[TheOriginalMe]

Originally Posted by regretful

What is it about depression that has such a hold on me? Nothing in this existence is as bad as depression...

I would certainly agree with that.

The weather was fine and sunny, I had errands to run so I took my dog with me and when I'd done the errands we went to the fields for her to have a good run about. Normally she will scoot off quite a way from me, but today she kept nearby the whole time, I felt very looked after and cared for.

[msbunnyryu]

I hate my mom. I hate the people. I hate myself. I hate the world. Why am I still around?

[dandylin]

Spent the day with a beautiful 6 month old baby boy. I am good

[RunningInTheRain]

Alternating between sad and numb today.

[eggplantlife]

Scared!!!!!!!!!!! Really scared about my future...scared!!!! How do I not be scared?

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[blacklist]

I spent most of my day sleeping. Now every inch of my body is in pain.. I huv to attend an event at night I am trying my best to avoid bt cant somehow I huv to face ppl lets see wat goes on

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[regretful]

Hovering over the abyss with the cold, gray hand of depression about to push me into oblivion...at least that what it feels like most of the time...it's as if I know depression is coming, and it feels like there's nothing that I can do to stop it from being part of my life again..

[Espresso]

Bad week, bad month. I have no energy to do anything. I either don't eat or eat way too much. I'm not sleeping well. I feel hopeless. I feel helpless. I hate myself.

[Bigmike727]

Seems like all I can do lately is sleep for some odd reason.

[maddnessreturns]

I'm going ok today. Got up went out with a friend and took my corgi to the park. Only down is I can't manage to eat a full meal.

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I'm still recovering from a cold that I got last week, though I'm feeling much better. I have decided to just take it easy today. Was very busy yesterday.
Back to work tomorrow for a full week this time. There was supposed to be a new procedure with how I do my job tomorrow that I am not in favor of. But it does not appear that it's going happen at least for now. I really hope it does not happen. It's fine the way it is now and why change something when it's working out well.

Depression is bad today. It was just an awful day. I don't know why. I'm so frickin sick of this!

[newmercies]

amazingly, I'm doing better, not good, but better. Sometimes I'm severely depressed for a long time, and sometimes just for a week or two. At least, I want to feel better. Tomorrow starts another long work week, so we shall see how I do...I hate my job

[Lion heart]

Was achy, sluggish, sad, grumpy and burst into tears over breakfast at 10 and went back to bed. I got out of bed for good at 2 pm wondering if pains shooting down my arm were heart attack symptoms or symptoms of laying too long in a bed. I decided to do something about the funk I've been in for months and joined this community. My outlook improved and I was able to prepare for work tomorrow with some clarity and focus. Still achy, tired and sad if I think too much about myself but giving hugs here makes me feel better.

[tigerlily84]

My birthday is this week. And it only serves to remind me how unhappy I am. What a waste my life has been, and what it could be.

[TheOriginalMe]

Terrible day. Mood as low as it can be. I thought about doing stuff to myself, burning myself with the iron, opening up an artery, jumping. I want this to end, but it can't. I'm already dead and this will continue for eternity.

[lizzyjb]

After a weekend so calm. Anxiety attack again. Yesterday my parents come to visit. Today I am missing them a lot.

[Melodic]

My therapist is amazing. I am actually so grateful to have found her. I was feeling miserable and blaming myself for everything that I did wrong, and she gave an objective, reasoned view point on both of us. How my ex had an attachment style that was completely wrong for me, he ran away when I needed him, and only panicked and came back when I distanced myself. I can't have that, I need security in a partner, and to know I am cared about every day. I know it'll be up and down still, but she opened my eyes up to stop feeling like it was all my fault. It's early days but I know one major thing I would need in a future relationship, and that is security and the feeling of stability. Not this inconsistent, emotionally swinging/unavailable crap. No wonder I felt so insecure, anyone would if they tried to rely on such an unreliable and unstable person. In a relationship I think it's normal to be dependent on each other, but he made me feel like I was wrong for depending on him. And no wonder I was so anxious all the time. He was completely wrong for me. I'm actually looking forward to the time I find someone who makes me feel important every day, and that I am wanted. And who I don't have to keep counting the messages because if I replied too much I would be accused of being 'needy'. Moving on from this, I can regain my sense of self again.

[eggplantlife]

Really miss my family - my siblings and my doggie daughter!!!!!!!!! Why lord??!!!! Why did you have them abandon me and made it impossible for me to keep my doggie daughter???!!!! Why???!!!!!! I'm not a bad person. Why??!!!!! Why???!!!!????!!!! Why must I be strong and move forward because this happened??!! Why???

[dandylin]

guilt, guilt, guilt. It isn't really mine, but I'm being clobbered with it

still here............ yuk. :/

[regretful]

Another day of this depression...it's not terrible, it's more of an annoyance. I guess the word to best describe it is "blah"...and on newgal's self-assessment scale, I would rate myself as an 8...

[JustTvTroping]

I feel a little better compared to when I last posted. I still don't feel my best, but I guess it's a start.

[pisces22]

I'm living in the future. I can't live in the present. That makes me feel numb.

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Just miserable today...