How can I live when I feel like dying?

I just find I don't see the point of getting up in the morning - I'm awake early but can't convince myself to get out of bed.

Today my mom called and asked me if I was thinking of hurting myself - I am, but didn't really answer her - I have thought about suicide, but don't think I'd actually do it, but I didn't tell her this. She started crying (even though I didn't answer) and she said she would kill herself if I ever did. Great response - guilt trip - her usual method. I love her, but she can be difficult, and has struggled with depression her whole life (the apple doesn't fall far from the tree). My grandpa committed suicide and my aunt tried unsuccessfully not that long ago - I don't think suicide is a good answer, but neither is living like this...
what to do?

cant help you very much but i can offer you a hug,
(((((((((((ouch))))))))))))

I understand your position ouch.....
But hurting yourself is not the answer.....

I am glad to hear that you don't believe "S" is the answer.
I am sorry that your family, in particular your mum also have to deal with depression, but I'm sure she isn't trying to make you feel guilty, I think she's maybe trying to show you that if you do hurt yourself, she will be unable to live as she has lost you!!!!

I think you need to focus your spare time on doing the things you enjoy, the things that make you happy......
I find when I am feeling low, putting my energy into something I love to do..... it always puts a smile on my face & makes me feel good!!!

Look after yourself & try to stay positive!!

Flinty

I wish I had a magic answer for you tonight.......struggling a bit myself this long weekend. I hope that tomorrow things will look better for you!
(((((((hugs)))))))

thanks!
need support from you guys - my sister yelled at me today because she's frustrated with me for still being depressed... she seemed to get through hers much quicker than me - with a lower dose of meds - now she's off hers! I wish I could say the same for myself

You know sometimes the best thing to do when you are feeling that low is to just cry yourself to sleep and when you wake up in the morning or after a nap or when ever you wake up make yourself get out of bed and focus on keeping yourself busy. Do something that you love doing no matter how hard it is to get yourself to do it just do it. Once you get yourself in the habbit of doing things for yourself you will find that you will start to feel better. *hugs* Just hang in there.
Pamela Su

Are you under the care of a doctor? Do you take medication?

Do you have a therapist or someone that you can really talk to?

All those things are important, especially if there is a family history of depression....

Meanwhile, post here and post often! There are a lot of people who have been there, done that and have the t-shirt too . We would all love to help if we can..

Take care and ask for help when you need it...

Hey hang in there. My mom has depression too. I never wanted to admit that I have it. I havent told my mother iam feeling this way. I have been thinking painful thoughts as well. My faith keeps me sane. Just remember there are people that care about you.

I don't know what to do, though i wish I had the answer. Just try to hang in there. Take it one day at a time... ((((ouch))))