[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Cheryl27

It's been a very rough week. I have had problems with some friends not being very nice to me and spreading gossip among a group of people in day program . My trust was broken the other day and it hurts allot. I hope the weekend is better. I am glad I see my therapist next week and see her every 2 weeks instead of 3 weeks.

I'm sorry, how mean of these people. Some people are very cruel, and very sneaky They are not friends. I send love and respect

hey @stahrgeyzer

hope you feel better soon. any idea what could be happening?. any recent triggers or issues

exactly @Fuzzybear

I guess that's why I prefer to be alone. and here I was thinking it was just plain intriversion (well it's probably some of that, too!)

[stahrgeyzer]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

hey @stahrgeyzer

hope you feel better soon. any idea what could be happening?. any recent triggers or issues

Hi @raging vortex
Yeah one of the parts knew about a plan I had to hurt myself. She told everyone, even the therapist, bc she cares a lot, so maybe all of it's triggering them. No worries, everything's okay now. Hoping you're doing well!!

I am glad that you didn't hurt yourself @stahrgeyzer

things for me... good in some asspects, really struggling in others- I'd say for me my biggist struggles at the moment are my mood and my fibro

Out for the first time in nearly a decade. The world has gone to s****

[Breaking Dawn]

I have a lot of work to do. I hope I get some energy soon.

[ReveuseTroublee]

I am constantly in a dissociative state currently and basically everything just leaves my mind so quickly. My memory is so messed up. I try to write down things or film myself to help myself (mostly just when I am practicing)... But it is weird to only remember things from viewing this material later on, no connection to this whatsoever... I somehow have a few memories of the last few days but totally out of order... It is very confusing... Like multiple days put in one.. It is hard to describe... Apparently I am not the only one living my life... Just like watching a movie like usually...

[ReveuseTroublee]

But I am also not in a good place at all so it is probably not a bad thing.

[ReveuseTroublee]

But still I hate living like this... :/ Everything sucks so much at the moment.

[Taylor27]

I feel like im not here and present because im feeling stressed out by a couple things that are going on right now. I feel alone and I hate this feeling it makes everything worse

[stahrgeyzer]

Feeling dissociated like I'm somewhere else. An angry part was fronting all night. I remember gaining consciousness right when the body was kicking something. Lots of nightmares as well. I think therapy is stirring things up so we can heal, finally.

do think that dogs trust looks after cat?

we want to ask

[Breaking Dawn]

I am trying not to dissociate but it feels like part of me is trying to disappear.

[Claritytoo]

I have been having new dreams for the last 8 or so months. My dreams become a followup to something I saw or heard on the computer or in my life. These dreams happen when I am not in a deep sleep. I will sometimes reach for something that is in my dream and that movement will wake me up. Also I have to think hard to know what is a dream and what was real. It bothers me to feel like i am without substance. Like i am creating a memories from nothing that is real. I don't feel like i am grounded. I feel like i could leave life at any time. I don't know how to feel grounded again. I am not able to work, which used to help. Part of me wants to slide back into the chain but another part wants to stay free. Its just scary free without a concrete direction. I am not certain who i am. which self i am at this time. I used to know who I was most of the time and others would help us to know this. But now without a direction, a focus I don't know why I stay. I know I can go anytime. and my sister is my reason for staying. but even that is slipping away. it makes me feel like a coward to think i can leave when i want. i love my family, myself and earth. I know once i go i will not have another experience like this. but the emotional pain of loving someone, loseing someone and watching someone lose themselves is breaking me down.

yesterday we watched a video that showed a game that we played when we were younger
sad and happy at the same time. really have the urge to play it, but I know my system won't support it... and getting hold of it isn't easy now either

[stahrgeyzer]

Feels like my head is spinning and dissociated. I want to know how to get the will to live and do things like Elon Musk and others who love to live!

Originally Posted by stahrgeyzer

Feels like my head is spinning and dissociated. I want to know how to get the will to live and do things like Elon Musk and others who love to live!

what kindo f things would you like to do if you could?

I'm only asking because you particuarly mentioned Elon Musk. were you hoping to be like him? (still am?)

another wasted day. check...

[stahrgeyzer]

@raging vortex I would make beautiful starships for the public for those who would want to live there and make it affordable for anyone.

Originally Posted by stahrgeyzer

@raging vortex I would make beautiful starships for the public for those who would want to live there and make it affordable for anyone.

well I think I'd go on one of those trips. I like space

to add: I have no memory of posting in this thread today

but apparently posted in it twice

yep time loss again..

[stahrgeyzer]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

well I think I'd go on one of those trips. I like space

to add: I have no memory of posting in this thread today

but apparently posted in it twice

yep time loss again..

Could it be another part made the post?

Originally Posted by stahrgeyzer

Could it be another part made the post?

quite possibly. I was looking at the post in question and it didn't look like something I'd personally write

[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrrrrrrrrr. Too many ''shoulds''.....

I didn't sleep (blah) but some of my stuffies got hugs so at least doing stuff for my inner child..