Couch 91 - Forget the small change

this guy is hilarious thanks!!

I'm trying to make cupcakes but they are a bit of a disaster.

Turns out I am too impatient..

just a couple of posts

What's wrong with them?

Yeah. It happens. I just leave. I'm used to saying the wrong thing.

to bring me to 4785.

Anyone ever read a post (or a few) by another member of this forum and start panicking because is sounds like they see the same T as you? Especially if that forum member says that their T knows that they post here? No? Just me, huh.

They are not coming out of the pans properly but its more me being ompatient and letting them cool properly than anything.

His regular blog is hilarious as well, he just doesn't post there as much as his tumblr. Books of Adam

Nope...

I doubt that would occur in my case. It also wouldn't bother me if T knew I posted here.

So they'll still taste good but I hate washing those pans.

Had a feeling it was just me.

Others probably share that same thought and fear.

I'm probably odd because I wouldn't have an issue sharing my screen name with my T.

Yep tatse yummy.

I think I'd like to get to a mindset like that someday. Not that I have anything to really hide, but at this point it'd just be uncomfortable having my T read and possibly "analyze" what I write here. Logical me realizes she's probably WAY too busy in her own life to be sifting through posts on a random therapy message board; nutjob emotional me is the paranoid one!

The way I see it, I have nothing to hide from T. So, I see no reason to worry.

I've shared many journal entries and there's nothing I won't talk about. Some things are harder to verbalize, but they eventually come out.

Sigh. I'm working on getting there. Glad someone's got it figured out! *bows to catonyx*

Hah. Please don't. I have many insecurities. This just isn't one of them. lol

I need some more parenting advice. We are co-parenting and my eldest, 14, doesn't want to spend every 2nd fortnight with her dad but agreed to it because her father looked so forlorn. (a tactic). Should I tell her father this or do you think she mention it? They discuss just about everything else quite well.

1991= The Gulf War and the breakup of the Soviet Union

I am SUPER stressed out right now. I haven't been this stressed for almost a year. I've been doing so well- facing everything with a chill attitude but I almost threw up today from the stress. It's been less than a week since I tried to commit suicide and I still can't catch a break.

First and foremost, the thing I'm most stressed about is housing. Thanks to a "friend" who screwed me over last minute by spontaneously changing her mind about rooming with me (and took the other 2 roommates with her), I'm left to scramble to look for a place on my own since it's so late in the year that everyone else (including all my other friends) have signed a lease for the next school year already. My biggest trigger for depression is loneliness- I can barely stand being by myself so I don't know how this is going to work out. Not to mention, I'm too scarred from my roommate experience in the beginning of the year to room with a stranger so I'm stuck with expensive alternatives. I've done three months work of searching and decision making in one day. Once I do find a place, I'm going to have to go through the stress of subletting for the 4 months that I'm not here in the summer. I don't even know if I will be successful considering how many other people are subletting and they've already got a leg up on me.

So my final exam schedule absolutely sucks and I have 4/5 of them in 3 consecutive days. These finals are going to account for a lot- one of them 100%- and I really need to do well to boost up my marks in the classes and my GPA. As if studying for these hardass exams weren't hard enough, I have a friend visiting the week RIGHT before my exams. I can't say no because she's a friend from another country and this may be our only reunion and she can't visit another week since her schedule is packed and very specifically planned. And being that we're legal here, of course I have to take her clubbing and all- but exams!! So to make up for it, I obviously have to start studying earlier- aka now but no, I still have the housing situation to figure out.

In the mist of this, I'm second guessing some of my friendships due to the events leading up to my .... And as if it wasn't tough enough, I have a poisonous infatuation that I have yet to get over and everytime I see this crush, I'm in more pain and obsession. I know this crush has nothing to do with the girl but rather with me wanting what I can't have in order to prove that I can be good enough, but I just can't shake it off! It's been 5 months and it hasn't gotten any better- it's just so unhealthy!

At least this summer I'll be travelling. Unfortunately, I'll be visiting conservative relatives which means I'll have to hide my sexuality for a month and a half. Not to mention, they're going to see my tattoo and who knows how they'll react. I also won't have my escape and distractors- clubbing and drinking so I'll really have to come face to face with stuff I'm working on in therapy. It's going to be tough. Especially since I'm in a place where I really need to be myself and explore but I clearly can't do that since I will need to put on a facade visiting relatives that I haven't seen for ages.

Everything's just so exhausting and I'm so tired of getting the short end of the stick. When will I be the lucky one? I fought through hell to stay alive, just to continue fighting through hell. It's just so hard.

It comes up here every so often - it concerns some people more than others.
I doubt the woman would recognize me if she came here - which I seriously do not think she does, but since I have told her the stuff I say on here already it is of no concern for me.

I'm glad you said she because, in addition to my usual guilt, in this case about being the carrier, I imagined that you said that because of my stuffed manatee. I started worrying about you coming through the waiting room after your session and figuring out who that middle-aged woman with a buzz cut, possibly near tears, tensely clinging to a stuffed manatee was.

Whew! Dodged that bullet. If it was the same T, though, I can't imagine him reading my stuff except maybe once, much less all those other usernames.

It's definitely not you! Although I did consider posting a link to Calming Manatee when I read your manatee post. This gets set off more by how other members describe their T's technique and use of language (and it's only happened 2-3x since I started reading/posting here, and it's never been the same forum member more than once).