[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I feel a little sad and disappointed this morning. Things are a little difficult. I'm trying to do the best I can.

Sometimes the best thing we can do is try the best we can. Take it easy on yourself :grouphug: :sadhug: :hug:

[Buffy01]

I am doing better than what I had been expecting to do. I been doing a lot of journaling, exercise and watching movies throughout the day. That has been helping me out some today.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Depressed is an understatement.

Please hang in there, Mountaindewed. This, too, shall pass.

[Mountaindewed]

There was this incident that happened when I was 14 so in 2007 and it tramatized the crap out of me and it took me about 10 years to deal with it but I never really processed it with any therapist. I thought I had dealt with these demons on my own. Especially these last 2 years things were ok. But then these last few days the memories have been coming back. I know I need to really process this but I'm not sure I really have confidence that my current therapist can help me. And when I was seeing the therapist who could help me it wasn't bothering me. I don't even know what brought back this back up after 5 years of it not bothering me to be honest. I do know the 15th year anniversary is coming up in a few weeks so maybe its just that.

[88Butterfly88]

Feeling pretty depressed today

[Rose76]

I'm very worried about how tired I am and how I'm getting nothing done. I'm only mildly depressed, but I'm as inactive as though I were severely depressed. I've gotten deconditioned. I feel sore, fatigued and physically weak. I just keep wanting to sit back down, everytime I get up. This is really a bad state to be in.

[arich62]

For me, I know what would make me feel better - to be alone but I am very codependent and not secure with my emotions and feel stuck in a not always happy marriage. I still need some time to do more grieving after my sister passed away two and a half months ago from a sudden heart attack at age 61. I still try to make sense of it all and try to believe it, understand it. No one I can really vent to about it right now. Just trying to keep my emotions in check.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I just keep wanting to sit back down, everytime I get up. This is really a bad state to be in.

Similar for me... my first thought when I get up in the morning is about going back to bed again at night.

[Rose76]

That's exactly how I am after getting up.

It's awful to be this immobilized.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by arich62

For me, I know what would make me feel better - to be alone but I am very codependent and not secure with my emotions and feel stuck in a not always happy marriage. I still need some time to do more grieving after my sister passed away two and a half months ago from a sudden heart attack at age 61. I still try to make sense of it all and try to believe it, understand it. No one I can really vent to about it right now. Just trying to keep my emotions in check.

I'm sorry for the grief you are going through. Two and a half months is very soon after a loss of someone that close. I know, firsthand, how unbelievably strange and unreal it feels that this person is gone. For me, the first three and a half months were awful. Then I coped much better, after that period.

Most people do recover from the acute state of grief and find their emotional pain is greatly reduced. So you won't feel as you do now for always. It will change. For now, hold on. You have a right to your emotions.

[Buffy01]

Why do my online freinds on social media feel they need to yell at me all the time whenever I send them something? I am starting to feel horrible about myself which is causing me to feel depression as well as causing me to have high anxiety.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by regretful

Not getting much better...keeping up with the morning exercise routine, though...so that's a plus.

Exercising is a lot to keep a person busy.

[Rose76]

Not doing good. I am hopeful that I'll figure out a solution.

I haven't posted on here for quite a while. Yesterday I got a renewal notice for the lease on the apartment I'm at. The rent has gone up a bit, like I figured. For now I'm either going to sign up to have the rent the same each month until next June or month-to-month, which is a lot more. As of now, my goal is to stay where I am until next April. A year ago I had planned to move out in April of this year but didn't do it. I'm a little bit mad about it, but maybe it's for the best, I don't know.

My friend and I had an intensive talk last night. It wasn't enjoyable. He's the one I split up with and then end up being back with him because he misses me; and I take him back because of some difficulties that come my way. But I'm not very happy to have him as a friend.

One reason I had not been on here for a while was because some "snafus" happened to me on MSF (not here on the Daily Check Ins) but somewhere else. So that's why I've been hesitant to come back on here. It seems like this place isn't as good as it used to be. It's not John's fault by all means!

[Breaking Dawn]

Mostly downs recently. A lot of pain. Trying hard. Posting more today than lately.

[Mountaindewed]

I'm not really depressed but theres just this thing I question every now and then. Only my family members and my doctors know about it and they are all nice and supportive but sometimes my pdoc makes comments like he thinks I'm strange for not wanting it at the moment so I've been questioning myself lately and kinda thinking and looking at myself differently. Not all the time. Just sometimes.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by will19

The rent has gone up a bit, like I figured. For now I'm either going to sign up to have the rent the same each month until next June or month-to-month, which is a lot more. As of now, my goal is to stay where I am until next April. A year ago I had planned to move out in April of this year but didn't do it. I'm a little bit mad about it, but maybe it's for the best, I don't know.

Best of luck on finding a place. I'm sort of priced out of my area, so I need to find a cheaper place. Amazing how prices have routinely doubled or tripled here in a year or two. Makes no sense, but we'll see if it corrects itself or just keeps going.

[Rose76]

Doing a little better. Slow progress.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Doing a little better. Slow progress.

I'm glad for you, Rose. I'm trying, too. Any amount of progress is wonderful.

[Rose76]

Thanks Breaking_Dawn. I'm glad you're moving in the right direction too . . . even if it's slow going.

I guess today was not a total waste. I got my second COVID booster shot and I rejoined a nearby gym.

Generally, I just don't feel well, physically or mentally. Too many months sitting around getting more fat and lazy and out of shape. I hope I can reverse this

[Cocosurviving]

I planned on grabbed items from Sprouts and Whole Foods however fatigue was very high today.

I’m going to Spouts and Whole Foods ASAP. I get all my fresh fruits, vegetables and smoothie ingredients at both places.

I decided to stay home, get a few things done around the house and get ready for the week ahead.

I finished folding my laundry.

Dinner was easy. I cooked hamburgers yesterday. We had leftovers, I baked sweet potatoes and acorn squash.

My paper planner is caught up for the week.

I budget for May 2022 is completed.

My teenager is going to day camp and school.
I need to add the start date to my planner.

I will also add the first day of school for 2022-2023.

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[Rose76]

I'm in the hospital with intestinal infection. I was awful sick. Hope to go home Thurs.

That might be why I couldn't get much done.

[tokiwartooth]

I'm feeling so unsatisfied with my life. I wish so badly that I could go back and change things. It's not that I have a bad job or anything, but I just don't feel happy here anymore and I'm ready for a change. I have a goal of moving to and working in Raleigh in my field, but so far there's no jobs in my field that would match my current pay, benefits and expertise. I keep praying that something good happens, some good change in my life, but I haven't seen anything yet.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm in the hospital with intestinal infection. I was awful sick. Hope to go home Thurs.

That might be why I couldn't get much done.

I'm sorry, Rose, but glad to know you are getting well. And if you will have some energy now, that will be so nice.

[Mountaindewed]

I am really under the weather today. I have legit medical issues going on that will hopefully be taken care of tommorow. So I think I'm just not feeling good. I don't really feel depressed about anything in particular besides my health. Today I think its just the physical stuff thats going on.