Couch 238: Appreciating Small Progress Couch

Hugs, Willow, you don't have to apologize to us.

I hope so I first applied for SSDI in 2010, it was declined, I appealed it, had a hearing in 2012 and lost the appeal. I than applied for SSI in 2013, it was declined, I appealed it, had an appeal in 2014 and lost the appeal. I than decided to stop fighting it at that time. But with everything that had happened to me in the last few years I decided to apply again.

SD, I will say that what we see in the public school k-12 is that students are easily two years below normal development and academic stages due to the pandemic years. They are a hot mess. I’m guessing colleges are seeing the same. It is going to take years for us to hopefully see kids back on track. I honestly don’t know if those that were affected by the pandemic will quite get there at all. I spent a great deal of my teaching time simply on showing students how to do school again. They have become hyper focused on their phones (like in a dysfunctional addictive way we haven’t seen before). They have no social skills. No coping skills. Very volatile. Not every student is that far off, but those that are are seriously delayed.

We will cross our fingers and hope that third time is a charm! HUGS kit

What i said in a earlier post triggered memories from that year that i buried in my brain

Today the time from 6 AM to 11 AM that I was at work went by really fast. The time from 11 AM to now has gone by really slowly. I still have two hours left. I am kind of dreading going home because my parents will probably be all weird about things because of my behavior this morning, but I don't want to be at work either.

I am now watching Bridgerton youtube clips. Much like downton abbey where I could not have watched it all because it is all rather tedious- the clips are kind of fun and you know everything from watching them. Cliff notes for tv

I haven't watched any Bridgerton. I did watch Downton Abbey with my Mom because she really enjoyed it. It was a bit too soppy for me but it was something we could do together.

Lately, I have been enjoying Sister Boniface and Murder in Provance on Britbox.

Edit: I've seen lots of Facebook posts where people are complaining about Murder in Provance because the British Actors are not speaking with a French Accent even though it takes place in France and they have French names (so it's not like they are British ex-pats or something). Well, if one is going to be picky about it, then wouldn't one complain that they aren't speaking in French when it takes place in France? It is just a light, entertaining who-done-it with Nancy Carroll (Lady Felicia in Father Brown) and Roger Allum (I don't know what he is in but a lot of people seem to like him as an actor). So far they only made three episodes. I have watched these three episodes multiple times. I really like the second episode the best.

When I was at the theater watching Minions: Rise of Gru the second time...I saw it first with my parents on 4th of July as something to do, not because we really wanted to see it. Then I saw it again with my sister's children, and my parents as a way to entertain the children while they were here for two weeks. Anyway, I saw a preview for an upcoming romantic/comedy movie with George Clooney and Julia Roberts. While I never have swooned for George, I do like Julia Robert's movies for the most part. I think it is called Ticket to Paradise or something like that. It looks fun and charming and entertaining. Probably will plan on seeing that one later this year. Romantic Comedy's are not my favorite movie genre but for something to do, it will work.

T just texted and said she would like to come meet me sometime and if okay, with my parents also so that "we can form a working together relationship to support you."

Why does this frighten me?

i hope you can accept their help, despite the fear, Kit, you deserve to be helped

people with my disagnosis apparently dont deserve the helps (before i gave up, mental health people would direct me in the direction of learning disabilities, who would then direct me back, they seem incapable of working together)

lesson they taught willowigger: anyone who is called willowtigger does not deserve anything good

I'm sorry you did not get the help that you should have gotten willowtigger. It's unfortunate when different agencies do not work together. I think we will see some changes with that going forward, I know there are more "community" minded approached now than there were say 20 years ago. But just because you did not get the help that you should have gotten, does not mean that you did not deserve to get that help. You are worthy of help, willowtigger. HUGS kit

I think it is because my parents spent tons of years ignoring my "issues" and only since I was hospitalized do they seem to take it seriously. So it is hard for me to count on them. Plus they didn't meet some of my needs as a child so I guess it was already engrained in me that they wouldn't help or wouldn't be able to help. Plus I don't know what to tell them to do that would help. I mean I have asked them to take me to the hospital before and they have done that. But usually I just deal with things on my own.

Edit: Not that dealing with things on my own has worked out all that well....

I told my T I would ask my parents if they would be willing to meet with her. So I guess we will have to have that conversation when I go home. Wonderful. (Sarcasm)

Edit: Nope I chickened out and asked them on text.

T sure has texted me a lot today without actually giving me a session date/time.

Hugs to everyone having a hard time.

Could you ask for one? Something like, "Have you figured out when we may be able to have a session this week?"

Well apparently she is coming to my house tomorrow at 4 to meet with me and my parents. I guess that is a session. Wow. Weird. I have never met with a T in my home before. I don't know what to expect.

Now I'm anxious.

i hope it goes okay, Kit

At least she will get to meet my cat Helen. Probably not Amelia because Amelia is skittish and shy.

You can tell the therapist no - you do not have to let them do whatever and just let it happen.

Sounds like my girl Willow, shy of new people and hides away, Tigger comes over and introduces herself even before she knows the new person

It seems like something she should have discussed in detail with you first. Like had a session where you talked about it. My T has occasionally floated the idea of me bringing in one or both of my parents for a session, but he said if I ever wanted to do that, we'd want to do a bunch of discussion beforehand to figure out what I want from it. Now, it would be different for me because this would be addressing stuff from my past, most likely. While this would be about your parents supporting you now.

But I could definitely see being uncomfortable about it without discussing it with your T beforehand--like does she know what your parents do and do not know about your mental health? Is there anything you'd prefer she keep private? I'd consider asking if you can just do a regular session, then set up a time to meet with your parents in the future.