[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I had to quit online therapy. So now I feel pretty alone. I don't have my therapy room anymore so I can't write what I think about. I could write in a journal but it's better when you know someone will read it and respond. So I'm really stressed about that.

I’m sorry

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by hvert

I feel really blah and unfocused lately. Not sure how to snap out of it.

Don’t we all feel like that sometimes?

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MimiBhaduri0

22:37 in India. I feel dizzy, lightheaded, weak and exhausted, feel like I'm going to collapse and pass out any moment. Plus severe nausea.
Hope the oxygen level in my brain increases soon...I really feel very very sick.

Try laying down munch on some crackers.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm feeling sad today.

I’m sorry that your sad

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

Sometimes it seems like the more work I do on this manuscript, the more work I create for myself. I can start the day with ten more things left to do, and then at the end of the day I might have fifteen or twenty. It's maddening sometimes.

Keep working on your manuscript

I give up. Nothing will ever actually get better. I can delude myself all I want with rah-rah videos and books and whatnot, but the reality is that I don't have a future that isn't suffering and pain, and I just don't want to do it anymore. I'm going to take all of the books back to the library because it was stupid of me to think I could have a better life.

I give up! Do you hear me universe?! I give up. You've won.

[Breaking Dawn]

This time of the year seems to be genetically hard for me. I guess it's a common problem. So I'm doing the best I can.

[Rose76]

I'm not doing too good. I'm not sad, but still I'm depressed.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Most of today has been difficult. And I'm too tired to believe my positive self talk.

Somtimes the best is to rest!

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by AgentQ9A

I give up. Nothing will ever actually get better. I can delude myself all I want with rah-rah videos and books and whatnot, but the reality is that I don't have a future that isn't suffering and pain, and I just don't want to do it anymore. I'm going to take all of the books back to the library because it was stupid of me to think I could have a better life.

I give up! Do you hear me universe?! I give up. You've won.

Please don't give up! The wise thing is not to take "big bites" of the recovery process (all the book you borrowed). Take one step at the time and expect setbacks. Try baby steps. Many have done so and found out that the step by step method, one step at the time works.


Wish you well!

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

This time of the year seems to be genetically hard for me. I guess it's a common problem. So I'm doing the best I can.

This time of the year is hard for me as well!

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm not doing too good. I'm not sad, but still I'm depressed.

Take the time you need. How many weeks left for your appointment to perhaps ajust you medications?

[Rosi700]

I was up at seven am and followed my morning program. After that the day has been okay +/-. I have had body pain and felt very tired.

To get up at seven am is a little victory. (My Christmas decorations are out of the sight).

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Please don't give up! The wise thing is not to take "big bites" of the recovery process (all the book you borrowed). Take one step at the time and expect setbacks. Try baby steps. Many have done so and found out that the step by step method, one step at the time works.

Wish you well!

Thank you. I appreciate that you responded.

[Breaking Dawn]

@AgentQ9A, I hope the sun shines for you soon. And for your sweet dog, who would miss you so very much.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Take the time you need. How many weeks left for your appointment to perhaps ajust you medications?

I have to keep calling. My provider cut down how many days per week she works, and she has no openings till April. I adjusted the med myself to a higher dosage. That didn't seem to do anything. I don't think medication adjusting helps. I did all that in the past. I always wind up on the same med at the same dosage.

I have to just force myself to do things.

[hvert]

Even though the weather is awful, I need to get outside for a walk today to see if that makes a difference.

[Rosi700]

I have felt sad this day, stared into the wall or being around Internet for no purpose.

I will eat and then relax for the rest of the day.

I understand that it has been too much for me and that I have a new chance to go on tomorrow. Only two "time periodes" shall count (morning routines and the walk outside). When these time-periodes are fullfilled I shall be satisfied and then build up step by step from there.

My rules are: Enough sleep - healthy food - relaxation exercises - fresh air. These shall make me feel better!

[Rose76]

Having some anxiety about my lack of energy.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm not doing well tonight. I feel sad and lonely. I went out and bought another pack of cigarettes. It helps me cope.

I feel sad and lonely to

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Violetta75

This isn't the worst that i've ever felt, so there's that i guess

That is good

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Sunflower123

I feel restless and down tonight. I made an unfortunate decision and I’m finding it hard to forgive myself.

I been feeling like that myself

A pretty nice day today. I went to the dentist and everything checked out well. Very pleased about that.

However, there's still one down side going on for me but I think that problem will be solved very soon. Since last Thursday my phone line had shut down. There was no warning that it was going to happen. I had a combination of phone and internet service. Internet is great; phone is terrible. I got a cell phone just last Saturday so that I can call Customer Service. I felt like I never needed a cell phone. And now I have one because I need it. I have been calling Customer Service and they told me that someone cancelled my phone service. I know I didn't cancel it. So CS has been complicated to deal with. As of now they told me to call next week to get my service back. Since I got my cell phone, I may just cancel their phone service and keep the internet. It sounds like someone may have hacked into my account. By the way, I had a landline phone.

I spoke to my sister today. I had called her a couple of days ago but was only able to leave a message. I left her a message saying that my phone is down and if she needs to talk, call my cell phone. Today, while she and I were talking, I explained what happened to me. Funny thing was that she told me that the same kind of thing that happened to me happened to her also.

[Breaking Dawn]

Today was not good, but maybe tomorrow?

[Rose76]

For hours I've been in bad shape with anxious agitation, on top of the depression that came back. I see no light at the end of the tunnel. All I see is more and more tunnel.