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#476
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A long time ago t and I were talking about hugs or touches or something and he said being touched is a basic human need.. or some thing along that lines. At the time I didn't believe him..
Now, I get cuddles from my kids and that is it. Now, I fantasize about getting hugs from different people, t, friends, my mom.. people like that. I starting to believe what t said.. because I generally don't like to be touched, but I can't stop thinking about hugs, and cuddles, and spooning.. eeewwww.
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"You decide every moment of every day who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance, every second." "You fail to recognize that it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be!" - J.K. Rowling. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. |
![]() LonesomeTonight, unaluna
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#477
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I enjoyed watching Wonder Woman, and I'm a complete newbie to anything DC. Had only heard of WW, seen a few pictures but didn't know a thing about her story.
Catching up on the couch now, wow 40+ pages to go ![]() |
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#478
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Just wanting to send you hearts.
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#479
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Drug indiced sleep I am waiting on. Duchess might have went to bed eay. I don't eadnt to wake up
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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#480
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I make people's lives too hard and cause pain and trouble and they deserve better. R
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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![]() atisketatasket, Elio, LonesomeTonight, unaluna
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#481
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You are doing the best you can with what you were given. It's enough. it will get better in time. This is what happens when young children get sh** on. All these affects of complex trauma. For now whatever you are whatever you have, is enough and you are forgiven for EVERYTHING. Hang in there. From a fellow multiple diagnoses DID trauma survivor. |
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![]() Elio, Ellahmae, lucozader, naenin, skeksi, unaluna
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#482
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Catching up still, reading every post. So much I want to say but I'm pages and pages behind.
Hugs to any who want them <3 |
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#483
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So I learned T sees someone I know. Still gutted over finding out, especially as I do know that person has lots of trauma and deserves T more than me and is also a really nice person offline and online.
I'm still sure she matters more to T or will come to matter more to T. Yes there's LOTS of private practice therapists with similar or better skill sets than T (who is in the public health system), are more flexible, have better hours, can offer more support, are more experienced...but I'm attached to T as a person. |
![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, skeksi, unaluna
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#484
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#485
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I'm glad you're doing what feels right for you. I hope you know it isn't ALWAYS your fault -- your T has her parts to own too, and can she do that? |
![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, unaluna
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#486
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You've us! |
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#487
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I had friends who said they cared but couldn't validate my pain. They only wanted me to perform happiness and mock me and insult me. They said I'm attention seeking, whining, have a great life with no real problems. One was a trained nurse who gave me direct, clear instructions to kill myself. Please believe me that people on the couch here care when you're unhappy and hurting too. |
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#488
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#489
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When I move away from my parents and brothers, I want nothing to do with the brother who traumatised me. |
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#490
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Agree so much with Amyjay regarding trauma.
Hugs Ellahmae should you want them. |
![]() Amyjay, Elio, unaluna
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#491
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Err, sorry for the string of posts from me! I started quoting posts towards the end because I felt maybe they weren't too far back.
I had a lot of older posts I wanted to respond to as well but am afraid I'd accidentally dredge up painful feelings for people again. So I left lots of thanks (Tapatalk app can't hug), please take them as hugs, nods, waves. Beverages of choice too whether cold brewed , hot or iced |
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#492
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QM, don't be sorry for your posts. I admire how supportive you are.
You never igonore anyone, you give everyone support and attention. I'm starting to think you're a super-hero! |
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#493
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I can't deal with this reality. It's too difficult.
Even showering or washing dishes is too difficult. Even walking. Even waking up. But i have to WORK, i have to talk with people, i have to pretend like i care. I don't think i'm bad because of that. I'm who i am. But it's TOO difficult to live here. Here - i mean in this reality. Everything is strange and everyone are weird. I don't know what to do. I don't want to change. I just want to find my home. |
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#494
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And oi if I'm a superhero, y'all are my superhero squad!! (I'm still stoked over Wonder Woman!) I've gotten so much support here and often even if I'm.not posting, I read and LOVE how the couch is so supportive. ((Hug)) I mean this. And I'm hiding on the couch because I got a subordinate in trouble when I intended to help him. Eta: I'm trying to accept your kind words captgut. Because um I was always told I'm selfish, mean by my Parental Units...T even said I wronged her and I hurt her and others close to me... *hides* |
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#495
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![]() atisketatasket, captgut, unaluna
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#496
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#497
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You are amazing. I didn't know there was a word for that, thank you so much. I hope your subordinate wasn't in too much trouble.
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#498
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Never heard! Thank you, interesting
![]() But i don't think i'm depressed. I mean - i feel sad, but i'm not ill. Im just in the wrong place.
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#499
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I dunno how much trouble he's in. (Let's call him K) My email was meant to get his team lead to assign folks to help K because he's overloaded and needs things offloaded so he can complete a time sensitive task from me.
I got MY boss to back me up because the team lead tends to ignore me. His team lead freaked because of my boss, asked K what's the bottle neck, then K called me thinking I was mad with him because his team lead also thought I'm mad with him. Had to explain several times that I wanted him to offload some work so my email was instructing his team lead to assign someone to help him. K is doing all the AV and IT setup for meetings and events in one of our company locations...which is a LOT which means important but tedious administrative stuff like updating of inventory lists gets delayed. He shouldn't be doing it all alone but he doesn't complain and just keeps apologising when it's really not his fault. |
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But I can empathize with wanting to be "home"... I've only felt the once during a spiritual trance ((Hug)) |
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