[carspassing]

Well, i feel a little silly posting in an online community - can't say I ever have before. I'm not one who is very comfortable sharing information about myself or my problems but I don't know what else to do at this point.

I've struggled off and on with depression for six years... the past two years have been very good for me. I was off medication, doing well in school, and was all around content. Funny how so much good can come crashing down in just a few weeks. I'm feeling so alone and there hasn't been anyone around to talk to.... I feel like it would be stupid to call any sort of crisis hotline but I don't know how I'm going to make it through the week knowing it will probably take me awhile to get in with any psychiatrists in the area.

I guess ii just thought it would be nice to come somewhere and see that there actually are other people out there who know how it feels and don't mind reading a long, rambling, unfocused post.

[finestitcher]

carpassing, glad you did find this group.

You have a fine first post and it is not rambling at all. The comfort in posting and replying to others will come in time. No one ever pushes another into talking about more than is comfortable.

Does sound like you are having a hard time right now. Never feel stupid asking for help...here or on a hotline. When things are crashing one needs to talk to someone, whether it is here or on a hotline.

It would be helpful if you can tell us what the crashing feeling is all about. But, if you are not comfortable with this, then don't. Glad to hear you have already considered finding a therapist...a step in the right direction.

Again, welcome to a wonderful place to find caring, empathetic folks.

Carolyn

[carspassing]

first, thanks for replying i really appreciate it. i'm not very good at talking about my feelings and whats bothering me just because i had to bring others down with my problems...

i've had a bad summer and this weekend i had an especially bad night (an ex boyfriend was in town and he was, for lack of a better word, being a total %#@&#! to me) and my best friend knew that i was upset and not doing well. the past two days though she has completely blown me off - doesn't answer her phone, doesn't call back, the few times we have talked she hasn't once asked me how i was doing or what happened that night... in fact she's actually lied about not feeling well and just going home and going to bed. problem with that is that we live in the same apartment complex and i've gone out to my car only to see her boyfriend's car parked outside!

it's been really upsetting to have the one person closest to me, who i am always there for her to talk to.. completely disregard me and make me feel totally worthless. it's been happening more and more frequently and i'm starting to realize how completely alone i am right now. all of these old feelings of unhappiness and loneliness are coming back full force and i'm just totally lost.

[wickedwings]

hey, carspassing, you are most welcome to come here. i understand how you don't feel comfortable here, but you have come to a good place. i know what it feels like to struggle and feeling alone. i don't pretend to know why your friend blew you off, but it's possible that she doesn't know what to do or how to help you. some people have that problem in not knowing how or what to do in a situation like this. and i'm very sorry about that. here, we understand and would be happy to listen to you. i'm glad that you found psych central. keep posting.

[finestitcher]

carpassing, sorry to hear you best friend was such a jerk to you. Doesn't sound like a real friend to me. Can you talk to you parents about this whole situation and/or ask them to help you to find a good psychologist to talk to for a while? Just a thought.

Keep talking to us. I see wickedwings is here too, and I believe he too is a teenager. The closest to me being in touch with teenager feelings is my 17 yr old granddaughter, and she would rather be doing other things than chatting with me!

But, I will continue to reply to you as I can.

[pachyderm]

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Well, i feel a little silly posting in an online community - can't say I ever have before. I'm not one who is very comfortable sharing information about myself or my problems but I don't know what else to do at this point...

I guess ii just thought it would be nice to come somewhere and see that there actually are other people out there who know how it feels and don't mind reading a long, rambling, unfocused post.

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Stick around and read here a while. This is the most supportive community that I've ever found. Stay with it.

carpassing,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

So glad you found us, means the world to mean that we are able to help anouther lost soul.

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