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Struggling with being adult today.

I struggle with that every day, BP. Best.

Hi Ike!

im home

I didn't end up going over to bil's house..letting his mom handle him. I already feel like I am losing it anyways.. I don't need to deal with him losing it. I have been texting back and forth with t a little bit tonight and he is going to see me for an earlier appointment tomorrow afternoon instead of Friday. Trying to take care of myself right now.

I know the feeling, I sometimes feel like I'm still a teenager.

In today's I am an Alien game, there is a news story going around and a lot of people act horrified about the facts and pictures. The story was being used at school and a prof. had blown the photos up for their class and a group of others of us were hanging around and the guy with the pictures showed them to us. And there were gasps and so forth. And my reaction was - yeah, that is what happens. I am not all happy about it and I don't recommend doing it, but was not all wigged out or anything. I was expecting something really bad and what I thought the pictures showed was normal.
And I tried telling the therapist, but I don't think she gets my concern. She was all reacty to the story rather than what I was trying to get at.

I spend a lot of my time being six years old.

yay granite!!!

Yeah, I had something similar happen with the Rice story when the video in the elevator was released. I got very annoyed with one of the women in the office when she started going on and on about how horrible it was. Me: Did you not see the video of him pulling her unconscious body out of the elevator? Her: yes, but I didn't realize how bad he had hit her. Me: What the **** did you think was happening in the elevator to make her go unconscious? Do you not know how hard you have to hit someone before they go unconscious? Her:

T says the majority of people do not realize how very hard you can be hit and still not lose consciousness. That seems odd to me. He also says the majority of people have never had a felony committed in their presence. Then I was the one going: Do you guys think that is true? I think I may have asked this question on here before.

The reason I am an alien is that I just don't see it as that bad - it is pretty much just yea that happens - and I don't get what part is upsetting to people (mine is not the Rice one). And I have found when I guess at the upsetting part, I often get it wrong and people think I am kidding or being a jerk.

Yeah, I didn't think the Rice thing was that upsetting in the first place. She's a grown up and can make her own decisions. If she chooses to stay, that is her business, as long as there are no kids involved. But I was annoyed by the sudden uproar when the second tape of what happened in the elevator came out. Really, what the **** did people think happened in the elevator? I do not understand it.

Teenage daughter crying because her cat has been diagnosed with a terminal illness. (Same as killed cat's mother.)

I think maybe hug her but before I am though the door she tells me to go away.

Neurotypicals think they own the world.

Sorry about your cat and your daughter CE.

I am deeply sorry, CE. Losing a pet is so hard.

CE that is so sad. I hope your daughter opens up to you to talk about it.

CE and daughter.
***TW sexual stuff****

This last week has been a bit stressful as just about everything has reminded me of p e n i s e s. I went to dinner and the sausages had burst out the end and I thought of p e n is e s and mushrooms on the internet> Also I was telling someone I am allergic to tomatoes but the real reason is that the bit where the seed is reminds of the texture of semen. I have nearly choked and vomited several times this week

IM so sorry CE I hope you daughter will let you in to help her grieve over this . ((ce))

thinking of calling my T this morning but am terrified to do it. what is the worse that can happen . she will terminate me . I already e-mailed her that once so I have no idea how she will react to a call. should I just ignore it all and do my best to just show up and hope she doesn't bring up the email. that is what she usually does but she doesn't usually answer any e mails either

I'm sorry about your cat, CE. It's such a painful thing when that happens.
If your D tells you to go away, that is something you have to respect, though. I'm sure that's painful for you, but you have to respect her integrity and need for privacy. Some people feel better when they can share their grief, but for other people, having others around in that situation only makes things worse.

BPA, I'm sorry to hear that. That's absolutely awful.

Granite... If you will worry for next week than I think you should call. Be specific in what you want if you are just leaving a message... Say I'm concerned you are angry about me sending an email. Can you please call me back to let me know either way (angry or not)because im sitting here worrying you are going to terminate me

or something specific so she knows what you are asking and that you want a response.

omg I called and left a message I think im gonna be sick .I hope she doesn't call back .I know this is all stupid