Not much of a day today. Early this morning I went out on a minor errand and I guess that's the highlight of my day. I didn't go bike riding because it rained. My friend and I spoke to each other over the phone and we had some debates. I don't like arguing that much but I did find some points interesting in our debating.

[Buffy01]

my emotions have going up and down all day

[Rose76]

A lot of sadness today. I'm not doing good at all. I feel unwanted.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Rose76

A lot of sadness today. I'm not doing good at all. I feel unwanted.

Unwanted - unentangled - free to choose your own destiny. Im sorry, i know i keep harping on this. But do you really want to be the reason for another person's - idk mood? - at this stage of your life? Would you want to trade places with Queen Camilla? We are FREE.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

Not much of a day today. Early this morning I went out on a minor errand and I guess that's the highlight of my day. I didn't go bike riding because it rained. My friend and I spoke to each other over the phone and we had some debates. I don't like arguing that much but I did find some points interesting in our debating.

The highlight of my day Saturday was picking up my library books but if I didn’t need to do that, I’d have stayed in because it was cold and raining. Oh I forgot to say before that even though I wear earplugs to bed, I can still hear neighbor noise like doors slamming and showers running. I can hear the people two floors above me using the shower.

I’m assuming this is the same man you mentioned before that you once let go?

That he always gets under your skin?

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[Rose76]

Originally Posted by unaluna

Unwanted - unentangled - free to choose your own destiny. Im sorry, i know i keep harping on this. But do you really want to be the reason for another person's - idk mood? - at this stage of your life? Would you want to trade places with Queen Camilla? We are FREE.

It sounds like you're in a good space right now. If so, I'm glad for you.

Right now, I'm not in a good place, mentally. If I sound ridiculous, please just skip past my check-in post.

I decided to give my sister a call today. She hasn't called me in quite a while. She told me that things keep coming up. And now she has a painful swollen foot. I guess the reason why she's not calling me that much is probably because she's busy seeing doctors. She's been having so many problems lately.

A so-so kind of day today. Nothing much eventful today.

[Rose76]

Today was much the same as the whole weekend. That is to say - I did nothing.

I have an appointment in a week to see a therapist, at some clinic I never heard of before that was on a list that was given to me. In the meantime, I can go to the hospital psych urgent care, which is a horrible place. I've been avoiding that. In fairness to the place, I do recognize that they are overwhelmed. They get patients brought in by the cops, who have nowhere else to go. They take people with no insurance because it's a state owned facility. It seems I just look too high functioning to be worthy of their attention.

[3rd rock]

I have not yet received a phone call from the psychiatrist's office I've been referred to. I was hoping to get it by the end of last week, in order to expedite my referral to detox/treatment. I managed not to drink tonight, but I'll likely drink tomorrow night. I am within 200 words of completing a chapter for my novel, so that's good.

[hiddenaway]

Drew looked so good today it's unreal.

[Deilla]

I've had a very sad day today. My therapist accused me of black-and-white thinking. She didn't offer any support. She just said to consider other possibilities. I won't. I already know that everyone hates me.

[Rose76]

Feel a little better today. Trying to clean my kitchen now. I really hate having several days worth of dirty dishes and pots piled up out there. It happens when I get real depressed. No self-discipline. It's wonderful to have good habits. Maybe I could cultivate some.

A so-so day today. I was busy in the morning but that was it. Not much after that. I'm feeling like some of my neighbors at my place are giving me the silent treatment. Also when I went out on my bike ride it seemed like the people were rude and the drivers were bad.

I wonder why I don't just get up and leave the area at where I live. People wise, this place doesn't offer anything of value.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

A so-so day today. I was busy in the morning but that was it. Not much after that. I'm feeling like some of my neighbors at my place are giving me the silent treatment. Also when I went out on my bike ride it seemed like the people were rude and the drivers were bad.

I wonder why I don't just get up and leave the area at where I live. People wise, this place doesn't offer anything of value.

I knew it was just a matter of time before I saw a post I can relate to, again. Same here. A few neighbors I was acquainted with suddenly stopped talking to me or even acknowledging me. I too hate it here, as they build more luxury apartments at the same time a homeless camp is starting up next to the construction site.

Wish I could leave too but where to go? This entire city is deteriorating as well as the country itself. The US is in the toilet.

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[Rose76]

I felt pretty good today. Cooked a nice breakfast, which I haven't done in weeks.

I been cleaning up my place. I even went outside to fertilize and water the rose bushes and fill up the bird feeders.

I love that it's no longer dark at 5:30 pm. Things are starting to bloom. Feels like early spring. I'm so glad winter is near over.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by nonightowl

Wish I could leave too but where to go? This entire city is deteriorating as well as the country itself. The US is in the toilet.

Indeed. We shall see where we wind up this November (whichever side you're on).

The morning started off busy as I got up at 5:30 to do the laundry. And then I did some light shopping after that. After the shopping, it was a long stretch of the day of nothingness.

Since I have been thinking of leaving where I live because I'm not liking my place, I got thinking that it's been that way for me in the past. I get into a new job, place, and relationships and they start off fine. But then there comes a time when these things are not great anymore. I don't know if it's just me or that's just the way it is?

[Violetta75]

I've been getting up earlier so I have more time to myself. It would be nice to know, like before in the summer, when the landlord is leaving for the night or coming back. As I'm getting older, there's nothing like not being surrounded by any of other peoples noises, arguments, whatever goes on... nothing like having privacy and moments I know no one is going to walk in on me. I might go have a shower.... idk, I think he'll be back. I don't like having to take the change of clothes and everything into the bathroom. I'm not depressed but when that pain comes in, i don't want to rest. That's when I notice it. I'll sleep soon i think.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

The morning started off busy as I got up at 5:30 to do the laundry. And then I did some light shopping after that. After the shopping, it was a long stretch of the day of nothingness.

Since I have been thinking of leaving where I live because I'm not liking my place, I got thinking that it's been that way for me in the past. I get into a new job, place, and relationships and they start off fine. But then there comes a time when these things are not great anymore. I don't know if it's just me or that's just the way it is?

I’m also an early bird mainly to get some quiet before all the noise starts. I dread the time change Sunday and it will also be dark in the morning when I get up. Now it’s sunny and helps me wake up. Life is hard enough without messing with the clocks. I’ve been getting up earlier the last few days to ease the transition hopefully.

I need to do laundry this morning. There’s an inconsiderate woman who started doing laundry at the same time. She uses all of the machines in both buildings, tying up everything. And she doesn’t pick up her crap as soon as the cycle ends but breathes down the neck of anyone else getting their stuff on time. So because of her I’m trying to do it earlier.

Same here. Things start out well, whether a person or place, then goes down the tubes. So it’s not just you. I even looked up things like why do people suck or why do people ghost? Like you I want to be somewhere else. But everything would be the same except for my location. Still no family or real friends or good neighbors. In other words I could still have crappy neighbors elsewhere. This COULD be a good place with good neighbors if they rented to decent people. They just want to make money.

I hate disruption but have to do my grocery shopping tomorrow morning instead of Sunday. I wouldn’t be able to get up and they are having some kind of marathon. That means street closures and detours. No thanks.

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[Rose76]

Yesterday was a good day. Today should be good also. Big improvement.

[emily1890]

depressed because it's mothers day, and I am without a mother

[Gasplessy]

My depression is triggered by a mix of lack of control and losing hope in being able to change

I turned 30 with a bad personal situation and very bad financial balance some years ago. and never came out from hell, considering the death of part of my family

Spring is beautiful, so what's the matter? To me it was the idea of losing control, and romaticizing everything

So I hope you can manage

Healthy schedule help the youngest. Wake up within 8am

[Rose76]

Feeling kind of sick with sore throat. Not depressed.

[Rose76]

Met with a therapist today. It got me out of the house. I'm very tired.

[Buffy01]

I’ve been feeling really awful especially lately I even discussed this with my psychiatrist