Daily Comments #6- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

Today is cancelled due to lack of interest.

I am feeling tired today. Yesterday, I went to help elderly mom with grocery shopping and laundry. As usual, she expressed no interest in my life whatsoever. It has always been about her since day one. Worse, I cannot seem to generate any interest in my own life. I guess that's what happens when no one has really cared about you. I have no idea what to do with my life. I have no goals. There is no inner core of happiness or fun. Nonetheless, I keep trying and looking. For what and why, I'm not sure.

Today will consist of going to the bank, grocery shopping, free wine tastings and a Saturday night of doing laundry. I was going to try attending a meeting of asexuals this afternoon but changed my mind. I want a normal life but have no idea how to achieve that wish.

I know how you feel, guy. Not about my Mom but about no goals, no life, no purpose. I have no social network. I work, come home, sleep, get up and go to work.

I'm bored out of my mind. Got absolutely almost everything done, now I know why I never do this much cleaning and organizing. It dull and cold out today.

life it's a happiness core upon the basic core

I admit it. I like sugar.

I wish I never logged on today.

After all the crazy-business yesterday at work (my nerves were frayed and on overdrive) and again this morning (tell you later) I went to sleep as soon as I got home this morning from the office (1030). I woke up a couple of times but I literally just got out of bed and moved (with my blankies and pillow) to the couch.

I hadnt eaten all day too so I had some Mango/Papaya juice and a little cold veggie pasta salad... I do feel better now.

Gsp! Gsp! :d

Heck of a fight, no?

Thought Hendricks v. Condit was far better.

Does anyone have some green I can borrow?

Happy St Patrick's Day, Friends!

I still have my Mean Green sweatshirt from my freshman year at NTSU. Of course the school is now known a UNT

This does reflect my very advanced age

Random thoughts today...all over the place so far...having some coffee and wishing I had made better choices in life. I am responsible for the breakup of my family and even though the ex and I are good as friends, we will never be anything else. I suppose I held out hope although in reality I already knew it was over. I am now the object of every "don't need that man in my life anymore" song. I always knew it would suck being that guy...it does lol.
The thought of starting over at 47 is really not much fun. I want someone to love who will accept me for me...so now I wade through a sea of jaded souls to find someone who feels like I do.
Then again maybe not

i wanna make cinnamon rolls... but i am afraid to mess it up too

i have not done that since i was little, and one of my sisters (older of course) had helped me that one time..... (I helped her actually )

i found some directions, i think i have the ingredients at home... just need to clean the kitchen so I have space...

oh wait-- i don't have a rolling pin

I hate when I read something completely erroneous on here that someone says about my MH issues (BPD) and take it personally. I need to remember that they are uneducated and it's based on their experiences and it's not directed towards me. I wish I had more self esteem that such things wouldn't bother me.

Sometimes I make myself laugh.

my s/o says I am my own comedian.... cuz some times i just can't stop laughing at what i say, while only getting a chuckle out of him of it...... sigh....

"everyone is their own comedian" he tells me... don't know if everyone, but i know for sure some people are

need to find a way to get rid of those noisy birds. they're so loud and harsh in their sounds.

Woke up in the early morning with a migraine and still have not fully recovered. I don't know if it has something to do with my new med, the chocolate I ate last night or the combination of both. Yesterday was a lost day. My apartment is cold and I took refuge under the covers and slept all day and then was up most of the night. I have made some progress with my complaint to the attorney general's office thanks to my new med which helps me think more clearly, especially about highly emotional problems. I am still suffering from many PTSD flare-ups each day. I continue to isolate. I cannot bring myself to even look for spiritual help, having been harmed there. This is going to be a very slow recovery if there ever is one.

If religon doesnt deserve a second chance then what does?

it's hard to find someoen to talk to on here especially when everybody else is dealing with their own problems. on weekends, i don't have anybody to talk to and it just kills me because i need someone to socialize with me. i need someone to talk to.

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some times the games are a nice way to socialize with others on here on PC,

While I agree.... some times problems are hard to talk about with others, when every one of us are having our own things to deal with but some times people do pop out

(((I hope you still find PC beneficial for you)))

i thought the games were literally games, where you play games with others or something.

Me too, you should check it out!