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![]() ![]() ![]() ETA: I'm getting increasingly fearful of this happening in my life. My mom - I'm terrified of when she might go. Last edited by Angelique67; Jan 30, 2017 at 03:01 PM. Reason: ETA |
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It was a pretty good day for me. I was pretty busy at work. Today was the first day that the maintenance man is out. There were a few little things to do with his job. But I was pretty busy at my end today. I was feeling emotionally OK.
Also, what really made my day was that I got my result from the blood test I had last week. It turned out to be very good. I don't have to go back to the doctor for now to take medication. I hope it continues that way. On a lighter note, here's a link of a photo of a white Persian cat that I found on the net that looks the most like Puffy, my late cat. It's not Puffy, but of all the photos of seen of white Persian cats, this one comes the closest. cute-white-persian-cat-wallpaper-background-hd ? Background Wallpaper HD |
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I cried a lot last night according to my mom. I don't really remember crying that much. I do know that I didn't get out of bed until it was dark out so I guess I slept all day. I'm numb right now for some reason.
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The past 2 days have been really hard. There are so many things I need to do but I can't seem to get it together.
I got 3-4 hours of sleep last night and woke up with a headache (I've been having headaches almost everyday this month) I feel like I'm on an emotional roller-coaster. I've been trying really hard to use healthy coping skills and challenge myself in different ways lately; but quitting self-destructive behaviors is making things more painful than before (as ironic as it sounds), because now I can actually FEEL them. I've been making myself emotionally numb for so long and now that I'm trying to avoid that, I'm feeling everything at once and I feel like crying all time. Also, being able to feel the pain again is bringing back some repressed memories. I know I'm doing the right thing and that I need to feel these things in order to let them go, but I feel emotionally drained all the time and it's keeping me from doing other things.
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I'm doing pretty good.
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Jumping in if you guys don't mind... doing ok. Extremely tired though and do not have the motivation to do much of anything lately. I just want to sleep.
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huge hugs @snowflake20
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I'm so sorry for your loss @disparaissant hugs to you.
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I'm down today because im seeing my gp regarding my psych meds and he doesn't understand why I have to go back to generics because the copays for branded ones cost too much. I don't like disagreements so this is stressful.
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Aww. :3 Will, I've always loved Persian cats, they are beautiful. I'm sure Puffy was incredibly beautiful also.
![]() In other news, I've found a rather unlikely way of coping with the loss of my Chloe - it's now been 6 days - and that is watching a kitten live stream on YouTube. By no means am I wanting another cat already, but it helps to see cats alive and being playful. When they get all jumpy it makes me smile a bit. It's called Kitten Academy, and here's the link if anyone wants to check it out: |
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Feeling better.
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I wish he'ld say he was glad to have me.
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I didn't do too much today. Washed some clothes and helped with the kids homework. It wasn't my laziest day but it wasn't anywhere near productive. I guess I feel stuck as I have said before and that I don't seem to be making any progress towards my own personal goals. I just don't have the drive at the best of times and it is almost physically painful at the worst of times.
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Yesterday was a "feel good" kind of a day, which does not happen to me very often. Today, as I figured it would be, was more of a letdown. It wasn't as busy at work today and some people I encountered with seemed like downers.
There are times I think things over and realize that lately people irritate me. I wonder if it's just me; and that there's something wrong with me to make me feel that way? It didn't seem that way in the past. |
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Around 45 minutes ago (4:20am) the janitor was out, shoveling, right outside my windows. He's trying to scare me again. They have been trying as careful as they can to not trigger me in obvious ways that other people could hear. My pdoc said last year that they wouldn't kill me because it's too much trouble - well I think it wouldn't be much trouble at all. The janitor probably does you- know-what just thinking about it.
Hopefully I'll know soon which I should do first - the massive dental stuff, or my move. If there's a place that's really inexpensive to have awful dental work done in my target city, I could be ready to move this weekend. |
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Still struggling with depression and panic attacks. No sign of improvement. Having difficulty taking self care like a shower, though I did take one y'day. The haunting, sinking and empty feelings make life colorless for me. Still keeping the faith.
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Don't feel like doing anything.
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I currently feel like I'm a horrible excuse for a human being. I am hope it passes or this is going to be a very down day.
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Yes. I was looking for places to move over a year ago, and there are a lot of buildings where I want to move, but it's more expensive than here.
My psychosis got very bad around a year ago, when they were openly torturing me. I had a horrible delusion about my friend. But hopefully I'll figure out where to go, away from here. I could still go to the police I guess, but they treated me like crap as soon as I stupidly told them my diagnosis. But the thefts happened so I know the creep from downstairs was in here. It wasn't a hallucination. |
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