 today.

If there was no "history" behind this, and I got this email saying "between 7:30 and 8:00" I'd be pretty agitated right now, it being 8:30 and still no van. (In reality I'm expecting it right around now).

I know this is 99.8% my depression getting me riled, but I just had to vent. I have been quite the grump lately.

Anyone remember the cartoon "Here Comes the Grump"? Geez, I think I even remember part of the theme song...

Geez, I found it...

Here Comes the Grump

And check out the name of the boy... I didn't remember that!

If you don't have RealAudio, the theme song is also available here in a different format.

Depression or no, dexter, I think most people would feel frustrated in your situation. You've been through a lot of headaches concerning this partial program. Try to keep a part of you positive, though, so that you can get something from this experience and you aren't pre-occupied with dwelling on the transporation stuff.

Well now I am getting antsy, because it is quarter to 9 and the van is still not here yet.

The program starts at 9. I don't want to be late again... I think that is why I didn't get to talk to the doctor yesterday. This has been going on for, what, two weeks now and I still haven't seen a doctor! (for treatment, but also to get me started on temp disability!!!)

I'll bet those emails are non-answerable.. and someone needs to update their electronics !!! Sears repair does the same thing: tells you the serviceman will be there either between 8am and noon or 1 till 4pm... but they don't even GET to their pickup site for addresses, and their trucks, till 8am! And they operate out of an area that could be 4hours "long"!!! grrrrr and I don't DO mornings! Sometimes this electronic life is not helpful like it was meant to be!

Is it the same driver all the time? Maybe make an agreement with him? Can he call you before he comes out, just so there's another connection? good wishes, dexter, we often have to fight for what we know we need!

I hope the van showed up. I think you should give them attitude, Dexter. Give 'em hell!!!! ((((((((Dexter)))))))

The van showed up right at 9:00, hence my rapid departure from the board this morning.

This van company apparently has a reputation for being late. I found out today though from talking to someone who has been riding the same bus for a long time that the problem isn't with the drivers, it is with the dispatchers. Very disorganized apparently. So I am glad that I didn't give the driver grief yesterday, and he did seem very nice, also attentitive and responsible... and the same with the driver today.

Plus they know where my house is now (or at least two of them do)

Well, you'll have no excuses from those 2 LOL how did the rest of it go? any help there?

What a mess I would be livid at all of there issues. I am glad you got to go...and hope you like it and that it helps in spite of all the B.S

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Im sorry. I know it must be frustraiting.

I thought I posted this last night but I guess I hit the wrong button

I just wanted to point out something that someone else just pointed out to me... that all this frustration was toward a good end, that of getting out and getting some help. It is a small price to pay for possible relief from what is going on... and has also given me a chance to focus on something other than my depression for a little bit each day.

I am still not to where I believe this is going to help... it's only been two days in the program after all. I still have a huge amount of anxiety and depression and fear--great fear--that is swamping my feelings of hope out of this. But I am trying to clutch that hope and give it a chance...

Maybe I have learned from Jack and Locke that sometimes it is better to have a bit of faith mixed in with all that "man of science" stuff

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Maybe I have learned from Jack and Locke that sometimes it is better to have a bit of faith mixed in with all that "man of science" stuff


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I enjoyed your remark about Jack and Locke. I agree that sometimes we do just need to have faith that things will work out.

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GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR at the ..............

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Fuzzy

Thank you everyone, I am feeling a bit more relaxed today. I slept in later today. I think I will be able to get through the day and into tomorrows program without too much trouble. Fingers crossed.

There are a ton of posts that I want to reply too on the forums...

I've just been so beat getting home. Program ends at 3pm, van drops me home around 5pm after dropping off everyone else all over the map. Not a comfortable trip for my arthritis either. I did get out on my scooter for about a half hour after I got home today though.

If I've missed some posts I'm sorry.

Tonight was all about settling in to watch Lost and couch-potato myself to the max before and afterward. I was touched by the way it turned out that love was orange, BTW.

Don't sweat the forums, Dexter. Getting out on your scooter and watching your favorite shows sounds great. Take care of yourself, first.

Tough time getting out of bed today because of arthritis... VERY hard time sitting and standing up from the potty.

But while I am sitting, at quarter to 8 I hear a car horn. Was that my pickup van? They've been coming within 15 minutes of 9:00 every day, and I think some of the days that I missed they might have been here after 10:00, after I've given up and gone back to sleep.

So if that was them at 7:45, I may be screwed for today. I usually am ready by 7:30 but not today because of the arthritis. But anyway I was thinking that 7:30 was too early to get up if they are here at 9 everyday.

If I am supposed to be ready "between 7:30 and 10:00" for pickup everyday, thats a 2 and a half hour window, and I think that is just too strenuous and stressful for me with the the arthritis and the depression. It is so hard to wake up early, and having to be up and ready early and then not be picked up also feeds into my depression and my desire to go back to bed.

You'll know this afternoon whether I made it there or not...

I hope that wasn't the van, Dexter. If it was, try to hang in there.

Don't know if it was or wasn't, but it or another did come to pick me up... as some might have guessed by my lack of presence today.

Came home after yet another grueling ride and went pretty much right to sleep. My arthritis was hurting terribly, so it is kind of like the thing I described in the health forum... don't know whether my body needs the rest because of the arthritis or if the sleep is because of the depression... don't know if it is going against my body to fight it or giving in my depression to give in to it.

Dexter I know it is like a vicious cycle I too have medical issues but the body needs REST ..sleep to help inflammation and illness thats when our immune system is at IT'S peak..Maybe you could lay on the sofa and read stuff from the program or psych books to help or watch TV and rest and make sure you sleep at least 8-10 hrs a day.

More van aggravation...

My hours and days have changed at the hospital program...

This morning I got up the nerve (I have a phone phobia) to call the van/transportation company to make sure they had my schedule changes.

I spoke to someone and confirmed they got my schedule change from the hospital. I asked what time to expect the van and they gave me a time period.

Very good!

Well that time period comes and goes. I don't want to miss another day, so I get up the nerve to call again. It is harder this time because this is what I'm afraid of... calling twice and having them say "we already told you, the van will be there!" (I know that I'm the customer and I have the right to call, but that's why this is a phobia rather than a fear... )

So I call again, speak to someone different, and they tell me "Well, we don't come until you call" so they are sending someone now. That's probably why I wasn't picked up yesterday and had problems last week... but NOBODY said that's how it is supposed to work and most days they DO come without me calling so something is just all screwed up with the whole service.

At least I know they are on their way now. I'll be late but at least I'll be there.