Couch 157: Fair Value

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Squatter sounds cool...I would play the heck out of that.

Tomorrow morning...I just have to get to tomorrow morning. Then I will have answers, or empathy, or something...something to quell the mix of feelings rising in me.

What was that game called where dice were under a plastic bubble in the middle that you pushed down on to "roll" them then moved little colored thingies around the board and could send people back and stuff? I loved that game.

I used to like Othello too. And Chinese checkers.

Trouble I have it in my cupboard. My teenagers won't let throw any games or DVDs away so I have magic school bus and Dors dvds

What's Othello?

I gre up n sheep country I hate sheep mobile rocks, brains kind of rocks, they start mass panics. We had a dairy farm about an hour away. I love cows

Talked with T for an hour. Feeling a bit better

My house smells like roasting pumpkin and oatmeal honey bread. I've got pumpkin seeds in salt water for roasting tonight.

Thanksgiving tomorrow. My sisters and mom and I (and our families) do potluck Thanksgiving, so I am making pumpkin pies as soon as the pumpkin is roasted and cooled, sweet potatoes, Brussels sprouts. My oldest son is making pumpkin cheesecake.

Othello Game - Play Othello online

I'm trying valiantly not to be stressed this Thanksgiving. I'm always missing mama and daddy, and my sister is going to her husband's family on Thursday so we will see each other Friday instead. My older daughter is going to her boyfriend's family and then working at 5 pm (at Walmart bless her) so it's just me and the little. We will watch movies and eat her choices (probably chicken nuggets and fries or something like that ew) and be totally content. Why do I feel like I'm being excluded when I'm actually excluding myself? Ah ignore my weird mood and have a good holiday couchies.

I was hoping that I could be happy this Thanksgiving, but I'm so sad.

Apple pie done, pumpkin pie done, pecan pie in the oven. The food is the only thing I am looking forward to tomorrow!

The stomach flu has hit my bil/sil house. One nephew had it on Monday, the other kid today. I am really hoping they stay home tomorrow!!

H and I are heading over to friend's house for the evening, armed with the gooey butter cake I made last night and a bottle of wine!

I hope Thanksgiving is a good day and not triggering for everyone.

Ugh, they need to stay away! They stay contagious for longer than a day... If they don't--lots of hand-washing!!!

Hope you have a tasty Thanksgiving!

I'll be making cranberries for my family's Thanksgiving tomorrow morning. Seriously, it's so easy, just throwing cranberries, water, orange zest, orange juice, brown sugar, and a cinnamon stick into a pot, then letting them boil for an hour, checking on it occasionally. Tip: If anyone asks you to bring a dish, volunteer to do that! Easy, and makes the house smell amazing...

Wish I'd been able to see T2 today for pre-Thanksgiving therapy. But he hurt his back last night and had to get it checked out today, so I'll be seeing him Friday instead (I do really appreciate him rescheduling till then--hopefully it's not so badly injured that he'll have to cancel again...). Reacted mostly OK to that at first, but then this afternoon had a bit of a meltdown with H, since I'd expected to have an hour of "me" time today to basically unload on T2, especially with D being off school (and having half day the past two days, plus having a guy come out to fix our dryer yesterday....). So H was OK with me going to a local (5 minutes away) taproom (beer) for an hour, then he and D joined us, then went to an early dinner.

And now D just lost one of her teeth and got really upset about it (it was loose, she just knocked into it with her knee by accident). She got over it in a bit, but still stressful. I just want to curl up in a ball...

I have friends over every year - we have done it for about the last 20or so years with only one break that I can remember when I went to be with my dad right after my mom had died. I make the turkey, dressing and other vegetable dishes I like, friends bring whatever they want, and some of them go off to their family later in the day or are coming from a family breakfast - basically we have a middle of the day respite from families while eating some turkey - which I don't even really like - so I will send the leftovers home with others.

I was hoping to feel happier, but no. I hate marriage counseling. I wish I could just hibernate at home for Thanksgiving. I'm sure that once I'm there, I will feel better and I will feel happy. I will fake it 'til I make it. I forgot I'm in charge of a side... I guess I'd better go to the store.

I'm at my sister's house and having a good time. Not too terribly many people coming tomorrow so I think it'll be okay.

I was planning to just sleep in (which seems like a real luxury right now, given my insomnia and work) and catch up on work over the holiday, instead of meeting folks.

But, current T oddly and rather unexpectedly got super concerned and expressly asked a while ago as to what I'd be doing over the holiday -- I told her nothing, really.

Then, after that session, I started wondering if I was being too much of an oddball (even by my standards) in refusing to meet people over the holiday -- since there's no cultural significance for me, I quite enjoy the quiet time and treat it as a proper vacation.

So, have ended up accepting a friend's invitation to hang out with his family (which I've done before and it's fun) but I found myself complaining about not having down time to current T and she asked me if I was feeling resentful....and ugh, I guess I am.....at her as well for bringing it up in the first place (a part of me wonders if she believes somehow that everyone, regardless of how they feel should hang out with other people just because it's the norm; and worse still, if I let her stuff influence me to the point of making decisions that I really didn't want to make; or well, if per usual, I'm over-thinking all this and I should just go and eat and drink a lot and that's it).

I'm just feeling so completely exhausted and burnt out that hanging out with a whole bunch of (even perfectly nice) people feels like it'll need way more energy than I have.

At the same time, can't really complain -- I am rather glad that I have people who put up with my crap for so long and still want me around etc.

I have secured mashed potatoes and pumpkin pie. I have two yoga classes scheduled tomorrow morning, then a gym workout. And then home to graze/nap/putter about doing low-key things that need to be done/read the latest Dan Brown (no judging!).

My plan to spend the entire five days in workout clothes and pajamas, exhaust myself with exercise, and read trash is going excellently so far.

Just.....

Kidding -- that sounds like a pretty awesome plan!

(((Awk))) yeah, i just got invited today to a sunday appetizers and dessert party, by people i turned down a few times recently when i was in a mood. T will be effin thrilled. But until sunday, im on a boat!

Eta - @@ - we're on the same boat!

For those following my story, I got an on the fence green light for next surgery as infection seems to be gone and now the incision just needs to finish healing.

Surgery date Dec 1.

Not this boat, I hope...