Feel completely hopeless and alone!!!

I feel so lost, alone, unloveable. My personal life is a disaster - I am all alone, and can't seem to find anyone to love. I feel so hopeless. Feel that nothing will ever change. Feel that I can't get out of this quick sand that seems to be making me sink deeper and deeper. What do I do??? Taking meds and seeing a therapist, and it is NOT helping!!!!

I'm sorry to hear that the meds and therapist aren't helping!! That would have to be completely frustrating!!! From a girl, who just so happens to be a TRAINWRECK waiting to happen, I understand were you are coming from. At times, I purposely withdrawl from everyone when I begin to feel low. It's taken a while but I've finally come to accept that I have one person who is there for me. I used think I wasn't worthy. . . Do you feel this way also? I mean are purposely pulling away from everyone? Sorry, I may be projecting my own experiences onto you, what you posted really struck a cord with me; I can see myself....

(((((((OUCH)))))))

You're not alone- I'm here!!!!

Hang in there. The seed planted doesn't grow overnight and you can't pull on it to make it grow faster. You are on the right track and as frustrating as it is, beleive in youself and your ability to get past this. It will get better.

Yes, I do withdraw from others - I spent about 4 months without seeing a soul. I'm in a new city, so I don't have close friends here, and no family, so it was quite easy to do. Trying not to do it now, but still see myself falling into the same trap as a month ago. Wish I could get out of this hole!!!

May I ask how long you been seeing a therapist and taking meds? sometimes they take a while to work...and also sometimes you need to change them because your body gets too used to one kind...Hope you are feeling better now!! Hugs to you!

To get out without really making contact with others ... try going to the library and reading there. Take a book to the mall and sit in a lounge area and read for a while... or play a game on a cell phone... something to get you out and "in" a crowd without having to interract with the crowd? Do you like sports? Why not go to the local adult softball game or pick up game...sit in the bleachers and watch.... alone but with others...

If your meds don't work you should think of changing them. How long have you been in thereapy? Depression doesn't fly away over night, it can take very long to learn to cope with life. I hope you can find some peace in your life.

I have been in therapy for 4 months and have been on meds for about 3 months. I think meds alone don't help, and I have to say I am not happy about having to take them, so yesterday I started to decrease the dosage, even though my Dr. said to increase them. Silly I know, but I want to know that I can get out myself, and I'm still depressed, so what's the point of taking chemicals?

You know the answer. It's really bad when you get in that stage of the depression where you don't want to get better anymore, you just want to give in to the darkness.

The meds balances the chemicals in your brain that cause emotions. It's scary to think that all you feel is because of a chemical recation! Whether it's influenced from outside or not, getting your brain to release more seretonin, which is a feel good hormone, is very important so that you can get the strenght and hope to fight off whatever caused your depression in the first place. Listen to your doc!!!!!!! Just try it for a while. If it helps you to sort out some issues then you won't have too hard a time stopping them because by then you have worked through some stuff hopefully. Just remember that this is a longterm plan and won't get better over night!!!!!

My best friend says I'm not being rational in terms of the meds. Maybe I'm not being totally sane about it. I have always hating taking meds - scared about the long-term effects of them. Being stubborn I know...

I think I agree with your friend. If you're scared about the effects then search it on the net to calm your fears.

((((((( ouch ))))))))

I hope you get to feel better soon.

sigh yes... I know all those feelings. I think, though, it's not that we don't wish to improve... it's that well, for me, I don't want things to continue the way they are....but feel unable and not hopeful that things can change.

Do what you know to do ... whether you feel like it or not... one thing each day, ok? It will help, really.

Ouch...4 months is not near enough time to have a change in your life...It is just the beginning...and if they are not helping much then you need to do what the doc says...increase them...I am just increasing mine...and I think they are finally starting to work...I am cleaning the house...someting I haven't felt like doing for a long long time...lol...do it ouch..please at least for six more months...listen to the doc...you can always give up later...but maybe by then you won't want to...(((hugs)))

thanks for the insight. I know I am being stupid and illogical. It's just that I am feeling a bit better (although I have had some nasty dips - spent most of last night crying), but figure I can do the rest by myself. Don't know... don't know why i rebel against the obvious - just hate taking chemicals and am terrified of the long-term effects. What if I get cancer or other unforeseen consequences. I always hear - oops, didn't know that would happen by researchers... am scared....

I understand your feelings concerning meds. I, too have been stubborn about taking meds and I have suffered the consequences.

Without them I am miserable and I feel like it took alot of courage for me to admit I need them because I had to fight with myself to get to that point ya know?

What did it for me? Besides the pain and misery I was in? I believe it is short term.I believe that once I have gone through the healing process of childhood baggage..
I am on my way to being med-free. Thats what I am in therapy for. thats the root of all my problems... unresolved childhood stuff.

Until then, I am taking the meds so I can have a life of some sort while I work on the other stuff.Its hard and often depressing but I have to keep my eye on the end of that road.

I haven't read your story and i know its bound to be different from mine but I wanted to share my experience with you so you would know there is hope.And I want you to know there is nothing wrong with needing meds.It doesn't make you weak at all.

Good Luck!

Ouch, I have always hated taking anything. Be it pain pill, like asprin, tylenol, or anything over the coutner, but I've come to realize, I can't do it alone. I need assistance!! I was feeling 70% better until yesterday. I won't let yesterday and today get me down that low. (This is just me talking about my experiencees).

I've been on and off meds and therapy for at least two years, but I've finally made a vow to myself; I'm going to follow 'THEIR' rules. So, far, so good (with the exception of yesterday and today; I found myself banging my head, it's been weeks since I've done that).

IMO, you just need to find the path that is right for you.... I don't know how to tell you to get there... but, eventually, you will find it..... when you are ready....

(((((HUGS))))

PM me anytime..... I wish I could reach out and hug you in person. I see so much of me in you!!

Ouch don't be scared by the what ifs in the world...you have something NOW and need to take care of it NOW...the crying will go away once you find the right meds and get on track...I really wish you good luck with your decisions!!! (((hugs))) and more (((hugs))) and remember also that meds cannot just be stopped...they have to be reduced gradually or that will do you more bad than good...!!