Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #1  
Old Apr 02, 2014, 05:29 PM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
just like that. 4 years of no friends, love, job. just existing. its funny caz some people in this kind forum would say "dont say that caz u might get it someday!" yet everyday i asked to die and 4 years later im still here. for real, WTF AM I DOING HERE????????????? what i am doesnt fit this world. im not wanted. im nobody! how many years more will i waste?? i havent lived a thing. im not cut to live. dont think ill ever have a place in here.
Hugs from:
Aiuto, Amedot11, Anonymous100108, Anonymous100141, Anonymous37807, Anonymous37914, Bluesday, depressedalaskan, hvert, Idiot17, Jolisse, JustTvTroping, Maskon, Nammu, Onward2wards, penguinsing, Pikku Myy, PoorPrincess, Shadow-world, ToeJam, TorturedSoul92, Vossie42, waterknob1234

advertisement
  #2  
Old Apr 02, 2014, 05:46 PM
Maria38Divine's Avatar
Maria38Divine Maria38Divine is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Feb 2011
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 377
I get you Elektra. I really do. After 30yrs of depression, these last 4yrs have also been the toughest for me. The last few days, I feel like I've hit rock bottom--like there's no more fight left in me. But I can still give you a few virtual hugs
Plus manage a heart-felt smile

I know you're angry and frustrated, but please don't give up hope. You ARE a good and special person.
Hugs from:
Amedot11, birdpumpkin, Bluesday, depressedalaskan, Elektra_
Thanks for this!
Bluesday, Elektra_, s247
  #3  
Old Apr 02, 2014, 06:01 PM
LaborIntensive LaborIntensive is offline
Account Suspended
 
Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: Moonbase Alpha
Posts: 1,011
Have you seen this>?

or this:


Hope that helps for awhile.
Thanks for this!
Elektra_
  #4  
Old Apr 02, 2014, 06:16 PM
greentires4me's Avatar
greentires4me greentires4me is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: Feb 2013
Location: planet earth
Posts: 2,986
maybe you don't need to be perfect to be friendly or loving. Maybe it just shows through the open heart you have.

its 4 years is that time to find what your good at and what is working and change it so you feel better. its that hurdle where you don't believe what has happened or not happened at all. But why now?

circumvent a new you someone who is happy with who they are and not without anyone around. its a new beginning a fair new beginning. Go get a new hairstyle or color or cut. a change in the wardrobe (shopping at thrift stores) buying a new pair of shoes like some chucks.

OR

3 day "ME" Vacation go some place that you haven't been before that is in driving distance away.
__________________
Love, Light and Happiness!!!
Thanks for this!
Elektra_
  #5  
Old Apr 03, 2014, 11:22 AM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
prob is im too imperfect.

how am i supposed to find what im good at when i do nothing?nothing is working. im not functional at all.

why would i be happy with who i am if people dont like it? lol i dont even have money for that. my *** father pays my shi.t and is already sick of it.

Quote:
Originally Posted by greentires4me View Post
maybe you don't need to be perfect to be friendly or loving. Maybe it just shows through the open heart you have.

its 4 years is that time to find what your good at and what is working and change it so you feel better. its that hurdle where you don't believe what has happened or not happened at all. But why now?

circumvent a new you someone who is happy with who they are and not without anyone around. its a new beginning a fair new beginning. Go get a new hairstyle or color or cut. a change in the wardrobe (shopping at thrift stores) buying a new pair of shoes like some chucks.

OR

3 day "ME" Vacation go some place that you haven't been before that is in driving distance away.
  #6  
Old Apr 04, 2014, 07:48 PM
Faking sane's Avatar
Faking sane Faking sane is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Jan 2014
Location: Kentucky
Posts: 145
Helps me! LOL

Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
  #7  
Old Apr 08, 2014, 12:21 PM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
so sick of things going bad!!! i wonder when at least i will have some peace!
Hugs from:
Anonymous37807
  #8  
Old Apr 11, 2014, 12:36 AM
wolfpup54's Avatar
wolfpup54 wolfpup54 is offline
Junior Member
 
Member Since: Dec 2013
Location: reno,nv
Posts: 18
no peace you should hang out with your dad an uncle an try to have fun or you should go to the gym an ask out the big headed guy that thinks hes all that an a bag of chips it would b great fun
  #9  
Old Apr 12, 2014, 09:07 PM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
my father is the biggest son of a ***** that checks every file i have in my laptop... can somebody please kill me already????
  #10  
Old Apr 13, 2014, 05:15 AM
penguinsing's Avatar
penguinsing penguinsing is offline
Member
 
Member Since: May 2012
Posts: 248
I am in similar situation and longer.

If you want to change, you have to do and try something different. And nothing will change over night, it takes time.

I am seeing a therapist and it helps. I used to see other therapist, but they doesn't work. It's not easy, to try and find the right therapist.
  #11  
Old Apr 13, 2014, 02:12 PM
Idiot17 Idiot17 is offline
Poohbah
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: 6 ft. Under
Posts: 1,378
I can relate to having years go by without any positive change.
((((((elektra))))))))
  #12  
Old Apr 15, 2014, 11:49 AM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
all i ever asked was to ****ing die. why is it so hard
  #13  
Old Apr 15, 2014, 11:51 AM
Idiot17 Idiot17 is offline
Poohbah
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: 6 ft. Under
Posts: 1,378
Got the same question. ((((((elektra)))))))
  #14  
Old Apr 15, 2014, 07:34 PM
Clara22's Avatar
Clara22 Clara22 is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: Apr 2013
Posts: 2,188
We all are going to die, eventually, this is the only certainty I have. Then, what to do in between and dealing with all what has been given to me is the hardest part. On top of that now I am facing the consequences of wrong decisions made in the past. I struggle finding the extra motivation I need to live a decent life. I don't even waste my time thinking about how much easier is living for other people. I just cannot find the strength I used to have. I do not know if you can relate to this
__________________
Clara
Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. Vaclav Havel
  #15  
Old Apr 24, 2014, 09:54 PM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
so tired of living on nothing
Hugs from:
Idiot17, WhaleCrap
  #16  
Old Apr 25, 2014, 05:10 PM
WhaleCrap WhaleCrap is offline
Junior Member
 
Member Since: Apr 2014
Location: Hartwell, GA
Posts: 10
I can relate. I've been in a trapped (for lack of a better word) situation now for about a year or more now. Just try to keep hanging in there--I'm trying to.
  #17  
Old Apr 27, 2014, 07:09 AM
Sad Birdie's Avatar
Sad Birdie Sad Birdie is offline
Junior Member
 
Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: London
Posts: 7
I am sooo tired, after work on Friday I have been on my sofa the whole weekend.

My flat is a tip, barely holding onto my job and failing my course, everything I do turns to **** and I am just shattered (mentally and physically)!

I can't see a way out, Doctor wants to put me on a higher dose of pills, but I can't be bothered to get there!

You are not alone!!

My Key To Talk
  #18  
Old May 02, 2014, 08:15 PM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
can somebody tell me what to do with my life? i really dont know
  #19  
Old May 02, 2014, 09:37 PM
Bill3 Bill3 is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: USA
Posts: 10,966
What are some possibilities?
  #20  
Old May 03, 2014, 05:36 PM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
when i think i can have tiny bit of peace my ****ing so called father ****s me over again. so tired of this shi.t
  #21  
Old May 03, 2014, 06:30 PM
Bill3 Bill3 is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: USA
Posts: 10,966
What happened?
  #22  
Old May 04, 2014, 02:16 PM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
i exist thats what happened . that alone is a huge mistake
Hugs from:
WhaleCrap
  #23  
Old May 04, 2014, 02:18 PM
Bill3 Bill3 is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: USA
Posts: 10,966
Your feeling of worthlessness invades everything that you do.

Do you want to tell what happened with your father?
  #24  
Old May 04, 2014, 02:38 PM
Altered Moment's Avatar
Altered Moment Altered Moment is offline
Elder
 
Member Since: Feb 2014
Location: Michigan
Posts: 5,481
The feeling of worthlessness is very real and valid. It is a feeling though. The thought of it and reality of it is a lie.
__________________
The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman

Major Depressive Disorder
Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun.
Recovering Alcoholic and Addict
Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide.

Male, 50

Fetzima 80mg
Lamictal 100mg
Remeron 30mg for sleep
Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back
  #25  
Old May 04, 2014, 02:41 PM
Elektra_ Elektra_ is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: .
Posts: 960
looll really?? im a ****ing nobody. everyone ****s with me and i need to suck it up. everyone treats me like an idiot. no one loves me and i have no friends sooo am i SOMETHING?????
Reply
Views: 7977

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 11:38 PM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.