[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

I easily eat a week's worth of sodium in a day, and have low sodium. Where does it go??? Meanwhile i cook low sodium for my wife. (and low fiber, low potassium, almost no dairy, but no obsessing needed, right...sure) Bleh. I'm being a whiner.

Low fiber? I thought fiber was good. Well, in my case it is anyways. I need it for Diabetes.

[Gr3tta_0]

@LucyD - fiber is good, but she has gastroparethsis, and cannot digest most fiber. 😊

[gracebuttercup]

Hi can I join in the thread? I have a compulsive eating prob. I do everything in my power to control binges. Don't purge. No longer starving. The cravings are intense these days b/c of emotional stuff coming up ATM. Well, that's me in a nutshell, lol.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

@LucyD - fiber is good, but she has gastroparethsis, and cannot digest most fiber. 😊

Oh, I'm sorry. That's something I've never heard of. Can she get better?

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by gracebuttercup

Hi can I join in the thread? I have a compulsive eating prob. I do everything in my power to control binges. Don't purge. No longer starving. The cravings are intense these days b/c of emotional stuff coming up ATM. Well, that's me in a nutshell, lol.

Hi Grace! Sure you can join and Welcome! I have Binge Eating Disorder now; I've had Bulimia in the past for like 25 years. I know how hard it is when feelings arise and we use food to comfort ourselves. Everyone here has a problem with their eating is some way.

[gracebuttercup]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Hi Grace! Sure you can join and Welcome! I have Binge Eating Disorder now; I've had Bulimia in the past for like 25 years. I know how hard it is when feelings arise and we use food to comfort ourselves. Everyone here has a problem with their eating is some way.

Thanks Lucy. I appreciate the words. EDs can be overwhelming! Regardless of how they manifest.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by gracebuttercup

Thanks Lucy. I appreciate the words. EDs can be overwhelming! Regardless of how they manifest.

Yes, that's for sure!

[LucyD]

I'm having some trouble with wanting to go off my diet. It seems so bland and boring but I have to think it's going to help me with my physical conditions. I snacked on peanut butter and preserves on toast. Just had one, though, and am okay now. Drinking lots of water.

[eskielover]

Have you tried cashew butter & almond butter for a change in flavors?

[Blueberrybook]

Welcome grace.

I'm low today. Pdoc flatout told me yesterday gain weight, take Remeron, or go to the hospital if the number is not better next appointment. I f***ing hate Remeron; last time on it didn't go well. I just tried to shift from anorexia to bulimia as all I wanted to do on that stuff was eat and sleep. I never, ever felt full. Told pdoc he can prescribe me Remeron, but he could be sure I wouldn't take it.

Yesterday's appt. would have gone better if I hadn't padded out my weight a couple pounds last time I was there, and the pdoc asked what it was. But I had to use the scale yesterday, which would have made the old numbers look good, had I told him my actual weight then. Stupid to lie and put off the lecture for 2 weeks.

I am feeling so guilty for not exercising and eating more, but I can't go into the hospital (really, I am not that thin anyway). Worse, a stupid diet commercial on TV made me feel even more guilty about it. I hate having to gain weight when it seems like all the rest of the world is trying to lose. I know that is not the case, but that is the widespread opinion in the U.S., I think.

Exhausted today, but I'm expecting my cycle to start any day now. Last time most of the ED was caused by overexercise versus restricting, I got very tired too when I stopped exercise. I was beyond exhausted. I was much worse off then, both weight-wise & in amount of daily exercise. But I was also 20 years younger. And my fibromyalgia is flaring.

I have ceased exercise now. It's been raining a lot in the morning lately, and after that, it just gets too hot & humid. So I have actually gained a couple pounds though pdoc didn't realize it since I gave him the wrong number before. He never seemed that concerned about the ED, so I never figured he would put me on his scale.

I think I looked bad yesterday, tired maybe or something, because when H left for work yesterday, he said, "You take care of yourself today" which is not something H usually says when leaving. Usually, it's "I love you. Bye." or "Have a good day". Not "take care of yourself". Maybe that made pdoc put me on the scale, God knows.

The weight should be better on the pdoc's scale next appt. (2 weeks away) since he now has my actual weight.

Even though gaining makes me think I am so fat...ugh!

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by eskielover

Have you tried cashew butter & almond butter for a change in flavors?

I tried another one that was several mixed nuts and really good. Haven't tried cashew or almond yet, though, but will try.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Welcome grace.

I'm low today. Pdoc flatout told me yesterday gain weight, take Remeron, or go to the hospital if the number is not better next appointment. I f***ing hate Remeron; last time on it didn't go well. I just tried to shift from anorexia to bulimia as all I wanted to do on that stuff was eat and sleep. I never, ever felt full. Told pdoc he can prescribe me Remeron, but he could be sure I wouldn't take it.

Yesterday's appt. would have gone better if I hadn't padded out my weight a couple pounds last time I was there, and the pdoc asked what it was. But I had to use the scale yesterday, which would have made the old numbers look good, had I told him my actual weight then. Stupid to lie and put off the lecture for 2 weeks.

I am feeling so guilty for not exercising and eating more, but I can't go into the hospital (really, I am not that thin anyway). Worse, a stupid diet commercial on TV made me feel even more guilty about it. I hate having to gain weight when it seems like all the rest of the world is trying to lose. I know that is not the case, but that is the widespread opinion in the U.S., I think.

Exhausted today, but I'm expecting my cycle to start any day now. Last time most of the ED was caused by overexercise versus restricting, I got very tired too when I stopped exercise. I was beyond exhausted. I was much worse off then, both weight-wise & in amount of daily exercise. But I was also 20 years younger. And my fibromyalgia is flaring.

I have ceased exercise now. It's been raining a lot in the morning lately, and after that, it just gets too hot & humid. So I have actually gained a couple pounds though pdoc didn't realize it since I gave him the wrong number before. He never seemed that concerned about the ED, so I never figured he would put me on his scale.

I think I looked bad yesterday, tired maybe or something, because when H left for work yesterday, he said, "You take care of yourself today" which is not something H usually says when leaving. Usually, it's "I love you. Bye." or "Have a good day". Not "take care of yourself". Maybe that made pdoc put me on the scale, God knows.

The weight should be better on the pdoc's scale next appt. (2 weeks away) since he now has my actual weight.

Even though gaining makes me think I am so fat...ugh!

That must be hard to eat and feel you are fat. Can you try and tell yourself a different message that will make you feel better? Like "Eating is necessary and I will look okay?" I don't know the message that would help you to try and change in your mind but find the messages we give ourselves can be harmful to us. I often think I shouldn't eat at all because I'm too big.

[Gr3tta_0]

Originally Posted by LucyD

I'm having some trouble with wanting to go off my diet. It seems so bland and boring but I have to think it's going to help me with my physical conditions. I snacked on peanut butter and preserves on toast. Just had one, though, and am okay now. Drinking lots of water.

It is very difficult to stick to a strict diet.
Do you need a "bland diet" for health, or is it just that your diet seems bland because you are bored with it?
Could you try looking up recipes from a new region or country, to have some more variety?
Great job doing your best.

[Blue_Bird]

Picked this up at the library

[88Butterfly88]

^Looks like a good book.

I ate way too much candy yesterday; I really need to try harder not to buy any.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

It is very difficult to stick to a strict diet.
Do you need a "bland diet" for health, or is it just that your diet seems bland because you are bored with it?
Could you try looking up recipes from a new region or country, to have some more variety?
Great job doing your best.

Yes, it's for my health (diabetes and cirrhosis) I started putting some cayenne pepper and hot sauce on the meat I eat--it helps. That's a good idea to look up recipes from another area! I'll do that. I've started eating raw veggies a lot, too, and am starting to appreciate them--they really are good once you get used to the idea of eating them. Thanks for your ideas.

[Blueberrybook]

Bad day today. Panicked and depressed over money situation. Ate a trigger food this afternoon, threw it up. Usually I do not purge by vomiting. Actually, I wanted to purge that way in college (instead of over exercise), tried a lot but was never any good at it except with this one food.

Had disagreement with daughter, upset her and H. Petty really, mostly my fault. Had a bad panic attack, took low dose Seroquel, no help. Burned right hand still hurting a lot. Started period too. Moody but should not have let my daughter push my buttons. This constant pain in my hand is pretty bad, nearly a week later. IDK, maybe need to see PCP about it tomorrow; it is just not letting up.

Hopefully, tomorrow goes better. I feel like I am hurting all over, physically and mentally. See T tomorrow. Not an ED T, but I would have to drive 45 minutes for that, this T is not even a 5 minute drive from my house. She does CBT, which is the way I got myself out of the ED the first time around. Really need more of a catch-all T than ED specifically. My ED right now is my coping mechanism for stress, anxiety, panic more than the all consuming type can’t think of anything else 24/7 ED it was when I was in college. Let’s not forget the stupid mixed bipolar too. I feel like the mixed BP has me running and running around like a hamster wheel or something.

yesterday I ate a KFC (an 8 peace chicken meal, chips, and a coke)

today so far I've eaten 8 slices of toast, some mints, some packs of cookies and over half a 3 KG tub of gummy bears

so not good, and I'm still waiting for tea too

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

yesterday I ate a KFC (an 8 peace chicken meal, chips, and a coke)

today so far I've eaten 8 slices of toast, some mints, some packs of cookies and over half a 3 KG tub of gummy bears

so not good, and I'm still waiting for tea too

I wanted KFC tonight but had a Whopper instead with a few fries but that's all I've had all day. Have you thought of seeing a dietician? I've been thinking of going to one for more ideas on how I eat.

[Gr3tta_0]

I've found too many excuses to avoid food in the past week. I'll try to do better this week. A new Asian grocery store just opened in my area. I hope to visit it after I get paid, and hopefully get some new ideas.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

I've found too many excuses to avoid food in the past week. I'll try to do better this week. A new Asian grocery store just opened in my area. I hope to visit it after I get paid, and hopefully get some new ideas.

I, too, would like to try some Asian foods and other culture foods as well. It would make eating more interesting.

I refilled my cookie jar up this week with lots of cookies and I have been making my way through them (and pretty quickly)

also finished off my 3 KG bag of candy and 2 other bags, and potato chips too.

litirally nonstop eating

[Gr3tta_0]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I refilled my cookie jar up this week with lots of cookies and I have been making my way through them (and pretty quickly)

also finished off my 3 KG bag of candy and 2 other bags, and potato chips too.

litirally nonstop eating

Is something making you genuinely hungry, medical condition, medications, nutritional defecits?
Or are you eating due to emotions, stress, boredom, these types of triggers?
Do you want to stop eating so much, or are you comfortable with it?
I hope you are well.

[88Butterfly88]

Pretty good day eating wise.

[Gr3tta_0]

Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

Pretty good day eating wise.

That's a win! Yay!