Couch 204: The Refactorable Couch

I didnt like to admit to my exT that i liked the idea of rituals i just heaped scorn on him and i have no idea why. Yes, i do it was to keep him at a distance and look how well that worked out for me.

Sure do you hve any requests? The oven i have njow will make better naan than i did before.

I start my african drumming lessons tomorrow

If you are under 20-25%, you're probably good. We understand what Turnitin picks up. I don't use it anymore because our district doesn't fund it. Honestly, I can generally pick up on true plagiarism fairly easy since my students write so much; I know their writing quirks and know when they aren't sounding like themselves.

I’ve been around una too long...

Freudians are wily. And often incomprehensible.

I see T in 2 hours. I really don't even feel like seeing him. I think that says something in itself. Planning to talk to him about how I feel we're at an impasse, that I'm having trouble getting past some things he's said/done recently, that I don't think his modality is working for me right now. I don't intend to tell him about the consult Friday or that I have a phone consult (not about him, but with a potential future T, another woman, K--K2? like the mountain?) Tuesday and am meeting with that other guy Wednesday. He doesn't need to know that.

I was thinking of you today.

I hope it goes well.

You don't have to tell him anything you're not comfortable with.

Oooo there's no need to go to any real trouble. I'm happy with ANYTHING. Dinner for me tonight will be cereal.

Yay! That sounds fun.

Are you still painting?

Thanks, Lemon!

It's weird being at Ts on a Monday morning instead of evening. And to know my session will be cut a few minutes makes it even worse. I'm mentally struggling really bad already this morning so this should be interesting.

Hi Couchies. I did a sort of dumb thing. I stopped taking my AD and my AP this weekend. I figured if I felt this bad on the medication, why was I taking it? I felt pretty much the same until today. My anxiety is through the roof (but that didn't happen until I went to work and found out that the Engineer quit--seriously worried how we are going to get jobs out without an engineer). And then I'm anxious about not taking the medication. I've been on meds for so long, I sort of thought it would be good for my brain to reboot, but now I'm anxious that not taking my medication is going to push me further down the hole I'm in. So now I don't know whether to take the medication again, or just see what happens with not taking it. I don't see PDOC until November but I don't forsee my reboot going that long. I'm serious struggling with anxiety and SH thoughts today though so I'm going to take some anti-anxiety medication. I think for sure I'll restart the AD. I'm not sure about the AP. But I was having visual hallucinations yesterday. I get them on or off the meds apparently. I don't know what to do. HUGS Kit

Speaking of which, even though i said i wasnt going to do my poop test, i took the packet out to do it this morning, and IT WAS ALREADY USED!!! Ive been walking around with someone elses biohazard in my backpack all summer. There are not enough eeks on this site to cover that. But at least now i have a good excuse! I mean, darn! Im so disappointed!

I got the opening round of documents from my lawyer. I still need to provide them with his driver's license number, which means I need to figure out which box I put all his stuff in and dig through it to find his wallet. I half-heartedly looked for the box yesterday, but gave up after about 2 minutes because depression/the box isn't labelled/the box was taped up and I couldn't be bothered to find a knife to open it up with/not wanting to dig through his stuff.

It feels like everything is coming undone at the seams at the moment. Also have an unanswered week-old email from my mother who apparently *needs* to come see me next month on the anniversary of my father's death which she now apparently refers to as his birthday for some sort of religious reason. We spent two sessions on this issue last week and I'm still no closer to knowing how to answer her that I don't want her to come without feeling like a complete jerk.

Slumber, can you get an earlier appt with your pdoc? Like asap?

This is the first class I've had it be a part of and I pretty much hate it too already! My prof responded to my email this morning and said that I am not a student that she has concerns at all about and that I should not lose any sleep over it. She said she appreciated my determination to lower my percentage though. (I tried 4 times and lowered my percentage by 10 points but it still seemed really high to me. Can't help it though since it picks up common phrases and the proper names of the different faults, etc that are required answers, and I discovered it also counts information used in your references as well!! yeesh!)

Speaking of which, even though i said i wasnt going to do my poop test, i took the packet out to do it this morning, and IT WAS ALREADY USED!!! Ive been walking around with someone elses biohazard in my backpack all summer. There are not enough eeks on this site to cover that. But at least now i have a good excuse! I mean, darn! Im so disappointed!



You are one tough cookie though.

OMG, that's disgusting. I might have to burn that backpack. How on earth did they send you a used kit?

I was also going to recommend seeing your prescribing doctor.

Oh NP - my sympathies on the parental stuff. And the H stuff.

Man if i could get a guarantee that ECT would stop my nightmares in that department - and about work?

They HANDED it to me at my last appointment

Yeah add it to my list of nightmares!

maybe you could ask if would he be willing to add on the time to another session?

COOTIES.

Slumberkitty I would not advise a reboot with the AP, it can trigger a psychotic break to quit suddenly even in people who never had psychosis. Very dangerous. If you do want to quit try tapering slowly with your pdoc.