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#126
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Dear T....
I wanted to do CBT, you discouraged it. I do not think you are able to help me anymore. I make zero progress. If you cannot give me tools to help me, why do I just come there to complain about the same things.
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777palmtree Diagnoses-major depressive disorder, complex PTSD, GAD |
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#127
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I hope you still have that 11am today but prob not. It's ok though .
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#128
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You're not bothering us! We're all here to talk about things and get support.
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#129
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![]() Anonymous45127, LonesomeTonight, RaineD, SalingerEsme
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#130
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I ****ing despise who I am and my stupid need for reassurance. I dont have a ****ing clue on how to be a human being. I am constantly being onslaughted about doubts about myself manifesting in the need for reassurance. I hate who I am yey I keep letting down my hypervigilance. My emotions are nothing less than agents , weapons of mass destruction. This is ****ing hopeless. I have never been a viable human. This is just to much, way, way too much. Oh, let me put on the mask and go to work because I dont matter, at least not to myself. I feel like crying hysterically and then giving up. I CANT do this. But what else is there?
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![]() ElectricManatee, LonesomeTonight, NativeSky
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#131
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Possible trigger:
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![]() captgut, growlycat, LonesomeTonight, mostlylurking, ruh roh, SoConfused623, WarmFuzzySocks
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#132
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I am sorry for the dumb email, your response was dumber yet but I'm gonna ignore it and just bask in the awesomeness of last night's session.
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![]() growlycat, LonesomeTonight, mostlylurking, SummerTime12
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#133
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Just seeing you on the screen...man. we need to talk more about the whole love and therapeutic purpose thing.
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![]() growlycat, LonesomeTonight
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#134
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t, i hope you're ok and that you were just there for routine labs this morning. i'm sure we'll talk about it tomorrow, since we've never run into each other in public before.
Last edited by Anonymous43207; Feb 28, 2018 at 06:24 PM. |
![]() growlycat, LonesomeTonight
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#135
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So, now, after feeling much better and somewhat resolved, I feel embarrassment and shame in thinking about what a horrible dynamic I was acting out with said person we talked about. I am so ashamed
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#136
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t, see, stuff like running into you this morning. i want to care about you. because you've meant so much to me. it's hard. let's talk about this tomorrow k?
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![]() growlycat, LonesomeTonight, NP_Complete
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#137
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Oh. So you're trying to show me that I can behave like an asshole or a bratty child if I need to and you will still be there to help me? Why am I starting to believe you actually know what you're doing? And that you actually give a smidge of a crap about me?
I see what you're doing. It might be working. So....thank you. |
![]() atisketatasket, growlycat, LonesomeTonight, NP_Complete
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#138
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I would be seeing you today, but my slot was taken, so... see you Tuesday?
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![]() growlycat, LonesomeTonight, mostlylurking, NP_Complete, SummerTime12, WarmFuzzySocks
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#139
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T,
Today was another horrible day. I cried on the bus home because I just wanted to go home (like, HOME home) so badly. But I (finally) was able to get in touch with pdoc today. He is upping my dose of lamictal and refilling my xanax prescription (what I'm on here in Ecuador SUCKS), which my sister will bring me next week when she visits. I really really hope it helps. If I keep feeling like this I just don't think I can hold on much longer. Still miss you (duh). Hope you're well. Annie
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#140
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Gah...I want to sleep for the next two days, and then go back to sleep after Saturday to get me through 'til next session. The nights are hell, but you know that. ****ing inclement weather.
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'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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#141
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So someone just came into your cabinet... Someone who took my slot.
Have a good session, stranger. Have a good session, T. Enjoy this hour... without me. |
![]() Anastasia~, AnnaBegins, growlycat, LonesomeTonight, NP_Complete, WarmFuzzySocks
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#142
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Wow, that really sucks, I'd be furious
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#143
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I miiiiiiiiiiiiiisss yoooooooooou
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![]() Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight
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#144
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in 11 hours we'll already be talking. i didn't know how much i was looking forward to this until i saw you yesterday at the dr's office.
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![]() Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight
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#145
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Days such as this, I would like to sleep through...but my brain won't let me. Replay, every night.
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'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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#146
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Good luck with your class today! You got this
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#147
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How to keep a connection, maybe that's what I need to work on.
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![]() Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, LostOnTheTrail
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#148
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You are SO adorable
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“If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. ... We need not wait to see what others do.” Gandhi |
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#149
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Yes t, I do realize how pathetic I am.
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![]() Anastasia~, Anonymous52723, LonesomeTonight, unaluna
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#150
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Dude, i get my blood drawn every 3 months cuz i take meds for cholesterol and blood pressire and diabetes. Have been doing for the past 30 plus years. Im surprised you havent run into ME at the blood draw!
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