[dandylin]

The week seems to be getting better and better

[bluedolphin92]

Ugh. Good mood didn't last. I knew it wouldn't.

I've still been talking to Chris, the guy from the dating site, though it seems like I have to initiate a lot of conversations, which is never good. I asked him if we'd be able to get together at all this weekend and he just said that he was doing something with a friend on Saturday but he'd let me know later. He's said before that he's not the type of person that likes to set up plans too far in advanced, so I guess I understand, but it still is kind of annoying to not know. I had asked him on Monday if we could get together Wednesday and he just said he'd have to check, but he never told me yes or no and we never did get together.

This is starting to fall into a pattern that's all too familiar to me. I don't have much experience with guys in the past (Other than Chris, there are only 3 really worth mentioning), but in all of those past cases, the guy said he was interested in continuing some kind of relationship, but when I asked about actually getting together, I never really got a straight answer and eventually the guy just kinda dropped off the face of the earth. I'm terrified that the same thing is happening yet again. I really want to ask Chris if he's serious about wanting to continue to see me, but I'm afraid to. Afraid of the truth if he doesn't and afraid that my insecurity will scare him away even if he really did want to see me again

[SadPam]

There was a remarkable turn of events in my life today - received a text from a coworker saying that an email was sent out yesterday announcing that my boss, who has been relentlessly bullying me and HR put me on leave while they look into, has been reassigned!! I don't know how this will impact me, whether his replacement will want me or prefer to hire his own admin, but I am so encouraged that the main reason for my depression will be out of my life one way or another!

Speaking of depression, I don't know how much longer I can deal with the severe diarrhea that the damn Zoloft is causing... : (

[Idealsummerluvv]

Originally Posted by tokiwartooth

Just adopted a new doggy! Get to take her home on Sunday

Congratulations!

[Idealsummerluvv]

I am sooooo grateful to have today off- to have 2 days off in a row is rare! My postmaster is so good to me.

Am going shopping. It is going to be crazy, especially with a storm coming.
We are putting our tree up later today and going to my brother's for supper.

[healingme4me]

Angry, hurt, betrayed, suspicious, anxious, impatient, ornery....

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[tigersassy]

I'm doing ok. Got a bit of a headache, but it's ok. Going to go finish christmas shopping today. Should be fun except maybe the crowds mixed with my overly impatient mood I've had the past few days. But oh well.

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[Martek]

Lost........................

Well I need to get some clothes for my son, so I will feel better when he has some things that he needs, and I'm trying to think of some gifts that will be fun for him, we should play some board games together and such. Electronics are always expensive, and I often wish it was llike the old days before cell phones were a must for every kid, and the lastest versions of games, cause it seems to make kids competitive....
So ups, getting out
Downs, its really darn cold and snowing and blowing!

[healingme4me]

depression this time of year, can suck.
If I'm no longer Co-dep, and life keeps pulling around in a 360, and my feelings aren't 'heard', supported, accepted, then clearly the heart strings, the priest once used as analogous exist.
Tres Años?? From work??
Adm

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[tigerlily84]

Work for once went well and I did not get overwhelmed the way that I usually do. My coworker (who was off today) texted me to see if I wanted to get lunch, and I wanted to go but I had to pick up my mom from work and take her to my grandma's nursing home. I told my coworker I could meet up at 5:30pm, but she didn't want to. She has a chronic illness that causes her to get tired after a while, so I try to be understanding. I feel guilty for feeling annoyed, which only serves to feed the negative thoughts.

For once, I really want to go out and socialize. It's not often that I feel that way. My best friend from high school never has time to see me, and only contacts me to complain about her boyfriend. She hardly ever asks how I am doing. And she's busy: she's a college professor and owns her own business. No time to respond to texts or call I guess. I just feel insignificant and stupid, begging for attention. I pretend like I'm fine but I'm not. I'm just lonely. I don't have any other friends or anyone to talk to that isn't part of my family. I just want to meet up with a friend and have some coffee. Sorry for whining and for the long post. I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I think I may just go to the nearby coffee shop and read there so I can be around people. ((Hugs)) to everyone here.

[TheEbonyEwe]

I didn't think my husband was capable of making me feel even lower than he made me feel yesterday, but he really outdid himself today. Thanks, a-hole. It's nice to know that I'm not anyone worthy of respect, love, etc. to even you, the sorry, lazy pos that you are.

Hey.. I kind of feel better now I got that off my chest. I think I'm going to go watch a movie all by myself and eat the rest of his cookies. Yeah.... I'm feeling a lot better now.

[tigerlily84]

Hey friends. I just read this article and it helped me. Maybe it will lift our spirits!
24 Rules For Being A Human Being In 2014 | Thought Catalog

[bluedolphin92]

Well, things didn't work out with Chris. Kinda saw it coming. Oh well. He at least was up front and honest about it with me. He said that he wants to still be friends and so far I believe him. He seems like a pretty cool guy so I hope a friendship can work out. I guess rejection always sucks but this was probably the lease painful one I've ever faced.

Interestingly enough, he set me up on a blind date tomorrow with one of his friends. So we'll see how that goes, I guess. Better than going back to dating sites, if nothing else. Hope it works out.

[IcryWhoAmI]

I don't know what's happened, but I've been feeling okay for a few weeks now. Maybe it's because I've been out more often, I don't know. It's weird. How long will it last? Who knows...

[Martek]

Pathetic, don't even have the energy to read the longer posts. Or is it maybe the concentration?

[Clara22]

Hi Martek,
It is concentration, it was the first sign of my depression, do not dismay!

[healingme4me]

I think I need a little more sleep. I am grateful, for the multitude of years of learning to stop/pause/think about my feelings; grateful for the multitude of years of knowing how to look inside my soul, in order to not overload my brain with emotional static and work through my emotions with logic and reasoning skills, and for knowing how to express myself.

This, time of the year, is always a mixed bag; gotta not let the doldrums affect my life, at the same time, no sense squashing them like a bug. I embrace these melancholic moments.

[regretful]

Utterly miserable and scared

[herethennow]

not in a good place, as always.

hoping it's a better situation for everyone else!

[Bark]

Blew up over something, but I'm fine now. Glad that I don't have to write an exam tomorrow... I haven't touched my book in several days... a week... not sure.

I hope I'm starting to feel better and not about to sink down into the depths again. Past few days haven't been good ones.

My oh my do people's moods rub off on me, I'm soooo tired (bad time of year to try to find peace out there), isn't this supposed to be a wonderful time... hugs to you all who are struggling too

[tigerlily84]

Depression is hitting hard again. I couldn't take being awake so I took a nap. I've hardly eaten today. I did manage to go to the grocery store at least so that's something. Thinking about calling out tomorrow from work. I know staying home won't help but the work environment and nature of my job is contributing to my depression. And round and round we go.

[PrisonBound]

Ugh, can't sleep again. last couple of days were ok, but a couple of things triggered by anxiousness and depression. HATE feeling this way and hate not being able to cope with those things.

It's like, "im fine as long as I live isolated from the world". horrible existence

[tigersassy]

Doing ok. Yesterday was normal other than the grumpy factor. Didn't sleep much, but oh well. Drs appt on wed can't get here quick enough.

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