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#251
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T,
You know I'll be taking a life-defining exam tomorrow. We've been talking about it for the last few months. I wish you would send me a message wishing me luck.... just to show you care... But I can't expect you to remember me on a Sunday, right? Only during 'office hours'. |
![]() Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SalingerEsme, SlumberKitty
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#252
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Full grown adult here. So why do I feel sick to my stomach anxious about seeing you this week?
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![]() Echos Myron redux, Lemoncake, NativeSky, SalingerEsme, SlumberKitty
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#253
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You can definitely get it for free at Planned Parenthood. They give free birth control too.
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![]() SalingerEsme
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#254
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Would you consider asking your T to help/go with you to Planned Parenthood to get it?
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Living things don’t all require/ light in the same degree. Louise Gluck |
#255
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Miss you so much it hurts
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![]() Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#256
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I see you tomorrow. But I really want to see you today. AND tomorrow. and the next day.
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![]() LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#257
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I don't want to see you anymore.
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![]() ElectricManatee, SlumberKitty, unaluna
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#258
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In my heart, I can feel your presence. Not all the time, but from time to time, I feel you near me. Last night, my friend randomly started playing that Metallica song on his guitar, and my heart knew it was a message from you. Did you see me cry outside your office earlier in the day? It was really pathetic, wasn't it?
My mind doubts, as always. But my heart knows. I know you are still around, and you check on me from time to time. I'm still sad anyway because I can't see you or talk to you or hug you. I miss you. |
![]() LonesomeTonight, NativeSky
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#259
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I wish I was one of the lucky people who could reach out on a weekend in a crisis but I can't.
Instead I'm sitting here, miserable as heck, although to be honest, you wouldn't care about any of this anyway.... I hope you are having a good weekend.
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Grief is the price you pay for love. |
![]() ElectricManatee, LonesomeTonight, Lrad123, SlumberKitty
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#260
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Last night I forced myself to call you. I felt bad leaving a message since your voicemail says to leave one if it's an emergency. It's not an emergency. I'm just sad and hurting - nothing new.
I appreciated that you texted that while you couldn't talk then you would've talked to me late that night, but I'm lame and go to bed by 9.30. I wish you'd call me today, since we couldn't talk yesterday. I can't make myself bother you again. Not when I have my usual appointment tomorrow... I don't know what I want from you anyway. I feel like a baby. Like a burden. |
![]() ElectricManatee, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#261
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i miiiiiissssssssssss yyyyyyyooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu aaaaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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![]() Anastasia~, Argonautomobile, chihirochild, Echos Myron redux, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, toomanycats, WarmFuzzySocks
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#262
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I’m sorry I texted you so much today. I just really want to talk to you.
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![]() Anastasia~, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#263
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I don't have an appointment for 4 more weeks. I really need an appointment. But I'm too scared to call and try to get in earlier. And even if I managed that, I'd be too scared to actually talk to you at the appointment...so why would I need an appointment? Eff.
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![]() Anastasia~, DP_2017, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#264
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when am I supposed to stop therapy? if bipolar is a chronic illness, I'm never truly "better," am I? so am I supposed to go for the rest of my life?
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stay afraid, but do it anyway. |
![]() Anastasia~, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#265
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You will have periods of being better. Yu will be able to take breaks from threat, and you will likely stabilize more as you get older.
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![]() Anastasia~
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#266
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Quote:
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#267
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Sooo. You aren't answering my texts now. I know they are stupid needy texts framed in a sceduling way just so you will see me. I hate that there is only you and push everyone else away.
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![]() Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#268
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I've got Session at 12. I hope them shelves have been dusted or there be consequences.
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#269
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The mask broke on Friday, and reconstructing it appears to be a slow process. Looking forward to Thursday afternoon.
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'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
![]() Anastasia~, LonesomeTonight
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#270
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idk what to do. Walmart doesn't sell the $8 plan b pill that I saw on their website. I talked with the pharmacist n everything. I only have $12 til Thursday and by then it's too late. Walmart sells a $35 one but obv I can't afford that
I saw ppls posts abt planned parenthood. but the one near me isn't open Sunday and Monday (today) I asked the guy I slept with to help me pay for the pill at Walmart. he said I need to leave it up to fate and he like actually wants me to have his baby. he said it will be awesome UHHHH. I think abt killing myself every 5 minutes tbh
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![]() Anastasia~, annielovesbacon, Argonautomobile, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, NP_Complete, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#271
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I'm so ashamed of myself
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![]() Anastasia~, annielovesbacon, Argonautomobile, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, lucozader, NP_Complete, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#272
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#273
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Omg it's gonna be so cold (and dark) for our next walk, and so the fun walking season begins again LOL
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Grief is the price you pay for love. |
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#274
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i'm not ok.
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![]() Anastasia~, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, lucozader, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#275
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T, I somehow didn’t expect you to do this to me again, to hurt me like this. I feel so sad and alone. I’ll never have what I need. Never. I’m scared that now that I’ve been honest, you’ll take away even more from me over the next few weeks. Probably you will. I know I’ve made you angry.
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![]() Anastasia~, lucozader, SlumberKitty
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