Can't or don't want to go on...

I am sick of my life. There is nothing left for me to live for. There is no one that seems to be able to help. I have tried everything I can to be happy and nothing works.

I keep sabotaging myself. I cannot stop my self destructive and unhealthy behaviors. Nothing seems to make my life better. I don't think I can get what I want out of life anymore.

Why is everything this hard? Why do I continually hold myself back? Is there anything left that can make my life feel worthwhile?

Maybe I'm just a pessimist but maybe it is justified. I don't believe that my life will ever work out or can ever work out.

I am so disconnected from myself, everyone, and everything. I can only feel the bad in life. Nothing makes me happy. I feel so worthless.

I just wish it could all stop. I wish I could just stop. I am so tired of life...

I have nothing; I am nothing; It all seems so pointless.

(((((((((((((((((figuring it out))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry you don't see any hope right now. Whenever you are ready, please feel free to post more so that we may have some more insight on what you're going through. Please hold on, though. Don't give up--you aren't alone.

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I know at times it seems like you will never get better, I recently went through one of these episodes I know how hard it can be. That being said, life can get better. Are you seeing a therapist or on meds? I find the med, therapy combo very helpful, I know that it's not easy but it is worth the effort.

*hugs*
please don't give up
look for ways to make things better.
Do you have a therapist? Do you have a friend you can talk to ? Do you want to tell us more of what's going on?
keep trying, we often have more than we think

((((((( Figuring It Out )))))))

Hang in there, I have felt like that many a time and come through it.

Is there anything in your life that you can change to make things better?

I don't know what will make me happy...

I have tried education, but I cannot live up to my own expectations or potential. I'm too old to be stuck where I am in school. I cannot move on and I cannot stay here. I don't even know if it's worth it to finish at this point. I cannot get over my anxiety long enough to do well and it just feeds my depression until I don't want to go on anymore.

I wanted a few things out of life, a decent job, a good relationship, and some sense of accomplishment. I didn't think it was too much but here I am, again, still, with nothing.

I have lost touch with most of my friends and don't even want to be around people anymore.

I am trying medication, but they don't seem to work. I have tried therapy, but I can't even seem to get that right...

Now all I do is lie in my hole of despair contemplating how much I hate my life; Contemplating why I must suffer when those whom have hurt me succeed; Contemplating how much longer this can go on.

My life is empty and I don't see how I can get anything that I truly want out of life. I am tired of trying. I am tired of all of it.

Nothing ever gets better and when a glimmer of hope shines through, it is quickly snuffed out by reality.

You can find a happy side of life again. You can! One day you will wake up and be well again. You are going through a mental 'flu'. Have you ever been sick for a long period of time and then one morning you woke up and that stuffy nose, sore throat, aching body just seemed to disapear overnite? The same thing will happen with your mind. Don't cause yourself to worry more because that will lengthen the time it takes to heal....

Medication can take a while to get in the system and it would be worth looking into therapy again. Sometimes it can take a while to find the right fit.

I'm sorry you are struggling, keep writing here, things will and do change.

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*agrees with pegasus*

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here is my hand........I will help u be connected. Hang on tight ok?

I appreciate the kind words.

I might not be able to feel or care much anymore, but I'm glad you do.

i know,me too--i struggle everyday--to be or not to be---i have lost family and friends,it's just me and my dog again now.i wish i had some words of hope,all i have for now is empathy and commiseration.i i have hope for you and others though,just not for myself,if that makes any sense ?? i'm not making much sense lately,but just know i've been there,and am there so i do understand,ok??

When I read your 1st post, I had to double check who wrote it cause those could have been my words...at different times in my life, and each time I have come out of it and been happy that I did. There were sometimes when I would not leave the house because I could not trust myself enough not to throw myself in front of a bus ,truck or metro. I am here to tell you that there have also been some good times once I came out of my depression. I take meds...I don't mind because as far as I am concerned ,they keep me alive and reasonably content. There are times when my depression sneaks through the cracks of my consciousness, so I up the meds a bit for awhile until I stabilize again. I am getting to recognize my own red flags and I'm trying to pay attention to them. Sometimes you have to try a few different types of meds before you find the right one for you, it is worth the effort, because you don't know what the future can hold for you...you may snuff yourself out before the best thing in the world could happen to you. Hold on and tighten your seatbelt during the bumpy parts, cause ya never know who or what is around that cornor. Courage to you, you can make it through this time in your life.

Makes perfect sense to me . I have been feeling a little better lately but still feel no real hope. I have hope for you too if it makes you feel better.

Hey Figuring It out;
Please don't be so hard on yourself, you need to give yourself credit for things you do and start to think positive about things. I know it's darn hard to do that, I'm always telling myself the samethings you do, but we have to learn to retrain our mind to be positive. Getting better will not happen over night, sometimes it can take years, but keep working with a therapist and taking meds, that will help you to feel a little better. Keep posting here and try to find a support group in your area, that is very helpful as well. If you feel like you can't take much longer, please seek help, you are a special person and we want you here with us.

Hugs
Cindy