[Dos3512]

Feeling pretty crummy. This depression has me struggling just to see some hope. I see pdoc tomorrow. Hopefully we can get a gameplan to beat this b4 i land in hospital.

[Mysoul]

Originally Posted by konrei

Previous is closed due to 100 page limit so starting again. Same thing as the always.

Still feeling down since yesterday, going to look something to make me happy.

Hope you have a better day. Woke up to a sunny morning up here near Everett....Going to lay in the sun and soak up some Vitamin D......

[Shadow-world]

Another breakdown yesterday and since then it's been hell. I managed to doze or sleep a bit this afternoon after a bad night and being exhausted.
Off work again.
I need to be able to get through and over this.

[konrei]

This canned feelings inside me can't help but wanting to make me scream and panic around the house. My emotions are big wreck over the past weeks and talking this over to my family isn't really helping.

[FacingChains]

Feel like Im losing ground again, though managed to get in shower. BF has company and friend staying downstairs until end of July. This person treats me badly and I wish he would go away. I feel lonely and confused. My T. is onvacation. I slept this afternoon and I think I will go back to bed. All those boys are hiking and I dont want anything to do with them when they return. They totally exclude me in my own space. What is this highschool? I can figure out whether I should let it go or speak up for myself. I am too old for this silliness. HIs friend will be gone tomorrow and his other friend will be gone at end of July but another friend is coming the 3rd.
Ugh. This is a stupid post. I am depressed as ever and being ignored and feeeling invisuble doesnt help. My bf says he wishes they would all go away too, at least Im not alone, but his friend downstairs is paying rent for the summer and he keeps inviting people and they are also my bfs friends so what can I do? I feel weak and stupid and hide in my room. Facing Chains

[f.reliant]

Accomplished a lot today. Still depressed..but moving along. Am THANKFUL for every good day.

[Rose76]

I feel a lot better than I have for quite a while.

[turquoise4]

Things have been hard today.

[bluedolphin92]

Well, still no word from my friends or about the temp job...Oh well. I did go for that walk, and I also decided to drive aimlessly around town for awhile. I don't know if it helped too much in the long run, but it was nice to get out of the house.

I did see one of my more distant high school friends when I went out to dinner tonight. We talked for a bit, she seems to be doing well, and seemed interested in talking to me. That at least proves to me that I still exist. I start to doubt that at times.

[MotherMarcus]

Ughhhh...PMS. Back aches and I feel gross.

[regretful]

Sadness, frustration, on the verge of tears. Lonely, afraid, anxious, depressed...you know that poster in many therapists' offices with the faces of emotions (used for kids a lot)? I feel like about half of those faces on the poster...I think I'm an emotional train-wreck right about now..I hope that one day I will be able to post on the "depression success stories" board.

[agma]

I have been pretty down lately. I have been struggling with anxiety and depression. Today so far has been ok. I went to the store, made apple crisp, and walked on the treadmill. Hopefully the rest of my day continues to go well.

[pandarama123456789]

I feel a little cut off from my emotions right now, haven't felt any which way about anything for the past week. I just want to be alone, I need to think... but that always gets me into trouble

[No Fuse No Flame]

Finally the pendulum swings, Insurance will pay maximum for wreck, bills will be paid. Especially the doctor who treated me and treated me well. Will send him a thankyou note. Now I can go see my pdoc and get some help till the state takes over. I have a way to feed my self and keep light s on til ss video confrence with appeals judge. Will be laying low till then, stay away from triggers.

FYI if you purchase minimum coverage insurance it might save you money up front, but (the big hairy but) you could be sued for the rest. I was fortunate ehough to have not been seriuosly injured, and didn't want to sue for personal assets, I'm just not that kind of person...

[f.reliant]

Am profoundly sad. Had a good productive start to day...and then...C'est la vie. Hoping for a better tomorrow.

[misscath007]

Need massive amount of hugs. Health issues overwhelming me, doctor's are driving me crazy, feel overwhelmed.

[pandarama123456789]

Originally Posted by misscath007

Need massive amount of hugs. Health issues overwhelming me, doctor's are driving me crazy, feel overwhelmed.

[konrei]

Found out that my ex-boyfriend is back on a relationship with a co-worker in his workplace. My last call I did for him was around July 2011. Looks like I won't bother him anymore.

[misscath007]

I feel awful today, physically and emotionally.

Here's a hug to anyone who needs it.

[f.reliant]

So darn tired but find it impossible to rest/relax today. Need to keep busy. Find something to occupy my time with. Waiting for butter to reach room temp so I can bake something for a pot luck dinner tomorrow. Going to be around a lot of people...frightening.

[Rose76]

The heat bothers me a lot. I think I would feel a lot better mentally, if it were cooler . . . or it I had real a/c.

[pandarama123456789]

I'm going to try and force myself to see some people this weekend. I couldn't seem to muster up enough courage to call anyone today. Hope I can tomorrow!! All is fine besides that and this buzzing I keep hearing

[optimize990h]

actually went out today, less paranoid, but still pasted on my public face.

[CastlesInTheAir]

blah...yup

[coneyislandbaby]

I feel completely defeated, hopeless, heartbroken.

Was gonna get a promotion at work, screwed that up by missing a day by accident. Now I have to wait 6 months.

Started a band.. Then broke my hand by smashing it into a door in anger. So thats now on hiatus.

Can't ride my bike this summer. Can't go swimming or dancing or really do anything I enjoy.

Still single and just met a guy, who is already blowing me off.

Been crying all night.