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So I thought I'd share one of the poems I started recently and scratched out. It was going to be a sonnet. Might still finish it. "Sonnet on the Therapeutic Relationship" lol
'Professional collaboration' yes but masquerading like it's personal because the work is so relational. Perpetual confusion at it's best. Does it work? It's anybody's guess. |
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#627
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Dare I bore y'all with the other sonnet I started and scratched out? This one is about therapy too, of course. That's how come I scratched them both out. Ha!
I watch you, so serene, sitting there. You're beautiful, you know, listening intently while I talk. A small thing really, but also very rare. |
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I really like this one Art. In my last session T was asking me to imagine that he was my friend instead of my T. I was blocking myself again, mostly because of this. I don't want to indulge too much in imagining him as a friend. It really f-ing hurts. But, at the same time, the masquerade is the work... So... Yeah... It does work, I think, if you can handle the bloody pain...
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Just got home from t. I read both of those poem snippets to her. She kinda seemed a little, well, almost offended about my use of the word "masquerade"! I think she felt like I was saying she's fake. I told her I was not being accusatory to anyone and tried to explain what I meant, but I wasn't doing a very good job of it so JS, then I told her what you said about "the masquerade is the work" and she sorta got my meaning a little more then. We had a good session. At the very end, I handed her one of the other poems I wrote, the one that was about ending.... not one I shared here.... and she read it while I got out my hsa card and she said "it doesn't have to end, you know" and then she ran my card through her card reader thingy on her phone and I could barely sign because my hands were shaking. Meh. On the way home, I pulled over and texted her "Oh the feels when you were reading that poem!!" and she replied "Hmm." I hated that response of course. So I replied "I'm good. Laughing at myself, but good. I'll leave it alone now." and she replied with a little flower emoji. I'm SO lame!! (edited to change that last period to a couple exclamation points for effect! Because I am! Lame!) Edited again to add: what the hell does "Hmm." mean anyway?!
goddess help me, I love that woman. Last edited by Anonymous43207; Apr 16, 2016 at 02:45 PM. |
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I think hmm is the vocal equivalent of the ellipsis... I've been thinking about masquerade all day - to the detriment of all the work I need to get done ![]() ... I think therapy is like a face off between masquerade and drama. Maybe. Wanting the safety of the mask, but needing the visceral realness of the drama. Sigh, I love my T too, but... I'm longing for the day when I'll have people close to me that I can love in the same way, without the limits of the therapeutic relationship. Of course, real life will have its own limits... But... Sigh... I'll get there, but in the meantime I'm just really, really lonely.
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JS, I'm sorry you're lonely. You know, we really need to meet for lunch or something one of these days. Every time I'm up your way, h is with me and it's not the right time. I think I need a girl's day!! |
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#634
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Reading an article about Jung's idea of the process of individuation. This is by a Martin Schmidt:
"in his autobiography (1961), Jung presents us with a conundrum when he also states that the goal of individuation is detachment from emotional relationships. Emotional relationships he defines as tethered because they are relationships of desire with expectations of others. He recommends that in order to attain objectivity and selfhood, one needs to withdraw the projections inherent in emotional ties to others. In this light, analysis could be seen as the playing out of emotional relationships between analyst and patient with a view to facilitating the reintrojection of projections in the resolution of the transference/countertransference. Jung implies this when he describes the transference phenomenon as, without doubt, one of the most important syndromes in the process of individuation." This hurts my head haha but I guess is what my t was talking about this morning when she said it's not a masquerade, but it's my projections. Maybe. I don't know. Interesting though. |
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But, what is so wrong with saying therapy is like masquerade? I really think the analogy to theatre would be helpful -- one can forget at times that one is watching theater in the most brilliant performances (and the finest actors do tap into very real parts of themselves to make that happen) but at the end of the day it is theater (which of course like all art can and does inform and enrich life).
I wonder why T's (in general) go a little bit nuts when this is pointed out -- I think everyone all around would be better served if this was fully acknowledged and then everything was built on such acknowledgment. I don't think it'll worsen the quality of the work -- in fact, I think that kind of honesty and authenticity is what will make it so very powerful. And conversely, I think the refusal to acknowledge the massive amount of play-acting is what leads to so much anxiety and confusion. P.S. Don't mind me if this seems off -- am a bit grumpy with my T now for harping on about the 'relationship' being real which is leading to further navel-gazing. |
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I need to stop wanting to reach out to other people. I need to stop wanting to love other people. If therapy canot teach me those things, what good is it?
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That'd be lovely Art. I can't go too far or for too long without kids in tow. If you know you're going to be up this way let me know and I'll make sure I have some free time ![]() That's the downside of being a divorced parent of young kids. Being parent-on-point at all times gets like that. You don't realize how much you rely on a partner for support, even if he is a ****** paperweight of a parent (as my T says ![]() ![]() Don't ask me how many times I've sat down in T's office and asked him if I could just take a nap... I never do, but the desire is still there.
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I dunno Crocus, I think wanting to love other people is pretty normal, if anything can be described as normal... Very human at any rate.
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On a less whiny note, next week I'll tell T that I want to go back to speaking English in session. We switched languages a few months ago and it's working okay but I want to do some stuff that I think I need to do in English. I don't believe he'll have a problem with it and it has to be my decision anyway. I rather look forward to it.
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Absolutely, I don't deny that at all.
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Destination: Curmudgeon. Thanks Artie - great quote. I dont feel so bad for enjoying my solitude now. |
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It's the idea of 'hiding' and 'pretending' they don't like. Early on in my therapy I accused my T (in a playful way) of acting. I apologized for that recently, because at the time I did mean it as an insult. But it *is* a drama... Like you say, theatre is an art, and it is not about hiding or pretending. The opposite I would say...
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Anyway I think I'm going to keep working on that particular poem, and try to come up with a word that matches how I feel a little more closely than "masquarade" does. I showed her that I'd scribbled what I'd written out... so that should have been evidence that it was exactly what I was trying to say. I think you're right JS that the use of that word gave the impression that I thought she was pretending.
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#646
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Therapy is embedding genuine feelings in an artificial relationship. Maybe? (artificial in the sense of not-natural like Art said)
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I don't know if artificial is the best word either, but yeah. Maybe 'synthesized relationship'...
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I don't find the therapy relationship "artificial." It is always been a completely genuine relationship. I think it is a unique relationship with a very specific purpose (but all relationships have very specific, unique purposes), but that doesn't make it any less genuine or an act or a masquerade. I can understand why a therapist would be offended with an accusation that their caring for a client is just an act or a masquerade; it devalues the work they do and I have found all of my therapists to be professionally emotionally invested in my well-being -- that wasn't an act.
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I think the caring *is* genuine (at least in the best therapeutic relationships). The artificiality comes in the structure and limits put on the relationship by the nature of therapy.
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Well, the therapeutic relationship is one that is carefully constructed - synthesized, by both parties, and real life dramas are acted out in microcosm. It is much more than 'just' an act, but it *is* a drama that happens within a confined time and space.
Now the repercussions of that drama are far-reaching, but the drama itself is contained...
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