[Naturefreak]

Do you ever think of how you might die and do you worry or obsess about it. I know we have no control over that but I sometimes think more about death and forget to live.

[Evening]

Yeah I definitely do, I think I'm either going to die of bowel cancer or a car accident (because I have a bit of a thing with cars).

[(JD)]

Nope. No worry at all, in fact, I embrace it. Being a person of faith is the reason. (In fact, I believe I might not ever die!)

[girlinlondon]

all the time.
i know its going to be dramatic. i feel like all this slow motion and secret shame and fear that is a life like mine is going to explode in my face sooner or later.
a car accident is definitely likely.

[Naturefreak]

Originally Posted by (JD)

Nope. No worry at all, in fact, I embrace it. Being a person of faith is the reason. (In fact, I believe I might not ever die!)

Good answer.

[El-ahrairah]

All the time, there is no worrying though. It's more like waiting.... it's kind of sad.

[Nsomthin]

for one thing i dont plan on dieing and i plan on fighting death with everything i got , so if i was to die id prefer i was fighting, kicking and screaming .going peacefully in the night just doesnt seem my style. lol thats probably why i love this poem by Dylan Thomas

"Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light."(not the full poem not sure i interpreted it right)

I have faith that I will die but cannot say I have ever thought about how.

[Junerain]

Babysteps perhaps you need more thing to look forward to, to hope for, more long term goals, to keep you focused on LIVING 'tis a beautiful thing, if you can capture its beauty, hard to do sometimes, I know

[Denise26]

I OFTEN think of how I might die but in the sense that I can control, plan and execute it myself...

[Shangrala]

Sure, I've thought about death. (I've dreamed of my own death a few times. Despite how violent my deaths were, it is not a reflection of what death really is for me). I don't fear it.

It's my belief that we live in stages.
Our bodies are our mortal vessels to transport who we REALLY are...(the energy that we are), during our time spent on this realm.
And death is our passage to our next realm of existence.The only way to advance to our next realm is, of course, through death, therefore, it is not something to fear, but, like JD said, it should be embraced...welcomed.

Perhaps, the only thing we fear regarding death is the unknown of its understanding.....

Shangrala

[byfnvy]

I used to believe that I'd have a really long life, much to my dismay. A friend had said that he felt I would, and I believed that he was right. Recently though, I got the idea that if I thought about it hard enough, I would be able to die earlier - a sort of 'I control my own fate' thing.

How I want to die is another story, quite an impossible dream of mine, because I want to die secretly, as in without anyone knowing or ever finding out. I just want to disappear inconspicuously, leaving no trace or evidence whatsoever, and people would either not notice my absence and completely forget me, or perhaps believe me to be still alive and never find out that I died.

[la doctora]

I have definately thought about how I will die. I have had tons of dreams where I die in a tornado. I've never seen a tornado or even been really close to one so I'm not sure why I keep dreaming that. It really makes me wonder... However, my home town was basically destroyed by a tornado a few months ago. My brother could hear the tornado from his house but luckily it went around them and they were fine. I was very far away when it happened. I have also dreamed that I was attacked and killed by another person. I think of dying in a car crash too. Also, when my Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome was not controlled I was admitted to the hospital almost every month for a year. I would be severely dehydrated and my potassium would drop into danger levels. I was afraid of having a heart attack and dying from that. I wouldn't say that I worry about it as I believe in life after death in some form or another, but just think about it and wonder how it will be for me... If I could choose, I would go peacefully in my sleep. Seems less scary that way.

[KathyM]

Do I think about death? Yes. I was diagnosed with an untreatable and fatal hereditary illness in 1996 - familial amyloidosis. I watched my mother suffer from the disease, her last ten years were the worst. I am now homebound and permanently disabled, on the same path my mother and grandmother had to follow in life. I have a dilated aortic root due to the disease, so it's my guess I'll probably die by way of aortic dissection (separation/tearing away of the aorta from the heart). My chances of surviving such an event would be minimal. If not that, I will probably go by way of medical error because most doctors don't know standard medical procedures do not work on amyloidosis patients.

I worried about death when I was first diagnosed because my son was still a child. He's a grown man now and can take care of himself, so I no longer worry. I have never feared my own death. I do, however, feel a tremendous guilt for still being alive. I'm no longer able to work or contribute to society. I know a LOT of conservative people who will be overjoyed when I die because they consider me a burden.

[Naturefreak]

Originally Posted by KathyM

I know a LOT of conservative people who will be overjoyed when I die because they consider me a burden.

Do you really believe that Kathy? Overjoyed...

[Naturefreak]

I'm not afraid to die....... it's inevitable.
I think about a heart attack or stroke the most since my Dad had a couple minor ones and his Mom died at age 43 with a massive heart attack. If if happens I hope I pass out immediately . The thought of not being able to breath is a bit scary to me.
Like Junerain said , and I agree , I need something to look forward to.
Not just waiting to die.

[wottesworthgurl]

Yes actually I think about that a lot...I'm hoping that I will die in a car accident..but you never know I'm trying not to let it get to me too much

[KathyM]

Originally Posted by Babysteps

Do you really believe that Kathy? Overjoyed...

Hi Babysteps - These people claim to stand behind the rhetoric they spew, so yes, I believe my demise will bring them pleasure.

[pachyderm]

Originally Posted by byfnvy

Recently though, I got the idea that if I thought about it hard enough, I would be able to die earlier

Did you ever see the movie "Little Big Man"? I think that's the one. In it an old Native American man tried to die just by willing it, as "everyone knows" they were supposed to be able to do that. He failed. He could not will himself to die. It was a rather humorous moment in the movie, since he took his failure with humor himself!

[susan888]

Very, very deep question....One that I have thought about a lot. Cancer, liver disease, strokes and suicide all run in my immediate family...On the other hand....My grandma in Holland died sitting on a bench in her garden...looked like she was just taking a nap. I want to go peaceful just like she did.

[thine_self_untrue]

Yes. In many ways, I wait for it. In others, I fear I will facilitate it. There are nights I go to sleep and hope I never wake up. Mornings I open my eyes and wish I was dead.
I have thought about dying from illness, accident, suicide... too much. But in my mind there is always a subtle sweetness about my death. Something like relief.

[thumbs2]

Originally Posted by Babysteps

Do you ever think of how you might die and do you worry or obsess about it. I know we have no control over that but I sometimes think more about death and forget to live.

I think I will die by my own hand. I really have no doubt and it's a matter time. I chickened out thre months ago and ended up in the hosp. but that didn't work. My big thing is to make it look like an accident and I had a perfect plan, but I told them in the Hosp. I wish I had gone ahead then. The only thing stopping me is what I would do to my family so I have to come up with an accident that won't be questioned.
Sorry about putting the damper on this. Saw my therapist today and did absolutely no good so thats over.
Hope the best for everybody

[Shangrala]

Originally Posted by thine_self_untrue

Yes. In many ways, I wait for it. In others, I fear I will facilitate it. There are nights I go to sleep and hope I never wake up. Mornings I open my eyes and wish I was dead.
I have thought about dying from illness, accident, suicide... too much. But in my mind there is always a subtle sweetness about my death. Something like relief.

True.
In the same sense, the relief that is believed to be gained by passing can also be considered a new beginning, (as with every ending there is a new beginning).
Life is continuous. Think of it as our home. And the rooms as our next life with death as the doorway joining the rooms.....

My mother was chronically depressed. She looked forward to dying 30 years before she passed and she didn't hide that from anyone. It was painfully obvious.
I have one brother and one sister who are at that same point my mother was. They've told me how they now can relate to why mom was awaiting death with bells on.
I'm sorry but, despite that I went through a harder life than either of them, I still cannot relate to how one can just "exist"...awaiting death as though they have no other choice but to face the hand they were dealt with, (as though this life has absolutely nothing positive to offer them).

Although not easy, there is always the option to throw a card in and change your hand.

[vampyre love]

yh i think im going to be strangled to death, ever since i was 9 i would have nightmares about it.

[lonegael]

Gosh, Kathy M, what sick people you have run afoul of....! Yeah, I have tought about death alot, especially when I go through my depressed periods. When I am more affect normal, I realize that it is probably one of the things I have in common with just about everyone, and hey! Not much I can do about it in the long run. Life, on the other hand, is mine and mine alne to manage, so what am I going to do about that? Much scarier. and also far more exciting HUGGS