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wow mue what you have had to live through is horrific . big hugs

Sila - I'm glad that you are home. You made it through the weekend!

Guys- nice talking to you all tonight but I gotta go decompress. Back to work tomorrow. "I will NOT let my size 0 boss trigger me" "I will not let my size 0 boss trigger me"

Goodnight friends-see you all later. Hugs and love and a wave at StopDog from the appropriate distance as to not invade personal space.

Bye all. ((((Wiki)))) bedtime prayers for you. Hugs.

i have not seen her around sence she popped in yesterday i hope she is ok .maybe just working a lot

Good night Jersery.. Hope work goes well tomorrow.

Thanks, granite.

I haven't really worked through much of my "parent" issues in therapy yet....I love my parents so much, and it's hard to work through when my dad is gone...and I miss him terribly...I'm not sure if it's just denial, self-blame, self-hatred, guilt, love, or what.

I know it's all intertwined somehow - the abusive upbringing, the CSA's (outside of the home) from age 5 through to adulthood, my marriage, my abusive bosses....It's crazy how much of a magnet one can be to attract so much horror.

I'll work through it one of these days....(( HUGS ))

I saw what I guess was a therapist when I was 13 after some si issues. I only saw him once and don't remember much about it other than I did not like it. I didn't start seeing a t on a regular basis until I was 32 and started having some serious anxiety issues.

I waited to see a therapist until I'd lived a completely unsuccessful life, everything had fallen apart completely, and I was barely clinging on. I was 23.

Good night all.. Back to work tomorrow and of course I am starting to get a cold right now. Hoping I can rest it off!!

night healed

Healed - hope you feel better when you wake up! Stock up on vitamin c and vitamin d. Show that cold that you are in charge.

Yep trdle I made it home. I love how my room smells like lavender.

Ugh. This Packer's game is ugly.

today was better than yesterday.

Rainbow Rose, that is something to be thankful for.

Wow...thanks to those who were worried about me. I feel loved!!

Jersey...I'm so happy your house is clean. I know that elation!!

Granite...nice couch!! I have microfiber too.

RTS...I don't remember reading a book about attachment issues, unless you're talking about The Emotionally Absent Mother. I would not recommend that book. The other books I've discussed are Boundaries by Cloud and Townsend; and The Gifts of Imperfection, I Thought it was Just Me, and Daring Greatly, all by Brene Brown.

MKAC...I have noticed the same thing you have. Lots of posters seem to want to one-up each other on their level of pain/issues/etc. The way I see it, everyone's pain is their pain. Psychological pain is bad, no matter how it bears out.

To add to the general discussion about whether I perceive PC as a safe place is thus:

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. If I post, I know that I put myself out there for criticism, praise, empathy, apathy, etc. What I miss from the first few months I was here is the feedback on my therapy sessions. I like when people challenge the way I think on several levels; I learn how to consider the opinions of others, how to more effectively empathize, and to see things in a different light. I tend only to post about my sessions. I simply relay what happened.

Everyone else I did not mention, I hope you all are doing well.

((MUE)) - I deal with a lot of nightmares/night terrors. Has your T ever talked to you about something called a "Nightmare Protocol"? I have found it really helpful in reorienting myself when I wake up from nightmares to use this protocol... It's fairly simple, you just say a couple sentences out loud that reaffirms to you that it was just a dream and not reality. It's used for those with PTSD but I think it would work for anyone. Here's the link to the PDF file, you'll have to scroll through a few pages to get to the Nightmare Protocol. There's also one for flashbacks if that's an affliction you face as well.

Sorry about the migraines. Those are no fun...

I had a good session with my T, but I'm too relaxed and happy to write it up.

That's how you make a haggis.

Good night couch.... The Packers game is so horrible I am just going to go to bed.

I'm feeling pain watching the Packers game too Sconnie! Sleep well!

I'm going to try to put my aching head down and close my eyes for the night. Aunt Flo decided to suddenly make her appearance, so I at least now know what triggered this migraine. (TMI, sorry.)

Goodnight, couch peeps!

Regarding discussion about feeling safe: I don't feel safe writing about my own issues, and regret doing so in the past (though I'm not obsessing about it - there's a lot of posts on PC, and mine drown in the sea of words). I'm not comfortable writing about why that is, but it is (obviously) my own problem, and I don't expect or want anybody to modify their behaviour to suit my foreign notions better. I am reluctant to post about others' issues because apparently some people bring PC posts and threads to their Ts - which is their right to do, and more power to them if it helps them. Everything we post is public and people are free do whatever they want with it. But the only way to stay safe is to stay silent, online just as in outside-therapy RL.

The reason I'm still here is that I care very much about some of the people here and don't want to lose touch.

To respond to granite's question: I was first in T when I was 29, for a few months only. Then no T until last autumn. I have a different T now, since a few months back, and this is the first T I have actually been able to talk to.

*sigh*

Spent the last 2+ hours tossing and turning, trying to get to sleep, with this migraine....and listening to my daughter cough.

I finally got up and gave her some cough medicine.

I have a feeling she's not going to school in the morning...and I also have a feeling I may not be making it in to work. *sigh*

Gonna lay back down and try this again, although I'm not sure it's worth it when I've gotta be up in less than 2 hours.....Wahhhh!