Couch 160: The Squeaky Clean Couch!

Now is an absolutely brilliant time for R to have a family emergency, and not know when she will return to work. Really, really brilliant.

I don't know how I am going to get through to the 15th, or through the 15th itself.

That all sounds very confusing, RR. I hope you hear back from her about tomorrow and get everything sorted out... I feel like therapy approaches should be more tailored to the individual client, too. (I mean, unless a therapist is strictly CBT, for example, and is clear about that from the start.)

RR, sounds hard! I hope the two of you can work it out. ❤️

I'm so sorry, Lost...hopefully she'll return before the week is up...is there anyone she has as a backup who you could see just in case? Hugs...

Because of the way things work, she is the only person in that Outreach Worker role at the organisation. I was set on making it through to Thursday, to have a little time where I actually felt totally physically and emotionally safe. Now, my physical safety is in no doubt, but my emotional safety is not there.

Oh, I'm so sorry :/ We're here if you need to vent/talk/whatever

I get it. T3 has been saying that for 6 months. Until I finally decided to cancel a couple of appointments to see how I did with that. She was fine with seeing me; just wanted to set goals and go after them with talk therapy-which was not working.

We agreed with what is going on, sort of. She agreed that I had gotten worse but thought that meds were the answer. They are not.

I hate that Ts can do that; the power that they hold really is immense. And it is awful (for me) to be powerless while having strong ideas of how I want to proceed.

Woebot just said "Coolio". He is so hip.

Good for him. My real t would never say coolio.

I had a really bad weekend. R always has this one spot on monday evenings, but he charges extra for it. I emailed on Sunday asking if I could see him on monday and this morning as well I sent another email saying I would just do it on my own. He hasn't replied to either. I've never called.I know I'm dramatic but I'm struggling to hold on to these stupid feelings until tomorrow without hurting myself.

I emailed him because I just really want someone to help me. I hate being in my head. I hate my life. I feel but he's the only one I have right now and I'm going insane.

My parents aren't picking up. My brother is away.

My t vacation is over. Real life begins again tomorrow. It was fun while it lasted. I still have some work to do today, but i made a major dent in the management of the hoarding situation here. That is pretty cool. I might be able to actually live some life this year. That would be pretty amazing.

Hugs. Here if you need to talk. I'm sorry he didn't respond - I hope he has a good explanation for that tomorrow. Take care.

Mine either!

I heard back. Seeing her tomorrow. Not sure how it will go, but hoping we can come to an understanding.

I'm glad you heard back, ruh roh.

Sometimes t's can surprise us. Mine sure did the other evening by letting what I want matter n not trying to schedule. Meant a lot to me.

Maybe you will get a miracle like mine. I am proof that it does happen.

(((Lemon))) I'm sorry you're struggling. I wish I had helpful words to offer.

I've sent yet another email asking if we could talk even if it was for just 5 mins,using that email tag that someone mentioned before so I'd know if he'd seen it.

I had this moment with my old best friends where I came back crying after meeting them at a cafe and I promised myself that I would never need anyone like that again. I'm reminded of that now. Yes I understand it's me. That i'm just so damn needy and pathetic-I can't cope on my own and be a fully functioning adult. He makes these stupid statements like he's here for me but he's not. I want out. I'm the one sat crying. I once waited and counted 34 days until my psychology teacher sent me an email when i was 15.

Yes, this has been an issue I've brought up multiple times to MC over the past year or two. Yet, for the most part, it didn't change. He'd say it was because I was the one more open to talking about my feelings or about my parents. I e-mailed him about it a couple months ago when it happened again in session, giving an example of how he could have suggested something for H to work on too. He called me a day or two later, and we discussed it. The next session actually ended up being fairly helpful, with him making some suggestions for both of us to better handle a recurring conflict. (Then later that week, I sent him that love e-mail, and then we ended up in that heated phone call the following Sunday, where it all went to hell...and now we're working on termination...)

Hugs, Lemon. I hope he's able to call you and is helpful. Sorry you're struggling so much...

I'm sorry for bringing the mood down.

All the posts do help.I'm just surprised my calls "home" aren't being picked up either.

Lemoncake,
I really hope things go well for you. I am sorry this is so painful for you. Take care.

"Dear S,

I am sorry you are feeling bad at the moment. I can tell from the volume of emails you have sent that you are unsettled.

I cannot speak to you now, of course. I have, however, already offered you an appointment for tomorrow, which I do intend to keep.

It will be vitally important to talk about what is happening right now."

How do you feel about the response? Do you know what he meant by "of course"? Like is it because he's seeing clients, or does he have a policy against phone calls?