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#221
Everything is awful without you.
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#222
T? Can we stay here for a while? There is a lot here and I never knew about it before you. I can hear you telling me we can stay here as long as I need but I still may need to hear it IRL.
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#223
I did something I should not have done last night... hehe
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#224
So some stuff has gone down today that I have found upsetting, and someone just emailed me, at 11pm "Echos, would you like to talk?" And it brought tears to my eyes, but I'm also annoyed with this person, and also it's 11pm, so... no I don't.
Then I read last week's IST (which I wrote up and never posted on PC) and I remembered how much you understood the importance of the memory I shared with you, and I remembered what you said about my ex's feelings towards me. And I felt it all again, all the love, loss, pain, and love for you, the only person who really knows what that all meant to me. Now my ex is dead, you are the only person who I could ever share those memories with. Why am I here in this situation? Why am I doing the job I am doing? Why am I a mother? A wife? Why do I live in this town? Why do I do the things I do? What is the meaning of any of this? Is this who I am supposed to be? I know you can't answer these questions. Maybe they don't have answers. |
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#225
ExT I am speechless you lead me to believe you werent seeing clients any more. You demanded honesty from me but you failed to be honest.
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#226
drumming is wonderful and i am coming down from the anxiety of the past several days. i hope you will drum for me some thursday, as well. i want to work with last night's dream but i need someone else to drum for me so i can better get into it. and then we can work with both. and if you have any solid tips for dealing with this stupid anxiety, please put on your traditional t hat and share.
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#227
I feel ya on working on the anxiety, art. I'm struggling big time with it as well.
hey t: I never thought we'd discuss/work on eye contact. at least you are trying to make it as non-threatening as possible I suppose. |
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#228
What did I do so wrong that you never want to see me again?
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#229
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#230
Hugs, Lemoncake.
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#231
Hugs @Lemoncake
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Dear T: I'm having SH thoughts again. I wish I could talk to you about them. I mean, I probably will when I see you on Tuesday, but I meant before then. You keep telling me we need to find a viable alternative. Well you didn't use the word viable but that's what you meant. I've never been able to find a viable alternative to SH and I've been doing this too long. Can you help me? Please tell me you can, but only if you mean it. Kit
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#233
You stifled a yawn today. I saw that. It’s ok. You’re human. Plus I was just rambling on.
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#234
Today you sat with my despair. You didn't try to change it, you didnt rescue me (though you later told me you had to resist the urge to try and make it better), you just let me be in it, get it all out, the dark thoughts, the uncertainty, the sadness and the anger. You didn't try to make it better. And so you made it better. More bearable. Shared. I love you.
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#235
Yeah I'm bringing wine tomorrow. K? K.
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#236
My husband doesn’t want me.
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#237
ExT I am deeply conflicted I want to cling to you but I also want to push you away. It is soo hard.
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#238
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#239
Thank you for helping me not have to sit with that today. It wouldn't have made sense to sit with it for another two weeks.
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#240
Dear T,
Felt really connected to you today--thank you. Perhaps it will make me miss you more, but I think it will also help me to hold you with me better while you're gone. Also you were quite endearing when demonstrating ways I could better pretend play with my D, using the voice you'd use to talk to a child--perhaps that spoke to and comforted Little LT in a way. Travel safely, if you're in fact traveling. Love you, LT |
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