Daily Comments #5- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

He cuts down trees. He eats his lunch.
He goes to the lavatory.
On Wednesdays he goes shopping
And has buttered scones for tea.

He's a lumberjack, and he's okay.
He sleeps all night and he works all day.

Decisions, decisions.

Nikole... Go to youtube and find "The Lumberjack Song ~Monty Python" like Nick is quoting. You will laugh

#1400...I'll spend it on my friend Nikole sending her my respect and smiles...none of which will be cold by the time they get there...internet baby...as close to instantaneous as it gets...oh hell...light years and they'd still be warm...!

...and I awoke with so many aspirations of things to accomplish today...geez, what?

Notz... Just press your Reset Button

It's such a warm soft night out... very nice

It appeared to be clearing off at sunset. I hope tomorrow will be a sunny warm day. Often clear skies in the winter means cold weather though.

Physically, mentally and emotionally stressed and hurt. So wanting to give up now...

So need to get off the computer.......spending longer and longer.....and OMG it's what time in the morning!!!!

Segment of Cheese Shop Skit by Monty Python

Customer: All right. Okay. 'Have you got any?' he asked, expecting the answer 'no'.

Owner: I'll have a look, sir........nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnno.

Customer: It's not much of a cheese shop, is it?

Owner: Finest in the district!

Customer: (annoyed) Explain the logic underlying that conclusion, please.

Owner: Well, it's so clean, sir!

Customer: It's certainly uncontaminated by cheese....

I'm going apartment searching with my father today. Gotta move closer to my doctor. Wish us luck!

I thought I brought oatmeal for breakfast to work, but I brought grits, and now I have no butter. So I used taco sauce. And it's surprisingly good.

I feel no so good.

I'm feeling better, taking a break from PC.

Feeling physically and emotionally tired today. My feet are hurting (the arches) because I did too much walking yesterday. I just want to go back to bed but have things to do.

I feel frustrated when friends ask me to get involved in their petty arguments with others. Also, I get frustrated when friends' behaviors stretch the limits of my compassion.

I wish I could stay in bed all day but I have things to do. I ate breakfast and it made me sleepy. I am so caught up on some personal things that I forgot to pay the rent on the first of the month. I still have to write the check. That is so unlike me.

Now that I am on SSDI, I am thinking of moving. I do not fit in where I live so maybe it would be good to live elsewhere. I am also looking into going back to college but all I seem to want to study is history and politics, and I don't think I can make a living with a degree in either. I am just not good with business subjects. I need to make a decision and can't seem to be able to do so. Ugh.

I think I'll move to Northern British Columbia. Coast hopefully. This place will NOT get my g'damned bones. Hey Nicks! 'ows the work scene on the island? BCs my second pick but I dunno if home I can do anymore...makes me blue thinkin' of it. This flatland hell is going to bury me...I gotta spit and shove th' dirt offa me every g'damned day. 15 yrs wasted...there can't be any more...there's already a gravestone with my name on it here...really there is...quite a laugh upon seeing it but the implications of rotting here with my match are sobering. I'm dying inside in this place....and I'm ill prepared to go solo adventuring at this late date. But I have to. I have to.

Good luck OutofTune

It's hard to live on the dream you wanted to have and reach...

There's a really good chance that I've run out of lightening strikes.

I can't speak for St. John's (where I hear all the jobs are) but here in Corner Brook, I wouldn't advise anybody to come, unless you are able to live off of part time work or take on two jobs.

I'm afraid of the future.

Just a vent...wtf!!!! My neighbor is playing her music so freekin loud. Every night and on the weekends. She is such a nice person too. I dont want to say anything. But it is bugging the holy cr** out of me! I am so quiet and a great neighbor. I wonder if she even knows I am home. Argh! She has been doing it for a little over a week now!

Thank you for letting me get that out if my system.

Ear plugs are great for that. It won't cut it out completely, because to block all sound is a dangerous thing, but, they will mute it nicely. Also, time of day/night s a consideration. Anything after 11 pm, here, can be reported to police as a disturbance of the peace.

**sigh** another day. i have been asked to write a letter of encouragement to my goddaughter. might as well write one to myself too!

it's time to get serious about my apartment. the furniture needs to be re-arranged. it needs to be cleaned and the painters need to be called. also, i have bicycles to repair. the christmas gifts need to be wrapped.

and, i need to make a decision about school. should i go back? i have no idea what to study - i am not good at anything. also, i need to initiate cases against previous employers who harassed me. i have been meaning to do this for ages but just can't bring myself to fight. i am such a loser, how can i possibly win? my ptsd is bad everyday and lately, my ibs too. i see the doctor tomorrow for a celiac test.

i have been sexually inactive for a long time. i need to do something about it but can't bring myself to. it makes me so weird - i am the only person i know who does not appear to enjoy sex very much. i avoid it at all costs. i go out to make friends and, instead, people (who i often don't find attractive) hit on me. i don't know what to say. it's a compliment to be hit on but, instead, it troubles me. and, i don't appreciate it.