Weight loss and exercise #2

I was 163 and am now 156. I last checked two days ago. I'm trying to lose about 20 pounds initially. I ate yogurt and bread, drank tea so far. Tonight I will eat a big salad. I started dieting about one week ago and feel quite good. I am trying to exercise 30 minutes by walking a few times a week. I was eating at buffets before and don't feel the need to binge or eat anything special. I ate what I wanted before and am now trying to cut down on my portions and what I eat. Overall, I want to lose about 40 pounds. I am getting sick and tired of being overweight and have been for the past few years. I can't fit into my clothes and realized I'm really overweight. In the meantime, I'm trying to do some self-care by dying my hair and wearing makeup. I also am trying to clean my apartment. I just went through 6 months of psychosis and the medication is finally working- I receive shots of Maintena-Abilify. I am doing fine and am happy anyways despite being fat.

I was 153 today. I really have to get back on track. I’ve been eating a ton of food and drinking a lot of soda and other drinks almost every hour.

Ended up going a bit overboard yesterday, but the gain was mostly from eating a heavy dinner late; I don't think calories was that much over; I couldn't accurately count dinner. 159 this morning. Paddling this afternoon.

I didn’t weigh myself today but my calculator says I had 1,170 calories. I had a little bit more than that because I didn’t calculate the seasonings on my shrimp and vegetables. I’m guessing tomorrow I’ll be around 151 or 152.

Paddled over 4 miles today. Eagles were very active; saw 3 up close and a few more further away. I weighed before I hopped in the shower tonight, after having dinner out, and I was 159. May not weigh again before Wednesday.

I weighed myself and lost another two pounds. I am happy. I think eating the right foods and moving more is helping. I eat only when absolutely necessary. I'm not really walking every day either but just eating less and the right types of food.

So today I was weighed by the diabetic nurse,and the good news is I haven't gained any weight,though of course,having indulged in forbidden foods,the bad news is that I haven't lost any either.I promised the diabetic nurse that this month I will lose weight and bring my blood sugars down and exercise to lower my blood pressure.I intend to keep my promise.I am going to be strict and disciplined.

A little after midnight I weighed 159; still flirting with the top of my range. Tomorrow I will go to the gym early in the morning and paddle in the afternoon. Also planning to paddle this weekend and probably also work out.If I can keep the appetite in check, I should have no trouble dropping back into the mid 150s.

155 today. My depression is really bad and I haven’t been watching what I’m eating at all. I’ve been drinking a ton of water so I’m sure the majority of the 10 pounds I’ve put on is just water weight. I’ve stopped my topamax again so I can hopefully jump start the loss of appetite side effect. The only thing is the withdrawal from the Topamax is taking a toll on me emotionally.

@Mountaindewed - Sorry to hear you aren't doing well. Are you talking to your doctor about the med changes?

158 this morning. Paddled over five and a half miles plus put in about an hour of cardio yesterday, but ate more than usual.

I've been feeling good because even though I've been more on a maintenance diet the past couple of weeks (small deficits), I saw some minor weight loss on the scale, but it's definitely becoming noticeable in my clothes and how they fit. Everything is too big. I think my bras are even a bit too big now.

I also spent time this past week relaxing with friends and just doing things beyond focusing about goals and just relating to people. And I think that made a big difference for me and my enjoyment of life. This morning I took my two dogs on a 2 mile jog and I feel really good. I just keep moving and trying to move forward and don't let small set backs ruin my whole journey.

I managed to stick to my diet for the first day in over two months so that is a cause for celebration.

I lost another pound. I walked yesterday and the day before. I feel fine. I will continue dieting for awhile. I might just diet for a long time because APs make me gain weight. I used to be over 90 pounds overweight but now am about 30 pounds overweight. I want to lose 5 pounds a month. Thus, it will take me about 6 or 7 months to lose 30 pounds. Oh well.

My doctor increased my Geodon yesterday. Hopefully it works and the side effects aren’t too bad. Yesterday I was 155.

I walked for two hours then ate two pieces of chocolate. oh well. I think I consumed the calories I used by walking. At least the chocolate was tasty. Tonight is chicken drumsticks. Yeah!!

Rounded up to 158 this morning. I have been overeating lately then putting in a lot of cardio/paddling to make up for it. Mixed feelings on that; it isn't necessarily overeating when I expend the energy to account for it and my arms, chest and abs are getting better definition again, but I would feel better about it it if this was the result of a proactive plan instead of a largely reactive cycle of eating too much and increasing the burn to account for it.

I feel better about being in the upper 150s, as opposed to lower 150s, if my core has good definition. 164 would be a BMI of 24.9, so I am whining about the difference between being in great shape or just really good. This is a much better problem than I had a couple of years ago at a BMI of ~34.

My Geodon increase has caused uncontrollable hunger these past two days. I’ll eat a giant burger from sonic and won’t feel full at all. I swore I’d never again gain weight as a result of psych meds. I’m not sure I want to stay on this new dose if this is the case because there’s no doubt if I continue eating this way I’ll gain massively.

Rounded up to 159 this morning. A "GI pipeline" event after weighing has me less concerned, but still need to start trending down again.

157 today. Yeah I’m going back to the lower dose. Friday I was 153.

Actually Saturday I was 153. Not Friday. 4 pounds in 2 days is ridiculous and I was eating well over 3500 calories each day so it was real weight. I went back on the lower dose tonight. I’ll weigh on Wednesday.

4 pounds would be 3500 * 4 = 14,000 above what you need to stay even for 2 days, so about 17,000 calories in 2 days. Something like 4 pounds of hamburger, 2 pounds of cheese and 2 pounds of butter would come close to doing it. Spread out over time, it takes less than most people think to gain weight. In a short amount of time, it takes more to gain weight than most people think. When this is really important is if you have a binge/setback - a lot of people throw in the towel and start gaining big time again when the setback would have been a half pound or so. But the immediate effects due to water and increased food in the gut is much higher and people freak.

I walked for over an hour. I am still maintaining my weight. I ate a lot yesterday. I'm happy that I did not gain any weight. I ate a yogurt and had hot cocoa this morning. Now, I'm waiting for dinner.

I was 155 today. I noticed a drastic decrease in my hunger since going on the lower dose of the Geodon last night. Since the change in hunger happened so abruptly the Geodon was definitely the culprit. My moods are being affected again, but I’d rather be skinny and moody then gain weight.

I know I have said it before but I hope to do it this time.I want to lose 28 pounds in the next month.So starting tomorrow I am going to start a 1200 calorie a day diet and I am going to exercise every day too.I won't go over 1200 calories.It is straight in my head this time,do I want to eat stuff I shouldn't and keep gaining weight or do I want to eat the right foods and be healthy and lose weight.Definitely the second one,I want to lose weight and be healthy,active and independent.

I gave myself a reprieve from weighing this morning, which I am not very proud of. I am almost certainly at the top or just above my maintenance range. It would be a spike, but I didn't want to see it. So this afternoon I will do a long paddle, tomorrow AM I will go to the gym and both days I am planning to eat very light. If I can stick to that, Friday's weigh in should be fine. I think my "true weight" is in my range now but the splurges of the last few days would likely push the scale above it today. Still the disclaimer that I am not talking about being outside the healthy/normal range, just outside my personal range which tops out at a BMI of 24.2.