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Old Sep 16, 2017, 05:30 PM
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LT, I wouldn't see a need for all of them to communicate. You do a fine job of it on your own behalf.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 05:34 PM
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I went to the hardware store with my dog. When I came back out a while later, my driver's side door was wide open. I thought for sure someone had broken in, except that I have an alarm. The last I remembered before going inside the store was getting my dog out of the back seat and closing his door. I often leave mine open so that I can lock manually to prevent key fob code robbing, so all I can think is that I never did that and just got my dog and left my door wide open.

The thing is, nothing was taken, and I had things of some value in the car. And this is a store known to have aggressive car prowlers.

I am sick that I was so absent minded that I left the door open like that. I thought at first that someone could have at least closed it for me, but I think if I saw a car with an open door I would assume the owner was around somewhere.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 05:42 PM
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I think I need to grieve over not being able to find a job. But how?
Maybe by identifying the feelings this job hunt experience might be dredging up, fears, etc. Grieving is generally adapting to life after a loss of some kind. You could look at what kind of losses this experience has brought about for you and work out healthy ways to manage them. Sometimes it boils down to recognizing what you can't control about the situation and working on what you can control.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 06:30 PM
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This is going to sound stupid, but has anyone had the experience of hearing their name and it doesn't feel right? Like it might not be your name.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 06:31 PM
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So I'm seeing that new T Tuesday. Current/possibly soon to be former T had said she could talk to him to fill him in. And I assume MC would say the same, particularly because they all know each other. I understand why in some ways this could be helpful, just so he can get background info and stuff. But my instincts are saying to not allow them to talk to him. Partly because I'll be talking about them to him. But also so he can get a more unbiased opinion of me (and the situation). Does that make sense? I suspect he'll ask at the appointment...
I'm definitely with your instincts on this one. I feel like part of the problem for you with the way things are is the way the relationships are blurred and the connections that T and MC have with each other. I don't think they need to be further involved with new T. You can give him the background, and I'm sure he'd prefer to hear it from you anyway.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 06:51 PM
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Hi couch!!

I am finally back on the day shift--no more vampiredom! (well... until the next round of night shifts, that is...)
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 07:06 PM
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So my biggest fear about this NYC trip was freaking out in large crowds of people. So lo and behold H and I walked right into a street fair after dinner. Surprisingly I was 100% okay. Not even a little fazed. Maybe this trip will be okay...
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 07:38 PM
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I'm definitely with your instincts on this one. I feel like part of the problem for you with the way things are is the way the relationships are blurred and the connections that T and MC have with each other. I don't think they need to be further involved with new T. You can give him the background, and I'm sure he'd prefer to hear it from you anyway.
Thanks, Luco. I think you're right. I mean, if we reach some point where it does seem like it could be helpful for him to talk to T or MC, then we can cross that bridge at the time. I can always decide later to have him talk to one or both of them, but once he does, I can't undo it (well, I could revoke permission for him to talk to them, but he'd already know whatever they said). Honestly, when T was saying "I can talk to him if you want," it felt almost a little controlling...but then that might be the negative maternal transference...
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 07:39 PM
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LT, I wouldn't see a need for all of them to communicate. You do a fine job of it on your own behalf.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 07:40 PM
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This is going to sound stupid, but has anyone had the experience of hearing their name and it doesn't feel right? Like it might not be your name.
Yes, but I also have several names that I go by. The one I use the most is the one I am least connected to, so it almost always doesn't feel right. It's more like the label on a jar of me's.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 07:49 PM
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Thanks, Luco. I think you're right. I mean, if we reach some point where it does seem like it could be helpful for him to talk to T or MC, then we can cross that bridge at the time. I can always decide later to have him talk to one or both of them, but once he does, I can't undo it (well, I could revoke permission for him to talk to them, but he'd already know whatever they said). Honestly, when T was saying "I can talk to him if you want," it felt almost a little controlling...but then that might be the negative maternal transference...
If it were me, I would want fresh eyes on my situation, without the influence of perspectives that haven't been useful.

Just the other day, my therapist mentioned that she worked on her non-working day, but from home instead of the office and I suddenly imagined that she had another practice, like a secret menu item, so I asked her if she had another one and she said no, that she sometimes goes to meetings and things. I said what kind of meetings? And she said some of them are her consultation group. And that panicked me even more, thinking that she might be getting input on me from people who don't even know me so I asked if she ever brought me up and she said no (short version: it's not the kind of consultation group that works with people like me). Anyway, I hold privacy and confidentiality sacred and rarely see a need for mh types to exchange information, unless maybe if I were to move away and see a different t, which is not going to happen.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 08:20 PM
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This is going to sound stupid, but has anyone had the experience of hearing their name and it doesn't feel right? Like it might not be your name.
No - but it does sound most unsettling.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 08:31 PM
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This is going to sound stupid, but has anyone had the experience of hearing their name and it doesn't feel right? Like it might not be your name.
Yep. I also have the issue with my mirror reflection or photos sometimes. In my case it's a manifestation of dissociation--depersonalization.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 08:36 PM
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...but then that might be the negative maternal transference...
The next time you use the term transference in a post regarding either t or mc, you have to pay the couch kitty! I dont understand what youre saying is going on, and you attribute a LOT to it, and i dont think its serving you well.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 08:39 PM
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My name has NEVER been mine.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 08:47 PM
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My name has NEVER been mine.
Is it like mine and belongs to your mother? and the tormentors? as well as my right to be alive.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 08:51 PM
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Stupid multi-quote. Re the name thing I suspected this was a dissociation thing
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 09:16 PM
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The next time you use the term transference in a post regarding either t or mc, you have to pay the couch kitty! I dont understand what youre saying is going on, and you attribute a LOT to it, and i dont think its serving you well.
I'm thinking about this...and particularly in terms of T, I wonder if it's a way that I'm almost shifting the blame onto myself? When maybe some of it is something that T (or MC) is doing? With T, when I say something is negative maternal transference, maybe it isn't just that I'm projecting stuff from my mom onto her--maybe it's actually about what T is saying and doing. Like I'm feeling "It can't be T screwing up, it must be me!" But maybe it's not just me...

That's kind of like something I was telling MC in our last session when I was talking about telling T that I was going to try seeing someone else. I said that I was worried T would suggest that it was me, that I should try to work it out with her. Like I was the problem. MC of course commented on that. One thing he said was that it could be a goodness of fit issue. Like maybe T just isn't the right fit for me. (Which, incidentally, T has also said that my mom and I are a bad fit.)

But my natural reaction is to blame myself...to think I *should* be able to make it work with T because she's a good, experienced T. So if I can't make it work, it's my fault. Whether because of negative maternal transference or something else.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 09:19 PM
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This is going to sound stupid, but has anyone had the experience of hearing their name and it doesn't feel right? Like it might not be your name.
Yes - I've had this happen. It's upsetting. I try not to think about it. It just gets worse the more I think about it.
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Yep. I also have the issue with my mirror reflection or photos sometimes. In my case it's a manifestation of dissociation--depersonalization.
Yes, ditto with reflections and photos.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 09:21 PM
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So I'm seeing that new T Tuesday. Current/possibly soon to be former T had said she could talk to him to fill him in. And I assume MC would say the same, particularly because they all know each other. I understand why in some ways this could be helpful, just so he can get background info and stuff. But my instincts are saying to not allow them to talk to him. Partly because I'll be talking about them to him. But also so he can get a more unbiased opinion of me (and the situation). Does that make sense? I suspect he'll ask at the appointment...
I do not sign the forms that ts want you to sign so they can talk to one another. I prefer to give them the info that I want them to have, when I want them to have it.

It's partly a trust thing-I fear them making decisions without my input. It's partly because if I thought one of them was totally on the ball, why would I be seeing the second? And partly because it seems like giving them power; like I would let my GP talk to a specialist because GP knows some stuff I don't and might be able to help specialist rule out some things. But I don't think ts generally have that knowledge-and if they do, they should tell me and I will tell other ts.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 09:22 PM
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 09:22 PM
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So I'm seeing that new T Tuesday. Current/possibly soon to be former T had said she could talk to him to fill him in. And I assume MC would say the same, particularly because they all know each other. I understand why in some ways this could be helpful, just so he can get background info and stuff. But my instincts are saying to not allow them to talk to him. Partly because I'll be talking about them to him. But also so he can get a more unbiased opinion of me (and the situation). Does that make sense? I suspect he'll ask at the appointment...
I agree, start fresh and let him get the information from you. It will be part of the building trust part of the relationship.
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Old Sep 16, 2017, 09:26 PM
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The next time you use the term transference in a post regarding either t or mc, you have to pay the couch kitty! I dont understand what youre saying is going on, and you attribute a LOT to it, and i dont think its serving you well.
And OK, with MC, I tend to attribute stuff to paternal transference. But maybe some of it is just...I like him as a T and as a person (what I know of him, at least--though he does share quite a bit). Maybe it's not just about him tapping into childhood needs. Maybe it's partly him making me feel good and cared for as I am now...
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