Weight Loss and Exercise #4

I was still 165.4. But I had about 20oz of water shortly before I weighed myself and I also weighed myself half an hour earlier then I usually do. So far today I’ve had a bowl of frosted Cheerios, a bowl of Special K chocolate flakes and almonds cereal, and 2 white cheddar rice cakes. I want to get a grape Sprite Zero from Sonic. The grape flavoring has 45 calories. I plan on having 2 everything Quaker rice cakes for a snack. A bowl of udon noodles for lunch. Another bowl of frosted Cheerios and another everything rice cake for a snack. Then oatmeal for dinner. But if I can’t do the oatmeal then probably just more cereal. Or switch the noodles and oatmeal around and have the oatmeal for lunch instead. Right now I have down 1,215 calories.

I think my shorts are too big now. At the waist they are ok but everywhere else they are too baggy. I’m currently wearing a pair of shorts I got last year from Platos Closet that I couldn’t even get half way up last summer. Now they fit pretty good.

I honestly think I’m losing weight because I’ve switched my Geodon all to at night and I think the Valium is causing loss of appetite too. My weight seemed to start going down when I switched from Xanax to Valium.

I had a protein shake for breakfast. Lunch will be a piece of toast w/ peanut butter on it, dinner will be some oatmeal probably. I'm not really hungry today, and I don't feel like cooking.


I'm drinking plain black unsweetened coffee and water

Just weighed myself. I’m 154.2lbs So I’ve lost 1.2 lbs in the past week

I feel better today. I have been hungry. I'm trying to eat up my meals. I had fruit earlier, which was good. I can't exercise because of my back. But I am doing a little around the house.

Eating today just totally blew past my mind. I had a couple bowls of cereal, and a few rice cakes early. But then I just got totally distracted by my book and then work stuff that I didn’t realize I needed to eat until I realized how weak and wobbly I was. So I got a flatbread margarita pizza from Panera. I needed carbs really fast. It helped. The pizza had 770 calories but I gave a piece to my mom. So I’m somewhere under 1385 calories. Probably closer to 1300. I’m hoping to be below 165 tomorrow. I walked around Sams Club and I dropped books off at the library which involved climbing stairs. I know that means nothing really but it’s better then sitting in bed all day like I’ve been doing.

I’ve been trying to drink more water and less soda. But for my anxiety not for health reasons. I’ve for sure upped my water intake. I’ve cut back on the cans of soda. But I did have a bottle of Mountain Dew zero and then another zero sugar flavor of Mountain Dew. Lately I’ve started getting Sprite zeros from Sonic instead of iced teas. I’m not sure they are making a difference on anything.

I was 165.6 today. I think it’s the weather. I woke up with a cough and a sore throat that went away almost immediately after I got up but the air quality is moderate according to my weather app.

I’m really trying to be 164 by my therapy session on Monday and 163 by my first day of work on the 25th. At my last therapy session I was 167. And at my interview on Saturday I was 167 too.

So far today I had a full calorie orange Mountain Dew and an everything rice cake for breakfast. My morning snack will be a bowl of Cheerios and a grape Sprite Zero. Lunch will be a bowl of special K chocolate flakes and almond cereal. I’m going to have to open 2 new boxes of cereal soon. My afternoon snack will be another bowl of Cheerios and another rice cake and then dinner will be a bowl of instant udon noodles without the flavor package or anything just cooker in water and then drained

I’m going to try really hard to stick to this and not forget to eat like I did yesterday because I was distracted.

I had a protein bar for breakfast. My apartment complex is doing a BBQ grab-and-go thing later so I’ll go downstairs and get a takeout container of BBQ food and bring it back upstairs. Idk what it will be or how many calories it will be but I’ll try to eat that for lunch and the rest for dinner.

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I made sausage gravy with meatless sausage last night. I wanted to taste it so I ate when I wasn't hungry. But I haven't had breakfast or lunch yet. So maybe it wasn't too bad to do.

And of course I’m forgetting to eat again with being so distracted. I had to grab a bottle of Body Armor from the gas station because I missed my morning snack. So I’ve only had 2 rice cakes and 3 drinks/soda. I’m at 645 calories right now. I need to go eat some cereal or something right now. I did a lot of walking and moving around today.

I guess I’ll go fix cereal now and make ramen for dinner. That will put me right around 1250 calories.

I had the BBQ food, I ate a burger, some mac and cheese, coleslaw, and baked beans. I think I'm gonna save the rest for tomorrow, I still have a hot dog left and the rest of the sides left. It's too much heavy food to eat for dinner after already eating that much earlier. I don't think I'm having dinner tonight I'm still so full from lunch. I can't wait to get back on the treadmill Saturday. Can't do it tomorrow because I might have an apartment inspection and I want to be here for it. I got a tiny bit of physical activity today by getting down and scrubbing my shower clean

I weigh 165 exactly. I’m just trying to make it to 164 before my therapy session on Monday. I have been unusually not hungry these past few days and I’m wondering if it’s anxiety because I’m about to go back to work. I did have a mini bagel with 2 tablespoons of brown sugar cinnamon cream cheese at 12:30 last night and then the same thing this morning. So right now I’m at 372 calories. I plan on eating just the regular. Cereal, ramen, and rice cakes. Unless I forget to eat again and I need a plan B. Usually a bottle of Body Armor water is my plan B.

But anyways I have logged down 1,247 calories. And I am hoping to be at 164 tomorrow. Even 164.8 will make me happy.

I got distracted and upset today. I had the 2 bagel and cream cheese at 12:30 and 6:30. Then I had a grape and cherry Sprite Zeros. I had a couple rice cakes and a small beef jerky stick. Then I got upset and anxious and distracted and I didn’t eat until dinner when I got a shrimp salad without the breadstick. I didn’t eat the croutons either. So I’ve had 1252 calories. I also had a 20 calorie bottle of water.

So I don’t know. But I can eat when I’m depressed and I wasn’t feeling the greatest physically either for most of the day.

I lost a couple of pounds. I'm really glad. I've just been really careful about what I eat. I walked a lot yesterday.

I had a protein shake and a protein bar so far today. I honestly feel like stress-eating because i have an apartment inspection coming up on Monday and I'm super stressed about it. But I'm trying not to. I'll probably just have a slimfast shake tonight w/ a frozen banana blended into and then maybe have a piece of watermelon. I'll try to stay on track

Yesterday I was 165.4. Which was kind of annoying since I was 165 exactly on Friday. yesterday I had 1276 calories. I had a couple rice cake, a 20oz orange Vanilla Coke, a mint Aero bar, a mini bagel with 2 tablespoons of cream cheese, a bowl of frosted cheerios, and a bowl of plain instant udon noodles. I also had 3 gummy melatonin and a lyte Body Armor water.

Today I weighed myself super early. But I was 164.6. So I made it to my goal which was to be at 164 by my therapy session on Monday. I am super hungry right now so when they open I plan on getting a chili cheese dog and chili cheese fries from Sonic. Lunch will be a piece of melted cheese on toast. My afternoon snack will be a bowl of Cheerios, and then dinner will be a bagel with cream cheese. I had a bottle of lyte Body Armor so I’m right around my 1400 calorie Noom goal. It seems kind of backwards but I really want Sonic for breakfast.

Edit: My H&M pants finally fit! A little bit too well. I hope I don’t grow out of them in 10 pounds. I’m a 32 now. I wouldn’t mind being a 30. 29s might be a bit hard to find. I had to get rid of all my 34 pants. Except for my shorts which should get me through the next few weeks even though they are baggy.

Thursday night i was watching "You gotta eat here!" and as usual all the food looked sooooo yummy, so on Friday i ordered a dominoes small hand tossed pizza with just alfredo sauce, extra mushrooms, and extra spinach. And a chicken caesar salad for later. The pizza was 330 calories for 2 slices, 6 total. And it looked a lot like the entree on tv. They did a nice job on it. I was surprised at the relatively modest calorie count.

My chili cheese dog and fries didn’t work out. They said at one place the chili wasn’t ready. Then at another place they said they couldn’t serve it for another couple hours. So I was so hungry that I couldn’t even be hangry. I finally got fish and fries from a restaurant. Which was 810 calories total. So now I’m at 820 calories for the day and I’m now low on calories because everything else I’m eating with the fish only adds up 1166 calories. so I have to add some more stuff in. Probably a couple rice cakes or something to get to 1266. But I am super full from the fish so I won’t be eating for awhile.

I had an Ensure nutrition shake for breakfast, a protein bar for lunch, a small spoonful of peanut butter, and dinner will be oatmeal probably or scrambled eggs. I did have a caramel apple lollipop, trying to cut back on sugar but it was only one and was just 70 calories and I'm kind of stressed and wanted something sugary.

That sounds good, I'm getting Dominoes the week after next. It's been awhile since I've ordered takeout. I'm not really getting a healthy pizza though, but it's a treat since I don't get it often. Just a regular pizza w/ ham and pineapple, and extra sauce on the pizza. I've been craving it for a long time.

I told myself today to just stick to my maintenance calories which is just under 1900 since my Saturday night shot can make me pretty hungry the next day. But I just had 1260 calories and besides the fish and chips this morning it was just the usual rice cakes, goldfish, and Cheerios. So I’m not sure what’s up. If I’m just incredibly motivated or if I’m using my books as a distraction too much. The intense reading spree is anxiety related, not food related.

I'm at exactly 1,200 calories for the day, so it wasn't a bad day!

Yeah i wouldnt call the alfredo sauce healthy exactly! There is this successful weight watchers lady on the WW site that says she eats pizza - and ate it while she was losing - every week. I had to read that for a couple of years before it sank in to not be afraid of pizza, and that i COULD make it HOW I LIKE. Kind of a huge step for me! My favorite pizza i ever ate was a BLT pizza. It had tons of iceberg lettuce and just mayonnaise for sauce, but it was so tasty and refreshing. I need to become a picky eater!

I had 2 small pieces of pork roast last night. And I freaked out thinking I’d gain even though it only put me at about 1468 calories for the day. I weighed myself 15 minutes ago and I was 164.4. So I lost a tiny bit. I do wonder what my therapist will say if anything. Since we have been meeting I’ve lost 8 pounds 2 since the last time we met.

I’m not sure what I’ll be eating today but I’m going to try to finish the boxes of frosted Cheerios and Special K today so I can open up my box of Life cereal. I’ll need to open another bag of rice cakes since I finished my 7th bag since July.

Luckily I have plenty of rice cakes and cereal. And Goldfish and ramen too. But I need to go to the Asian market to get more authentic kinds of ramen.

I had an Ensure shake and protein bar for breakfast, I think lunch will be Campbell's chicken noodle soup, then dinner will be oatmeal

She didn’t say anything about the weight loss being a problem. We did talk about it though and she asked me how much I’ve lost. I told her 8 pounds since we’ve been meeting. 23 pounds since Thanksgiving. And 72 since 2015. I told her I had 24 more pounds to lose and she said “to get to your goal weight?” And I said yeah. She didn’t ask for the details though. Then she said she’d read my email that she missed and would reply to say she read it. In that email I was explaining my meltdown was because of lack of food and restriction. The meltdown I had on Friday was also food related. So I wonder if next Tuesday she’ll say something.

My next goal is 163 by Wednesday. It looks like I’ll be making it to 158 by October if I can keep up this pace. I’m getting kinda freaked out a bit because I keep thinking of the book Thinner by “Richard Bachman” aka Stephen King.

But today I finished the box of Cheerios. I also had a serving of Goldfish crackers. I got a medium chili cheese fries from Sonic. But I have not eaten anything else in almost 4 hours. I’m not sure what my plan is for dinner. I have a small bottle of Body Armor in the fridge. Maybe I’ll have ramen or finish off the Special K cereal.

But my calories for the day are somewhere between 1250 and 1340. Although I’m starting to fade a bit which can become disastrous so I need to eat something quickly. Or drink the water.

Edit: I just chugged the water and I am not in the mood for cereal. So I’ll have the ramen and be at 1270 calories for the day.

I feel bloated today. I don't want to get on the scale. I've been eating healthy and doing work around the house.