Does Anyone Else Get Tired of Having A Mental Illness?

Oh yes, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

But, seeing that were all unique - It's nice to find others similar here at PC

Yes, definitly so but more then that I HATE the stigma that is attached to it mainly by those that are suppose to help you....

Ya know?

Thanks for putting that question out there.

Crew

I want to retire from mental illness, I have had it long enough.

Yes plain and simple yes, even with several of us to share it with it is still far too much and makes for even more depression and anxiety

You are not alone and have echoed the thoughts of many just by this one message alone

I like Ygrecs philosophy

Morgana

There are times when it feels like the depression & anxiety doesn't exist anymore & the PTSD doesn't effect me......then Fall hits, or what I am involved with comes to an end & the let down of it all starts to hit.....bad when they both coincide like is starting to hit now with the end of the WEG coming Sunday & the fall weather triggering the PTSD feelings.

I find that when I am physically exhausted like I am from all the volunteer work at WEG even though I completely love it & have 3 more days of volunteer work to go, it tends to cause the down to be a little more down.....these last 2 off days, I haven't been able to get out of bed. Know it's being exhausted, but can also feel a little down with everything that's going on in my life right now also.

Had to cancel my appointment with my psychologist because all my money is going into my property taxes this month & don't want to spend money I don't have even if they let me pay next month......so the rest of the month is going to be a tough road......it would be so nice to be back where I was before this all hit.

I so get tired of having all this traffic in my brain. I just want some peace.

That is if you can concur yourself. I've been working on that forever.

Yes, I get so disgusted with this disease and with myself for constantly trying to do something about it that I get tired. No body cares because no body can change it. I am on meds, thank God, but it still seeps through to my conciousness like water in the basement walls. I find myself obsessivey thinking about stuff that just don't make a hill of beans. It does not matter what I tell myself, it don't go away until maybe if I go to sleep or take a nap. That is why I love to sleep so much. It is the only time I am not depressed (or at least it seems that way). Just posting this is making me sad and lonely. I try to do good for myself, but I usually get it wrong.

some days all one can do is laugh,, what a life this turned out to be~! i always wanted to be educated, but this isn't the course i thought i was signing up for~~ ooh well,, learn what it takes to get the passing grade. it's been 20 yrs for me, and i DO believe that BiPolar can be "cured",, since i'm well on the way there (withOUT meds~!). never give up: laugh when you can, cry when you must, then get back up and go again.

I know I have already commented on this post before, but it keeps catching my eye. I guess I am really tired of it having one. I keep thinking I have all of this figured out. I think if I just act as though nothing is wrong the beast will give up and leave me alone. Never. I feel I am possesed by a demon. I cannot get rid of him no way. He hates me and everyone around me who tries to help. He has control of everything I think and do. I am so tired of it. I just have to live with it and go on. I only pray that someone reading this gets some kind of good out of it. I only pray that I can start some kind of organized help group that will let others know that they will be okay even if they have this terrible disease. I just want to cry now...

For a fleeting moment this morning when I first got on this site this morning and began to post, I felt a sense of relief. I felt that I was really making a difference here and that made me feel good because I don't fit in anywhere else and if I could just do one thing to help someone, that would be wonderful. However, as the time has passed and I have typed and posted, I no longer feel that way. I am not helping anyone with just agreeing with them and telling them about my problems. I feel I am just a whiner trying to show that I have the bigger problem. I hope this feeling passes soon. I may not post anymore after today if I keep hanging on to this feeling. Sorry for not helping.

Once, I was healthy for one day. I started a new drug and the next day, I felt great. I was not anxious or worried how someone might approve or disapprove of me. I was not sad. I did not feel "different". I felt I was love and appreciated and all the good things that come with normal and happy people. People noticed too, and ask me why I was so happy. Well, that only lasted for one day and I was back down the next. I worried even worse that normal the day after. Sad but true.

I so understand all of this. I am very grateful I happened upon this site where people are so understanding & non-judgemental. It is so hard for me to stuff all of these bad feelings, insecurities & anxieties inside. I feel better after venting & having an understanding friend reassure me no matter HOW many times I repeat myself. Its so hurtful & brings on such awful feeling when I need to talk & I find out or feel as if people think I'm Debby Downer, its in my head, get over it, oh no, run, you're so negative, you're no fun or I wouldn't want to be around you for very long. Its very hard...

I'm tired of mentall illness dominating my life. Before I do anything I have to consider whether my disorders will allow me to do it.

Yeap so sick and tired

I don't think that is the right attitude. Life is about taking risks... not big ones, but little at least. Nobody knows if things will go right and we should not let our thoughts let us prevent from realizing ourselves.

Just my humble opinion.

I can't even begin to truly express how tired of it I get. Seriously its a drain all day every day. I mean, things that are everyday for a most people, takes energy, and often, takes too much energy for me to want to do it.

I can't stand it. I want to be able take care of myself. I want to be able to sit there and have a conversation with someone, without thinking to myself, Can't be boring, I'm being boring, aah I can't think, ect.

I wanna feel good, not utter crap darnit.(Feels good to let that out) Your not alone by a long way.

Sometimes I feel like I'm never ever going to get any better. My big worry is that I will never feel happy again and that I'll always be alone. But other times I kind of like it. It's who I am, it makes me unique and I'll have great stories to tell someday. But I'm not as sick as some on here.

Thanks Sophia for posting this thread. So many people have voiced how they feel. You know you are not alone.

I am so very tired of this. I have been weeping just reading what other people say. Not weeping for them, per se. Weeping for what mental illness feels like.

Of course life has had its good moments to be sure. And I am so grateful for those. And I am so very tired of an existance of pain, isolation, feeling less than others, fear, hypersensitivity, a failure, lack of ability to make a living etc. Yes, it surely is tiring.

Yes, I sure am tired of fighting the battle everyday. It really is a battle; reminding myself I need to take my meds for the stability to function in society, examining every thought for validity, examining every emotion as a possible mood swing. I can never forget I'm MI, because every time I open a pill bottle I'm reminded...and the fight begins another day.

It would be nice to just cope with stuff and not fall apart. I am sick of feeling like this even if you feel a bit better able to cope its goes so quickly.