Daily Check In - Ups and Downs

I am depressed so thought I would check in. I can't seem to shake it. I really don't want to be here. I am nothing......wasted place.

yesterday i had such a bad day till my wonderful bf told me he loved me and my dad gave me a hug filled with love, somtimes its the simplest things that can change my day around. I will remember that when i see others having a bad day and see how i can help and turn there day around as well.

Good day today so far. weather is nice. Good visit with p-doc.

Feeling good! Yet, having chest pain from anxiety, that I didn't know I had.

I'm doing really badly at the moment. This whole week has really blown for me.

So-so day for me. I envy those people who are in a good relationship now...

I am a bit better today nothing has really changed. I need to get out of this black hole I somehow got in.

I woke up this morning expecting to feel miserable and have to listen everyone tell me I need to cheer up and stop being so angry and insecure and then I found out after school I was going to the psych... I was SI free today up until that point. I got diagnosed today. My dad is dead-set against meds and therapy. He insists I can get over this on my own. I might get the meds anyways if I can find a way. I don't know.

had incredible pain last night/this morning and now I feel totally drained and brain numbed.
Look ma...I'm learning to rant too

really difficult right now.

Fml atm
Good friends, bad husband
Don't know what tomorrow will bring...can't get much worse than today, or yesterday

Bad day yesterday. Thought i'd go to bed earlier and try again today. Woke up after 3 hours. Worried, angry, depressed. This isn't good.

I'm in a horrible mood right now. This morning I had a really boring 2 hour meeting at work. Then I had group this afternoon. I had a very hard time sitting and focusing in group because of my mood. Having bad urges right now. It took everything in me not to SI during group.

Not good at all

I had a panic attack in Literature class today. My teacher wouldn't let me leave; she made stay there the entire time. I was so ashamed afterwards...

Lack of a good night's sleep is really wearing me down. I've been getting about 3/4 hours a night Meh. not good.

I love sleeping. I am really good at it. I miss it.

I can relate Hope you get back in the groove.

Don't feel bad because you had an anxiety attack, probably no one knew except you and I bet you handled it just fine. Don't be so hard on yourself. take care.

Just realized today in therapy that I haven't paid any bills except rent!!! I haven't been that far gone for years. My T gave me an order today to do nothing else but get the bills taken care of and that really infuriated me. I know what I need to do, I don't need to be "ordered" to do it. I was realizing how far I had regressed going into past avoidance behaviors by shutting out the world except for the book in front of me and wanted to address that. I feel infantilized! If that is a word. Still working on the sleep problem.

I'm new to the community....so I hope I'm posting this in the proper place, but I have a general question.
I suffer from moderate depression & ADD. I was diagnosed 3 yrs ago and was on meds until several months ago. Hubby lost his job & of course no insurance...no meds.
I can't say I've had a hard time dealing with no meds until the past month or so. Almost as if i was running on meds from past couple years?? Have insurance again (yay!!!) as well as an appt Monday because symptoms have definitely returned full force.
My question is, has anyone ever felt "pressure" across your forehead, like all the way across...sometimes wrapping around to the temple area? Almost feels like an "invisible band" around my head.
I remember feeling this before being diagnosed with depression...took Pristiq and it went away. As I mentioned, symptoms are back full force, including "pressure" in my head. Just wondering if this is common.
Thanks so much in advance for any info
Appreciate this site so much!!

Triggered bad this morning. Completely overreacted to something and lashed out at my poor wife. Again. Now I feel like crap.

One of those days when it's incredibly hard just to breathe and all I can do is count the minutes 'till sleep. Hope tomorrow is better.

I'm doing good, except can't find something important that I misplaced yesterday.

Rose someone once told me that if you walk around repeating the name of the lost item over and over again it can trigger a thought that may help you find the lost thing. I have actually funny enough found that it works for me lol. They say it keeps your mind focused on that one thing and blanks out the things that would distract you from your search....GL with the hunt.
Been having it really good for quite a while now...mentally even the big things don't seem to be so big right now.
Physically good news my Colitis seems to be in Remission YAY for proper meds and listening to my Dr. for once lol.
Kids are awesome, business is busy, my BB sisters brain tumor is more than 70% smaller thanks to the new injection of Chemo & Prayers of course. My depression seems to be under control for now

Hugz & Hope you all have a fantastic evening
Nams

ups and downs is the story of my life... today has been mostly down. I hate it! Ideas and thoughts and feelings are swirling in my head... from frustration and anger to sadness etc...