Couch 55...And on it goes....

My wedding was really small. H and I paid for it ourselves so we kept the numbers down. My oldest daughter got married in Mexico, so we did a small reception for her when they got home. They had been together a long time, owned a house together and already had a child who was 2 at the time. They were more interested in having a "honeymoon", so we complied and funded that. My youngest actually wants to get married in Japan...so we may do something similar.

stopdog.. H is always talking about getting a generator, but we haven't yet. I guess being a New Englander I am just so used to going times without electricity that it doesn't really bother me a whole lot. Unless it's winter and cold. Last winter we lost it for 4 days and it was in the 20's...that was a bit "irritating", I think 15 days would probably tip the scales for me too.

ut oh...and there it goes. Power out. Texting from my phone.

Catch ya all later.

Hope you get power back soon, wiki!

Welp, my earlier plans got pushed out by an hour or so......so I cancelled my later plans which were iffy to begin with. And then I got a text from another friend of mine that I haven't talked to in a few months, wanting to meet up with me.

I have a tendency to interact with people for a while and then fall off the face of the earth for months on end....I'm not sure I'm ready to reconnect with the world yet.

Thanks for asking, Ready. My son had his wisdom teeth out yesterday so mostly I'm working from home. I am going to meet a friend for lunch and get my hair cut, but S is mostly sleeping. I just need to give him medications and jello and pudding periodically.

Why are you disappearing? Have something fun planned?

MKAC...ughh.. my S had his out last year...the swelling wasn't as bad as I anticipated... his surgeon said for him not to sleep flat to have head elevated and to be diligent about the ice... it really worked...

i remember alot of popsicles and ice cream...

hope he feels better soon

RTS, I hope you're able to find a T that has experience in the issues you need to address and accepts your insurance!

The worst part, I found, with getting my wisdom teeth taken out was dealing with dry sockets. Luckily, it doesn't happen to everyone and there are ways to prevent it. Unfortunately, even with following the after-care steps, I still ended up with dry socket, every time. *sigh*

I will be taking my niece to get her wisdom teeth taken out in August. Another day of not being able to work. *sigh*

thanks mue... it will be atleast 3 maybe 6 months before I will be able to even handle the copays financially but I'm still working on me...no need to stop just because I'm not seeing a T

Yes! You certainly have a great attitude about it, even though I know it's painful and difficult as well. I am teetering on the idea of discontinuing therapy until the new year, because I am reaching (or might have already reached) my insurance cap for the year. The idea makes me feel sick to my stomach, though. And the idea of it making me feel sick to my stomach makes me feel even worse - if that makes sense.

MUE...they think you will be taking her in August but you may have a full time job by then! And then they will need to take off work

MUE... I understand the sick to the stomach thing because when I quit xT I felt it... and it took time and some grieving to get over that and really it took T2 to help me work through all the issues I had with xT... (btw I learned a lot of those issues were mine and not his - or my inability to adress his)...

its easier this time because I made sure that this time around therapy was all about me and I didn't let myself get all attached to this T. I like her and all and I will miss her if I don't end up going back to her. Nothing is set in stone.

LOL, I can only hope!

Pdoc in an hour. It's been either 5 or 6 weeks and I kind of miss the guy. That's somewhat alarming. lol

I'm glad that you were able to approach this T in a way that didn't leave you feeling too attached this time. If I would have known that I was going to feel this way about T, I might not have started therapy at all. I know that therapy has done wonders for me, so I guess I don't regret the learning and growth that has come from the work we've done. I just wish things weren't so painful right now.

MUE... you are in the middle of working through some big stuff... so I would expect you to be attached... I was very attached to xT during the time I was working through stuff and it was really needed or I wouldn't have worked through the stuff...

seems ashame if you are on a roll with working on the trauma stuff to stop going...it might be worth dipping into savings or working at a gap stop job like substitute teaching or something that would help pay for stuff along with your assignments.

Thanks, RTS. I guess with this recent rupture, the termination threat, us trying to work through the rupture, T being on vacation, my unemployment running out and my insurance capping, I feel really out of sorts about it all. We are just starting the trauma work, so now would be the time to stop - before I get fully entrenched in it. At the same time, I don't want to walk away in the midst of it. I want to get through it and live a more satisfying life. Being isolated, withdrawn, depressed, fearful - it's no way to live.

I've thought about getting a part time job - but I hate the idea that it would make me unavailable for interpreting work. One hour of emergency work is the equivalent pay of 6 hours at a crap part time job. Once my mom gets back from her trip, I am going to make myself available around the clock for assignments and will notify my manager that I am gung-ho on being available for them as much as possible - overnights, middle-of-the-night emergency calls - whatever it takes. And I am searching for jobs and applying every day. Something good will come of this. It has to.

I was also planning to look into joining other agencies, so I'd have greater opportunities for getting assignments. Unfortunately, in looking at the agencies in my state, they require you to have certain certifications - and in order to get those certifications, you have to have a bachelors degree. I have no college background at all. Disheartening.

Heading out to meet my friend at the library....

Started having trouble breathing about 20 minutes ago....hoping it subsides soon. Anxiety, I'm guessing.

In pdocs waiting room.. I want to run out screaming. Guess I no longer miss him.

Just got home from grocery shopping and getting gas. Called an made a hair appointment for tomorrow evening after work (she was book solid today). I haven't had one in 3 and a half to 4 months, so it's definitely time.

Well...I haven't had lunch yet other than a couple of cherries. So, off I go to make a late lunch/early dinner.

I'll check back in later.

I hope everyone is having a decent day.

How'd pdoc go pbutton?

I'm still keeping mine.

So i'm trying to change habits so yesterday I straightened up the house for a while then I rewarded myself with some Criminal Intent. I read you should reward yourself right away like a puppy. I told t the name of my autobio would be Take the Marshmallow and Run.

Hey couch peeps! Back from hanging out with my old co-worker. We had a nice time at the book sale. I picked up a number of books for $1 or $2 each and some VHS tapes for $0.25 each. Then, we went to a diner for lunch and chatted for about 3 hours or so. It was fun!

I had my phone ringer off while we were at the library and forgot to turn it back on while we were at the diner. My daughter came home with my mom and were trying to reach me. Oops! I wasn't expecting them back so early. My daughter asked that I pick her up at 5 PM so she could finish watching a show. Looking forward to seeing my baby girl.