[complic8d]

I just realized that I am a raving, control freak, *****. I can be so bossy and mean. I know there are reasons, which is why I am in therapy, but this knowledge does not help me. Now I hate myself more and don't know what to do.
Sorry, I just needed to vent. You don't need to reply. (I'm also good at twisting the positive into the negative!)
Love ya and HUGS!

[complic8d]

oops.. By the way, has anyone read the book "get me out of here" by Rachel Reiland? She finds out she is borderline and retells her story and the therapy that eventually "cures" her. Like she said when looking at the borderline dianosis, sounds like a "manipulative a**hole". That's what I realized I am. Hope I can get out of that role as she was able to.

I would highly recommend the book, too. It helps you feel not alone with the diagnosis and behaviors and therapy, and she is able to get better. Encouraging.

[90mphINneutral]

No I haven't read it yet. But I know you what you mean by being a manipulative ***** hole... I finally knew what I was putting peoiple through... with my control issues, my narcissism etc... i am a total *****... but how do i change????

[LMo]

Hi Complic8d - I'm sorry, I missed this post the other day. I haven't read the book. My ex-husband used to hurt me terribly by calling me a control freak. It hurt, because I felt that I compromised a LOT for him. So I don't know, calling yourself those things really doesn't help you.

That's great, though, that you're willing to work on that part of you. I wish you the best of luck.