The Couch 120: The Missing Element

I have not been trained as an oculist, but a friend of mine who is / was fatter than me, blew his eyeballs out on one. I warned him but he didnt listen. Okay technically he got some eye disease issue where he couldnt see at night at first. But you know me, i always think im right!

Then how will i know when to laugh??!

Spoke to my dad. I have never heard him sound so weak. Apparently he fell in the bathroom this morning. Mom got a neighbor to help get him up. I spoke to my sister and made a few suggestions that might help a bit. They probably need to get him a walker while he is recuperating. The doctors said it would take about two days for every one day he was in the hospital to feel back up to strength, so in the meantime he may need that physical support to help stabilize him when he's getting up and down and walking. She also said they are having trouble getting him to eat and drink enough which is probably one of the reasons he is so weak at this point. He kind of gags on straight water, so I suggested maybe some crystal light tea or lemonade; the taste would be more palatable but it is sugar-free so it won't mess up his system. As far as eating goes, I know my dad and he loves chocolate and ice cream. I suggested some Boost or Ensure maybe even made into a shake with some sugar-free ice cream as a start. That's what my brother-in-law and I resorted to with my sister when she couldn't get herself to eat. It was a start. Sis texted me back and apparently he liked those ideas so they are working on it. I think my sister is going to sleep at their house for a few nights until he has more strength back because Mom certainly can't handle getting Dad up and down on her own. Wish I could be down there helping.

Its not that . it's that 1. She won't even see my message til tomorrow because she never looks at her phone at night and
2. Not sure if I want/deserve help.

I've decided

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That trying to starve myself or whatever is pointless. Between my mito and my long history of eating disorder behavior I get sick way before I get thin.

So the only solution to my worthlessness and disgusting body is suicide.

If I am going to go that route, therapy is an impediment

So....maybe I should just quit trying.

I'm no good at therapy any way

((BB))

BayBrony I struggle with the thought that I don't deserve support also. Just a gentle hug if you need one. The Couchies will stand by you!

BB, I have not even met you in person and I think you are amazing and awesome. You would leave a multitude of people devastated. Please call your T or tell your spouse that you need help. Stay safe, please.

I'm safe.can't leave my wife without life insurance to pay off all our debt. So gotta make it look like an accident and my only workable plan for that requires winter.

BayBrony, I'm sorry you are suffering so much. I don't really know anything about horses, but I'm willing to bet that they wouldn't let you work with them if they weren't okay with your physical self / energy / demeanor / behavior. So that "disgusting body" as you put it helps you take care of animals, which is a wonderful thing. (Me, I don't even like to be around animals bigger than me and I think maybe they can tell. ) I hope you feel better soon.

Peaty won the breaststroke - I am glad for him. Sorry he now has to endure idiotic questions from the broadcasters.
I muted it because I find it actually painful to listen to them ask/make such stupid questions/comments

Wow - and Ledecky was just amazing. And if she decks the interview woman with the green shirt on - I would cheer even more

BB - is it at all possible that even leaving the message for the therapist might help some?

Chris - sorry to hear he is having such a difficult time with it. We just had a week or so of ensure, jello, and egg custard. And on a really good day - broth. Good that your sister can stay with them a bit.

Bay, you're not worthless. You are a lovely person who has been made to feel a deep sense of worthlessness by very cruel people.

I didn't think it was possible, but future ex just made everything worse.

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That bastard.
Sorry to hear.

"if i had a hammer..."

It is one of the many reasons I would never own a gun.

*passes over the one I'm using on the Hemnes*

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butterscotch corn flakes are fantastic but the butterscotch is starting set hard but till delish.

Bay, I hope you are able to reach your t soon if you haven't already. I'm sending you safe, gentle hugs and want to also say that you are an awesome person and I value knowing you here on PC. Stay safe, friend.

Hi, couch. I'm here.

We missed ya! Me and the frog in my pocket. People always complain when i say "we"...

People always look at me strange when "we" slips out so I have a mouse I carry around.... hehe

Hi couch,

Feeling a lack of support. Some of my support system is away. But at least I have you guys.

hi 88Butterfly..

Hope your day has improved butterfly!!!

Turns out I really have driven away my best friend. Show of hands, all who are surprised?

No, I didn't think so.

It has taught me a valuable lesson, though. I hope I can live by it.