Couch 74

hey all....

RTS, I didn't mean to sound like I was accusing you of being attention-seeking. It just sounded like MKAC said. I do it myself at times, which is why I thought I saw it in you. I call it Martyr Syndrome in myself. "Oh how I sacrifice for everyone else" lol.

So...not sleeping day (er night) 8.

I got a beautiful orchid delivered today by some of the staff from the wildlife clinic. I was so touched by their kindness. It made me feel loved and special.

Ike...did you get the ceramic grill?

Hey Wiki Guess what Buddy Guy is one of the headline acts in one of our largest music festivals. I so wish I was there.

Hey Ike I'm doing ok. Just my ex is mucking around and rang my T behind my back to ask him if I was stable enough to be a suitable parent for the girls in case something happens during his surgery. I was always a "good" mother when I was undiagnosed now I'm medicated I should be better? I don't see his problem. he is playing on my fears of being a "bad"" mother and losing my kids.
Thankfully my T told him that he would need my permission to talk to him, but i only learned this after I emailed my T to see if it was alright for ex to attend a session. I'm going to make him pay for the session as it will be all about him.

you are loved and special

getting off this morning because the chat thing refuses to keep me invisible I truly hate that thing

My mother's food stamps came in.
That means I have to take her shopping.
Groan.

Me too.
Have an excellent day chickie...

You recognize that you DON'T HAVE to, right? This might be a good time for her to develop other resources and for other people to step up and help.

Yeah, I'm logging off also. STUPID chat bar. Where do we post about how much we hate that thing?

so whats the problem with not being invisible.... do people chat you?

Ready, mostly people don't chat me. I just don't like other people seeing when I'm on and when I'm not, or what I'm doing on the forum. I tried to disable the feature that lets other people see what your current activity is on the forum, and I was keeping myself set to invisible on the chat, it changed me back to available and the ability to switch back to invisible wasn't working this morning.

Still waiting for a friend of mine to come out so I can take him a few places.

Hey how did the couch get to the 2nd page

Hi, Couchies. Sending encouragement to all who need it. Seems my recent tiredness and feeling not so great wasn't just an MS flare--also got diagnosed the other day with a sinus infection. I used to get them all the time, now usually just once a year, late winter or early spring.

I took 3 doses of the med and woke last night because the soles of my feet were itching intensely. I called the clinic today, and the nurse called back and said the NP who prescribed said the itching isn't a usual side effect, and just to keep taking it. I, of course, (right, Hankster?) had googled it earlier and learned that it is a side effect, so I told the nurse I would take one more dose and if I started itching again I was going to call back. Sure enough, within 30 minutes, the itching started again. So now I have to go pick up the new script tomorrow. Too tired to go today.

I was hoping to have my son come for an overnight visit this weekend, but if I don't feel better tomorrow, I'm going to cancel. This weather is still indecisive, and it doesn't help me feel better! I did get outside with my dog last week Friday, and that was great. It was warm and quite breezy, and I walked just enough to get exercise and feel pleasantly tired. I want sunshine, rhubarb, and asparagus!

I haven't bought one yet Wikid. I'm thinking about a Kamado style grill with insulated steel instead of ceramic. Supposedly comparable to the BGE at a fraction of the cost. I'll post a picture when I make the purchase.

Had the scare of my life today with my 92 yr old grandma. Still reeling a bit. She seems pretty ok now. I think she's finally sleeping again.

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Hi where is everyone....

Slow day.

My chat bar is gone. I don't know how I got rid of it, but it is.
If I'm not invisible, please tell me.

I rolled my foot stepping off of our granite porch last night.
Swollen. Purple. Painful.
I may need to get it xrayed because I can't bear weight on it. I just don't want the radiation.

If it's broken, I'm getting drunk. It's noon somewhere.

My chat bar is still there but says it is disable due to the problems with it.

So sorry about your ankle, Wikid. Keeping my fingers crossed it is just a sprain.

I have been struggling since T on Tuesday. None of my 'real life' friends are around and/or available. My one friend who I own the trailer with is back to avoiding me. sigh. Also a friend sent me my weight and measurements from before we started a 'fitness challenge' she organized last year. I have lost a significant amount of weight and inches everywhere except my thighs. My thighs are actually slightly bigger than they were a year ago.
This is the same thing that bumped me over into an eating disorder in high school and college. No matter how much weight I lost, my thighs were still huge. Now I have objective proof that I can lose huge amounts of weight and my thighs do not change AT ALL. Just so frustrated and discouraged because my thighs are always my big issue.

What I'm listening to over and over at work:

((MKAC))

I can see that this is a deep seated pain that is not going to go away by itself. I hesitate to comment, but...

I wish you could give yourself more credit for losing weight and being fitter. Isn't that what is important?

It seems to me that a fit, healthy, active woman who does a lot of horse riding is always going to have muscular thighs.

I wonder if you could change your expectations to match your body instead of changing your body to match your expectations? But you are a determined and passionate woman and are not about to give in to mere reality!

Thank you so much, CE. I am trying hard to focus on my overall fitness level. It's just very difficult. I appreciate your time and support very much.

I always listen to that song when I'm having a really bad day

Had a lovely evening with friends and family. Had dinner out. H told me I was driving home as he wanted a drink. I was ok with that but the verbal abuse on the way home was a shock. In front of our kids. It went on and on and the worst thing is that I don't shout back - I just take it. I know what he says is wrong (that I am lazy, don't clean the house or cook, don't work hard enough, toss it off while he works, spend too much money) he is so controlling. I feel such an idiot for letting him shout at me. He wasn't drunk. He works very long hours and is stressed about work but that isn't a reason. Why do I put up with it. I feel so hurt and can't stop crying. Everyone asleep but I can't go to bed.

Vacation at the beach is officially over... we are getting up at 3am to start the 12hr drive home.. I don't want to leave the ocean!