T's cancer

Sorry if this is in the wrong forum.

Saw T today. She looked a little better even though she is rather thin. Her radiation treatments are over and things are looking up, at least for now. The Dr.s are hopeful and she seems encouraged.

Thanks for all the prayers and well-wishes.

Petunia

(((((Petunia)))))))

Thats good news!!

good news Petunia-we will keep up the prayers for T and you.

w_i

that's wonderful news, petunia!

kd

that's good news petunia! she's still in my prayers, and so are you.

((((((((((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))))))))

-shadow

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I care.

((((((((((((well wishes and bearhugs))))))))))))

Thanks Gem and Fuzzy,

I saw T today after two weeks. I don't understand what is going on. She is supposed to be doing fine yet she looks like a skeleton and her hair is thinning. I didn't think radiation would do that, unless I got mixed up and she is doing chemo? I dunno. I didn't ask. I was too busy trying to stay focused on not looking shocked.

We have been together almost nine years... it's pretty scary and so very, very sad.

Petunia

(((((((((( Petunia )))))))))) It was my understanding that radiation can have the same effects as chemo. I know its tough for you to see your T hurting. But after 9 years, she'll probably be very honest with you regarding how she is feeling. Maybe you could mention your concern about her health to her, it might make her feel nice to know you are concerned.

Thank you, Erin, for responding.

{{{{{ 1day }}}}}

I appreciate your concern and caring as I do the others who've responded. I have talked to T. She knows how I feel. She says she's okay, I'm trying to believe.

I just thought maybe if I talked here...I might find support.

Thanks to those who responded to the original post.

But, I can see by the lack of responses to her maybe "not doing so well afterall", that this is just another case of Petunia being toxic with her pain.

I'm sorry I offend people so.
But at least I know where I stand.

Petunia

(((((((((((((petunia))))))))))))))) i just saw this post. you posted about t while i was at therapy with my t. i got triggered really badly last nite as well.

i'm so sorry that t looks like she's doing so badly. the pain and fear must be tremendous.

sending you and t healing thoughts.

kd

Petunia,

I feel like a coward. I read your post and got very sad about your therapist and her being ill. i then started to think about how it would be to lose a therapist or maybe even come close to losing my therapist and I got upset and I didnt want to contaminate you with all those upset feelings.

But Petunia, you are not toxic. You are a beautiful flower who loves her therapist and want to know she will always be around. I dont think there is anything wrong with that. I can see how you must feel. Petunia, you deserve the best but all I can send is a cuddle from all the girls who care about you ((((((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))))

X thats a kiss from me if you are able to take it. Iris

I think if you're afraid of her not doing well, you should mention it. Just remember, she's probably going to look worse before she looks better. She sounds like a fighter and I bet you that she would level with you if she wasn't feeling so hot.

I bet, just like you, she has her good days and her bad days. ((((((((((Petunia)))))))))) Not toxic at all.

Petunia,

I'm so sorry you are worried, I would be too. I didn't see this post as I don't frequent this board too much-- worried people won't want me in here.

I know it's hard to know where to post things-- and you probably feel comfortable in this particular forum-- but I can't help wondering if more might have responded, had you posted in the "psychotherapy forum". I for one am always reading that one--- it's just a thought-- I could be mistaken. (Just wanted to help you get more support)

Anyway, know that I'm thinking of you and hoping you are doing OK today and I hope your T. will be getting better soon. And, I don't think you are toxic at all with your pain-- you didn't offend me. t/c

mandy

((((((((((Petunia))))))))))
i'm sorry - you must be so afraid to think about losing her. That must be so hard after nine years of therapy.
You must feel like she's the only one in the world who knows you.

(((((((((Petunia))))))))

love and prayers,
kerria

Petunia, i am not offended by you and you are NOT toxic. it is entirely possible that she looks worse when she does actually feel better...radiation can do that. i know that isn't much comfort, i wish there were more i can do. just know that i'm here if you ever want to talk. she is in my prayers, petunia, as are you.

((((((((((((petunia)))))))))))) take care.

-shadow

I just now saw your post, I have to jump in and say that you are definitely not toxic! You are not toxic with your pain and you do not offend me at all. I always like seeing your posts, you express things quite well, you have a great writing style, and often I find myself nodding as I read what you have shared.

Sometimes I myself am sorta at a loss for words, my ability to communicate clearly waxes and wanes.

Best of wishes and smiles to you,
Sarah

(((((((petunia))))))))
you know we're here for you.

w_i et al.

I shall be sendind my prayers your way for you and your T, best wishes. Zack.

Thank you to all who responded.

It's just that I feel I support others in other forums and I wasn't seeing that same support here.

I would hope it doesn't have anything to do with this being the DD forum, cuz I try and support people if I can, no matter what their dx.

petunia,

i'm sorry that you don't feel you're getting what you're giving.

i've felt that way. it's hard. sometimes many members aren't doing well at the same time, and when "big repliers" get down and ill, other posters can feel neglected. i've been there.

i can state that i'm sure it's not you. you're such a wonderful addition here. i'm sure it's the "place" that usual repliers might have been/be in.

be safe,

kd

OMG!

I didn't realize I was being so selfish.

Of course everyone is doing the best they can.

I am so sorry I didn't see that. I got wrapped up in myself.

Please forgive and move on.

Thanks so much everyone.

I appreciate the support, I really do!

I'm sorry if I made anyone feel bad.

I'm totally done wallowing now.

Petunia

(((((((((((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))))))))

i did NOT come close to suggesting wallowing. i was relating that i've felt the same, and that i understand it's hard.

i'm sorry you're feeling so badly. i didn't mean anything other than support in my post.
kd

you would never be selfish sweetie.....you are very loved......

Sigh.

I would also like to thank all of you who PM'd me with your kind words, best wishes and caring thoughts. It just means more than you know and touched my heart deeply.

{{{{{ Allthegirls5, W_I, Sarah, Monty Girl, Dawntreader, Fuzzy, Kerria, Gem, Erin }}}}}

Petunia